CHINOISERIE II
I have tried to devote myself to simplicity
But it isn’t that easy.
I trust myself to nothing, not even the star-sprung night sky.
I wish I were able to live in the constant, and wait out
The end, content to live in the come-and-go of things.
But it’s hard, boys, it is hard,
a regret and a non-regret.
Li Po was able to detach self from himself, they say, and
Lower and blend his self into the ten thousand things.
Would that detachment were mine, Lord,
O would it were mine.
The summer tumbles me into its shadowy depths.
It’s dusk again, enveloping dusk,
No lights to light my way, not here nor there
where I could forget myself.