All day and into the evening the army was on the move. Bump, bump, bump went the wagon in which Winloki and some of the other healers traveled, and creak, creak, creak went the wheels, but the sounds came muffled and dreamlike in the heavy fog. So also the slow, steady hoofbeats of the broad-backed draft horses, the low, growling thunder of some six hundred warhorses to the front of the column (at least two for each man, and more for the officers), the light, quick canter of the smaller and fleeter steeds belonging to the scouts and the messengers, who went back and forth constantly between the mounted troops and the long train of wagons and carts—all subdued, all sounding hollow and distant, even when one of the couriers rode by like a shadow in the fog only yards away. Sometimes the mist thinned and gave a promise of daylight ahead; but that promise was never fulfilled, and the air soon became thick with cloudy moisture again.
For Winloki, perched atop a wooden chest full of medicines in one of the wagons, the day dragged on as pure misery. Aside from the boredom, the damp, and the all-pervading chill, she had never dreamed there could be such jolting discomfort as she was experiencing. To ride in a wagon was not in the least like riding on horseback. In the saddle, one learned to fall into a harmonious rhythm, to move as the horse moved, so that the two became one. A wagon offered no such harmony, no such communion. As she pitched and tossed on her uncomfortable seat, she could never quite gain a dependable feel for the road. A bump would come, and Winloki was all unprepared. It rattled her teeth, jarred her very bones, and if she was not careful she would bite her tongue, filling her mouth with the taste of blood.
Much of the time, she suffered from motion sickness, her head swimming and her stomach roiling. She would have gladly climbed down and walked between the wagons like some of the other women, but she feared recognition. On foot, some of the scouts might try to talk to her, as they did speak from time to time with the girls who walked. So long as she remained, clammy and miserable, on the coffinlike box of herbs and salves, with her head bowed and Aija’s brown cloak wrapped tightly around her, everyone apparently thought it kinder to leave her alone.
This is the price that I pay for my deception, Winloki told herself. It is all my own doing, and I must bear it. That was hardly a comforting thought, but it was all she had to keep up her courage.
After hours of such misery, the mist began to grow greyer and darker, a sign that night was finally descending. Some of the riders lit torches, which glowed like small suns in the fog, casting haloes of light about the men who carried them.
Only when it was truly dark did they stop and begin to set up camp, on land that had once been good for grazing before the movements of armies had wounded and trampled it. It was long before the last of the wagons rolled into camp. By that time the tents were already up: pavilions of silk or canvas for the nobles and officers, smaller and ruder shelters for the healers, but many of the other women—the wives of common soldiers, as well as the less respectable camp followers who drove some of the carts—found their way into both sorts of tents.
Winloki shared a lean-to stitched out of hides with two of the healers, Thyra and Sivi, and with a weather-beaten woman and her sixteen-year-old daughter, who had somehow insinuated their way in. Winloki at least was not minded to turn them out. In the chatter and confusion of so many settling down to rest in the dark tent, she was able to go unrecognized for at least one night. That was reason enough to be grateful for their presence.
But she slept very ill with only a bedroll between her and the cold, hard ground, only a single blanket and Aija’s cloak to cover her—she who had never slept but on a goose-down mattress, with a feather pillow and an eider-stuffed quilt and fair linen sheets. She woke in the morning with a stiff neck and a mood of the very blackest, which had not improved in the slightest by the time the tents were lowered and bundled away, and the women returned to the wagons.
That day was as murky and obscure as the day before. Winloki took a seat in a different wagon this time, on top of a grain sack, wedged between a bushel of apples and some rough burlap bags with an earthy smell that might contain turnips.
Like a farmer’s daughter, she thought. Which for all she knew, she might very well be: a poor man’s child with a gift for magic, sent north because someone felt threatened by that gift. Yet she did not think she was a farmer’s or a herdsman’s daughter: all of her dreams, the good and the bad alike, were of palaces and temples and other such marvelous places.
On the evening of the third day, Winloki’s wagon, as one of the heaviest and slowest, arrived in camp long after nightfall, when the fires were already lit and the supper cooking. She had dozed off earlier on her sack of grain, but she woke when the wagon creaked to a halt, to a fragrance of woodsmoke, the sound and the scent of sausages and onions sizzling in a pan. Her stomach had still not settled, and she felt too weary and ill to move. She merely curled up again in her uncomfortable nest, and slept for the rest of the night.
