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| 10 | Headline No. 1, from KTLA: “A body riddled with bullets,” KTLA News website, July 18, 2009, 9:39 PM PDT. Reprinted courtesy of KTLA. |
| 33 | Excerpt from “You Cannot Rest,” from Watching the Spring Festival by Frank Bidart. Copyright © 2008 by Frank Bidart. Reprinted by permission of Farrar, Straus and Giroux. |
| 56 | “arrow flew, as if of itself”: From Frank Bidart, “The Fourth Hour of the Night,” from Half-Light: Collected Poems 1965–2016 by Frank Bidart. Copyright © 2017 by Frank Bidart. Reprintd by permission of Farrar, Straus and Giroux. |
| 57 | Expert quoted by the Los Angeles Times, Sept. 6, 1995, “New Wave of Mayhem; Juveniles Are Increasingly Committing Violent Crimes—and Experts Don’t Know Why or How Best to Stop Them.” Reprinted with permission of quoted expert. |
| 174 | Excerpt from “Jet Song,” from West Side Story by Leonard Bernstein and Stephen Sondheim. © Copyright 1956, 1957, 1958, 1959 by Amberson Holdings LLC and Stephen Sondheim. Copyright renewed. Leonard Bernstein Music Publishing Company LLC, publisher. Boosey & Hawkes, agent for rental. International copyright secured. |
| IMAGES | |
| 14 | Photo of Michael from Danielle’s wedding. Photo by Laura Slatkin. |
| 23 | The author and her cousin, Michael, at her wedding. Photo by Sharon Renee Hartley. |
| 28 | The entrance to Los Angeles Valley Community College. Photo courtesy of Isaac Van Hallberg. |
| 48 | Michael Allen, in Central Juvenile, with mother, Karen Allen, autumn 1995. Photo by California Youth Authority. |
| 48 | Michael Allen in California Rehabilitation Center–Norco, date uncertain. Photo by California Youth Authority. |
| 48 | Michael Allen in California Rehabilitation Center–Norco, date uncertain. Photo by California Youth Authority. |
| 48 | Michael and Karen Allen, Visiting Day in California Rehabilitation Center–Norco, 2004. Photo by California Youth Authority. |
| 49 | Michael Allen, during second phase in prison, 2007–2008. Photo by California Youth Authority. |
| 84 | Michael in Centinela, on prayer rug. California Youth Authority. |
| 86 | Map of places where Michael was incarcerated. Map created by Anna Oler. |
| 87 | “Norco, CA State Prison,” 2015, photo by Stephen Tourlentes, courtesy of Carroll and Sons Gallery, Boston, MA. |
| 96 | “Chino, CA State Prison, 2015,” photo by Stephen Tourlentes, courtesy of Carroll and Sons Gallery, Boston, MA. |
| 100 | Elizabeth Eckford turning away from hostile crowds outside of Central High School in Little Rock, Arkansas, Sept. 4, 1957. Bettmann/Getty Images. |
| 108 | Aerial photo of California Rehabilitation Center–Norco. Courtesy of the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation. |
| 126 | Fire burns above the city of San Diego. Photo included in U.S. and California governmental report, “The Story: California Fire Siege 2003.” Courtesy of CAL FIRE Archives. |
| 136 | Fire burns along a hill line endangering homes. Courtesy of CAL FIRE Archives. |
| 154 | Newborn. Photo courtesy of Karen Allen. |
| 158 | First steps. Photo courtesy of Karen Allen. |
| 164 | Childhood. Photos courtesy of Karen Allen. |
| 166 | Kindergarten graduation. Photos courtesy of Karen Allen. |
| 168 | Michael on the hillside sidewalk where he crashed his bike. Photo courtesy of Karen Allen. |
| 190 | Michael on a junior high school football team. Photo courtesy of Karen Allen. |