Your other women are well-behaved.
Your magnolias and Simones.
Those with the fine brave skin like moon
and limbs of violin and bones like roses.
They bloom nocturnal and are done
with nary a clue behind them.
Nary a clue. Save one or two.
Here is the evidence of them.
Occasionally the plum print
of a mouth on porcelain.
And here the strands of mermaids
discovered on the bathtub shores.
And now and again, tangled in
the linen—love’s smell—
musky, unmistakable,
terrible as tin.
But love is nouveau.
Love is liberal as a general
and allows. Love with no say so
in these matters, no X nor claim nor title,
shuts one wicked eye and courteously
abides.
I cannot out
with such civility.
I don’t know how to
go—not mute as snow—
without my dust and clatter.
I am no so-and-so.
I who arrived deliberate as Tuesday
without my hat and shoes
with one rude black tattoo
and purpose thick as pumpkin.
One day I’ll dangle
from your neck, public as a jewel.
One day I’ll write my name on everything
as certain as a trail of bread.
I’ll leave my scent of smoke.
I’ll paint my wrists.
You’ll see. You’ll see.
I will not out so easily.
I was here. As loud as trumpet.
As real as pebble in the shoe.
A tiger tooth. A definite voodoo.
Let me bequeath
a single pomegranate seed,
a telltale clue.
I want to be like you. A who.
And let them bleed.