But waking both hungry and parched to the braying of horns at dawn, she rubbed the sleep from her eyes, climbed over the side of the wagon, and set out in search of water. She could smell the horses all around her, hear the stamping of their heavy feet, their soft whickering, and she could also hear the gurgle of a stream running over stones somewhere nearby. She felt her way through the gradually lightening mist, past wagons and tents, past cookfires being lit and men arming up and belting on their weapons, moving always toward the sound of running water.
She fell in with a party of women on a similar errand, some carrying buckets and some carrying pans. Before she had gone more than a few yards in their company, she heard a clink of metal, and two men in steel hauberks appeared out of the fog, one of them carrying a lantern.
“Orders,” he said. “No women to leave camp without an escort. We’re in dangerous territory now.”
So…they had left the frequent villages and wide, cultivated fields of the Herzenmark for the more sparsely settled Haestfilke, far too close to the border and Eisenlonde. With this realization came an unhappy stir among the females, an exchange of wide-eyed, nervous glances. Some hung back, but Winloki went on ahead with the men, and soon she could hear the others following behind.
Reaching the banks of a shallow but swift-running stream, they found a party of scouts already before them, watering their horses and simultaneously receiving orders from a stocky young man in a long green cloak. Winloki paid them scant heed, intent as she was on washing and drinking.
Kneeling on wet grass at the edge of stream, she splashed water on her face. It was shockingly cold, but the sound and the scent of the water so near made her thirst nearly unbearable; she bent lower still, and scooped up a handful to drink. It tasted of minerals washed down from the mountains, and it was by far too chill for her empty stomach. A sudden sharp pain took her breath away and doubled her up on the grassy embankment.
She unbent with an effort, reciting a charm to ease the cramp. But as she straightened, the hood of her cloak slipped off; the hair tumbled down over her shoulders in a mass of red-gold tangles. Somewhere behind her a familiar voice uttered a cut-off obscenity and called out her name.
With a jaded and weary glance back over her shoulder, Winloki spied Skerry striding in her direction, his dark hair bristling and his green cloak flapping behind him. Knowing that the time for concealment had well and truly passed, she resigned herself to the coming unpleasantness. Nor could she even hope to put Skerry off with her tricks or her spells—for one thing, he knew them all.
By the time he arrived at her side, she had already scrambled to her feet. Determined to brazen the thing out if she possibly could, she greeted him with her chin held high and an imperious little gesture. “You’ll not tell anyone that you saw me here!”
“I?” said Skerry, between gritted teeth, as he reached out and took her firmly by the arm. “I won’t say a word. What I will do is take you to our cousin, who can say to you the things that only a king’s son may say to a princess!”
And he led her, whether she would come or not, up the bank from the stream, between two lines of picketed horses, and finally to the Prince’s great tent of dew-drenched green silk, where she received a far from cordial welcome.
Kivik turned an ugly shade of white; he shot Skerry an incredulous glance. Receiving a tight-lipped shake of the head in response, he sputtered out an oath. “It wanted only this! What are you doing here? No, don’t bother to answer, for it’s plain enough. You are a wicked and willful girl—and what I am to do with you only the Powers and the Ancestors know!”
Winloki had nothing to say, now that the reckoning, which she had always expected, had finally come. Wisely, she kept her thoughts to herself and her eyes on the ground, while the Prince tore her character to shreds and cursed the day he had ever met her. Finally, he choked out another oath and fell ominously silent.
That silence continued so long, stretched on past the point where curiosity got the better of her, that she dared to raise her eyes and study the faces of both her cousins. Skerry was grinding his teeth and snorting like a warhorse in a very bad temper, while Kivik had gone from white to red, and all but breathed fire.
“Too late,” he said, with a simmering glance in her direction, “by far too late to send her back. We can’t spare half our army, which is what it would take to do it safely, when the enemy might just as well be behind as ahead of us—and the scouts are practically useless in this foul mirk. She will be safer with us for the time being.”
“So it would seem,” replied Skerry. “But let us hope that the King doesn’t suspect us of abetting her from the very beginning.”
At this, Winloki abandoned her resolution to suffer their displeasure in a dignified silence. “Do you think I would allow you to take the blame for what I have done?” she asked indignantly. “Do you imagine I have no more pride, no more honor, than—”
“We don’t think anything of the sort. Nor does my father!” Kivik retorted. “Which is why, no matter how you protest our innocence, he will never believe you.”
With a sinking sensation, Winloki realized that what he said was true. A wave of contrition swept over her—not quite sufficient to cause her to question her motives or regret her behavior, but it was an unpleasant feeling nevertheless.
“I will try to be as little trouble to you as I possibly can,” she offered meekly. “I will continue to ride in the wagons with the other women and live in all respects as poor Aija would, if I hadn’t taken her place.”
“Which is exactly what you can’t do, nor I allow, now that I know you are here,” snapped Kivik, far from mollified. “I will assign four trusty men to guard you at all times. And if—if!—you really mean not to make any trouble, you will accept that arrangement with all good grace, and do nothing to evade their watch.”
It hardly seemed an auspicious moment to argue that point, or indeed any at all. So Winloki merely nodded in wordless agreement and resolved to bring up the matter of the guards again later, when Kivik should be in a more equable temper, and Skerry—Skerry was acting more like himself.
As if she had expressly ordered it (and perhaps she had), the fog burned off before noon that day. Riding along between the wagons on a chestnut mare belonging to one of the scouts, with her escort of four riding ahead, behind, and to either side of her, Winloki felt remarkably conspicuous crossing that wide, rolling landscape in the broad bright noontime, the only female on horseback among three hundred riders.
And yet she was glad to give up her uncomfortable place in the wagon, pleased and excited to be in the saddle enjoying the spring sunshine, enjoying the constantly changing scenery of this pleasant green country. Up ahead, banners snapped in the wind; bronze helmets and shield bosses shone in the sun; over all stretched a shining sky of brilliant blue. It was simply not in her to be less than blissfully happy on such a day.
Haakon, the youngest of her guards, nudged his rawboned piebald gelding a little closer, so that they were riding almost knee to knee. The gelding was an ugly creature of no particular breeding, but very strong and a good deal faster than anyone might think, or so the youth had confided to her earlier. Lif was its name, and he had raised it from a foal on his father’s farm. Haakon also appeared long-limbed and gangly, though he possessed a face of such singular beauty as a girl might envy. He seemed heartbreakingly young to be going to war, even to Winloki, but, just like poor Lif, there was more to Haakon than met the eye. Skerry had praised him as a fierce fighter who had already distinguished himself in battle.
“I wouldn’t look quite so blithe, were I you, the next time Prince Kivik comes by,” said the boy, lowering his voice, but giving her a quick conspiratorial smile under his dark eyelashes. “They say he’s still in a terrible rage.”
Winloki shrugged. She did not fear Kivik, and was capable, if she chose, of matching him temper for temper. Besides, Kivik had other things on his mind, compared to which, her presence here was an entirely minor and trivial matter.
Because of the fog, they had veered many miles north of the place where they were to meet Hialli and Eikenskalli and the other marshals. They could change their course, make it right again, now they could see the way, but they could not make up for lost time, not with the wagons, and the day they had agreed to meet had already come and gone. And when Kivik sent scouts ahead to the appointed meeting place by the River Nisse, they had ridden back two hours later to say that the marshals and their armies were not there, nor seemingly had ever been. How could they mistake the signs of such a large encampment, so many thousands of men and horses?
Of course, it was altogether possible that the marshals had also gone astray in the heavy mist. As for the other armies, they might only be five or ten miles off in any direction, just out of range of the scouts. Anytime now, one or two riders might come hurrying back with the welcome news that a great mass of Skyrran cavalry had been spotted over the next hill.
But for the first time, when Winloki thought of those foggy days just past, the mist did not seem so friendly. What if it had served her own purposes so admirably? There might well have been another well behind it, one that wanted to sow confusion among the armies of Skyrra.
At that idea, a cold shiver ran down her spine and she felt a cold, heavy feeling in the pit of her stomach. The mist had seemed wholly innocent, wholly natural, but what did she know of these things, truly, with her little knowledge and her untrained talents? That, too, was an uneasy thought. Winloki had always considered herself equal to or better than any person or situation she might chance to meet—but supposing there was someone nearby working magics, someone who knew more, and understood more, and could do more than she? Someone beside whom she and her fledgling gifts were negligible?
She suddenly began to doubt herself in other ways, to realize that perhaps she had never been nearly so brave as she imagined. Perhaps what she had mistaken for courage was only arrogance and ignorance. It is easy to be fearless when you think no one can best you, no one can harm you.
To banish those thoughts, she turned to Haakon, searched her mind for something she might say to start a conversation, anything to distract her from her fears, these disturbing revelations of her own character.
“You were born near here?” she ventured at last. “My cousin said that he thought you were.”
“Some twenty miles to the north,” the young man replied, gesturing. “But I’ve been all over this country.” And he proceeded to regale her with stories of his youthful adventures in this wild land.
He was in the midst of a hair-raising story when his voice suddenly died, and he reached out to take the mare by the bridle. Winloki turned on him a startled and angry look, but he shook his head and advised her to listen.
She did listen, and now she could hear it, too: a rising murmur among the riders up ahead, followed by the clatter of hooves as two of the scouts came riding at great speed back toward the wagons.
“Eisenlonders,” shouted one, as he rode past Winloki and her guards. “A great many of them.”
What happened next was pure chaos and confusion in Winloki’s eyes, though those around her seemed cool-headed enough to know exactly what they were doing. Amidst a great deal of shouting and backing of horses, the wagons changed course, heading toward the rising, more defensible, ground to the north. Reluctant to follow, in sudden doubt as to what was expected of her, Winloki hung back. “If there is going to be a battle, they will need healers.”
“The healers come in after the fighting,” said Haakon, taking the reins out of her hands. “Princess, begging your pardon, you’d only be in the way.”
Yet Winloki remained uncertain, until she saw that the older, more experienced healers were going, too. Then she consented to be led.
It was a hard pull up the hill for the heavier wagons. Axles groaned, and wheels found little purchase, but the stolid draft horses caught some of the tension and made a valiant effort, straining at the traces with their big heads down. At last they were all there at the top of the rise, in a great loose circle two wagons deep. The drivers unhitched the horses and led them into the center for their better protection. At the same time, some of the other females hastily began to unload bales and barrels and cords of firewood, piling them up in the gaps between the wagons, forming a solid barrier. Two companies of riders had detached themselves from the rest of the army and stationed themselves outside the circle, waiting with their swords drawn, in case the enemy should try to storm the hill. Some of the drivers carried bows and arrows with them, to defend themselves at need, and those few quickly armed and clambered up onto the barricade.
Winloki urged her mare through a noisy ferment of women and horses, edging toward a better vantage point, where she could look down on the battle. By that time, the Eisenlonders had come into view: a great mass of riders, too many to count, and hundreds of foot soldiers, carrying axes and spears that glittered in the sun.
“I didn’t think they would be mounted. At least not so many of them,” she said, catching her breath at the sight. She had expected a ragged barbarian rabble, not these well-armed men in armor of leather and steel, and certainly no cavalry worthy of the name.
“They are great horse thieves, the Eisenlonders,” answered one of her guards, a man called Arvi, curbing his dancing black stallion. “They’ve been carrying off the pick of our herds for years.”
Down below, trumpets sounded, swords and spears and axes clattering against shields as both lines spread out. A loud cry went up from the ranks of the Eisenlonders, a bestial howling, and Winloki saw that there were uncanny wolflike creatures among them, rising on shaggy grey haunches, almost like men, and clashing their yellow teeth.
As if in response to a common signal, both armies swept forward at once. The thunder of that charge caused the very air to vibrate; the world seemed to tilt. Watching them, Winloki felt a flush of triumph, a thrill of pride, for it was a lovely thing to see: all the bright banners flaming out on the wind, green and gold, blue and red; the beautiful, spirited horses stretching out from a canter to a gallop, with their silky tails streaming behind them, and the grass bowing in the wind of their passage; the sun reflecting off iron-bladed spears and long, slender swords.
But then the two lines came together with a roar and a clash of arms, a shock that reached all the way to Winloki up on her hilltop. Shields and lances met and shattered. Horses screamed and reared up, fighting the air. Horns blared. Men cried out in agony.
At first, it was difficult to sort out her impressions—it was all just hideous noise and turmoil, the smell of blood on the wind. But as more and more men and horses went down, she began to feel their pain and terror battering at her in great waves, to hear their dying screams ringing inside her skull. She covered her ears, bowed down over the horse’s neck, and screwed her eyes tightly shut; but it was no better that way. Empath and healer as she was, the horror was inside her as much as without. Bile rose in her throat, almost choking her, and sweat broke out all over her skin.
Winloki raised her head. Fighting for breath, she opened her eyes. A red mist obscured her vision. All around her was a seething mass of skittish sidestepping horses, of women weeping with fear and excitement. Down below, metal hammered against metal, against flesh and bone, and men were dying in their own blood. Arrows flew. Horses threw their riders to the ground and bolted. She saw some of the fallen stagger to their feet, catch hold of dangling reins, and heave themselves back up into strange saddles, but many more were crushed and mutilated under stamping hooves.
Gradually she became aware of little whirlwinds of movement between the men and horses, of threads and tendrils of shadow that flowed and crept across the ground. They weaved in and out among the combatants—apparently unseen, as no one reacted to them—but every now and then a tentacle would break away from the central mass, rear up, and take on an almost-shape of man or beast that would strike out against the men of Skyrra with the rude beginnings of a hand, or a claw, or a taloned foot.
Watching the shades was like looking at something out of one eye. They had no depth, no dimension. Being shadows, they had no shadows themselves; they seemed to have no sides, only surface; they were almost impossibly thin and tenuous.
Yet if they had hardly any substance, they had power and will and the strength to do harm. They did do harm. Again and again Winloki saw them overwhelm men and horses, who fell and never knew what struck them.
Sometimes it happened that one of the shadow things was trampled under the hooves of a warhorse, or a warrior caught one on the backstroke of his swing, or an arrow meant for the Eisenlonders struck one. Then that shade would dissipate and fade like smoke. But how were men to defend themselves effectively against things they could neither see nor sense?
Meanwhile, Winloki’s guards watched the battle with eager faces and burning eyes. They seemed to understand it all far better than she did, for several times they raised their fists and shouted. Perhaps, in spite of the shadow-things, her countrymen were faring much better than she thought.
“Are we winning?” she asked faintly.
“Aye,” said Arvi grimly, “though with heavy casualties on both sides.”
But then the tide of battle shifted; Kivik’s line broke and scattered. There was fighting at the very foot of the hill. Winloki saw a man beheaded, and another impaled. She saw werewolves attacking the horses, pulling them down. She saw shadows engulf the fallen riders, swallow them up, and drain them of life.
Watching these things, she felt crushed with horror. She had imagined that she was strong, had honestly believed herself accustomed to the ugliest sights, having treated wounded men, set broken and shattered bones more times than she could count. But she had never seen blood pumping from an open wound, never seen swords hew living flesh, or arms and legs and heads hacked off before her very eyes. Once, she had even helped to amputate a leg below the knee when the patient was sedated with syrup of poppy, dazed with mandragora—that had been soul-shaking enough, but nothing to compare with this, this carnage, this obscenity of men being butchered by other men.
And this is war, she thought. Behind all the tales of glory and heroism, this was the reality: this din, this chaos, this filthy, bestial, wanton waste of life. Why did they do it? What could possibly be worth it?
As though sensing her thoughts, Haakon spoke somewhere behind her, over the hoarse shouts of the fighting men, the shrill neighing of the horses. “We didn’t start this, my Lady. We’re only defending our own lands, our own people. We never wanted it to come to this.”
She looked back at him over her shoulder, bewildered and only half-comprehending. “They started it? It was none of our choosing? But even so, why would they—?”
He shook his head, reached down and patted his shivering piebald gelding. “Rightly speaking, I don’t suppose they started it either. Someone has been inciting them. They’ve always had nasty habits, the Eisenlonders, but they were never like they are now: raping and burning, consorting with skinchangers.” On the field below, Kivik stood high in the stirrups, brandishing his sword and calling out to his men, rallying them. “Nor were there ever so many of them, or so well armed.”
It was too much for her to take in; it made her head ache just to think of it, let alone try to understand it. “But why? What could anyone have to gain, sending them out to slaughter us, to be slaughtered themselves? Who could possibly hate us so much?”
He shook his head again. Her questions were simply unanswerable, yet the proof of his words was there on the battlefield before them, living and dying in a welter of blood and a cacophony of human misery.