“You resigned your teaching job?” Three days later Rick sagged against the door frame at Wranglers Ranch Day Care as he stared at Penny in disbelief. “Was that wise?”
“Why? You don’t think I’m capable of running a daycare?” The defensiveness coloring her voice sent him backtracking.
“You could probably do it with one hand tied. That’s not—it’s just—” He stopped, winced, licked his lips and started over. “Congratulations. I’m sure you’ll be very happy here.”
“Yes, I will be.” Penny’s effervescent smile flashed, igniting a glint of excitement in her already joyous expression. “I have so many plans.”
“Plans you couldn’t carry out as a teacher?” he guessed and knew it was true from the way she peeked at him through her lashes while slowly nodding.
“A public school has restrictions on what teachers can do in the classroom and that’s understandable. But Wranglers Ranch is a Christian outreach ministry to kids so it’s different here.” Her whole face came alive as she spoke. “I believe a daycare that has the same faith and purpose as the rest of the ranch will be a marvelous complement.”
“But what about your summer, your holidays?” Rick couldn’t fathom why she’d suddenly decided to give up her career.
“Too many holidays are boring. I like to keep busy.” Penny’s face evidenced no worries. In fact, her enthusiasm communicated itself without words. “This job is my dream. It will be a rush to make Sophie’s July first deadline, but we’ll do it.”
“I’m sure you will, but you can’t care for the twins with all you have to do here.” Rick made the comment while fervently hoping and praying she’d reject it.
He’d been able to accomplish so much work in the past week, far more than at any time since the twins had taken over his life. He’d even had energy to ride bikes with the twins in the evening, to take them for a picnic on the weekend, to laugh and tease over dinner instead of rushing to accomplish everything before bedtime. Katie and Kyle also seemed more relaxed, happier now that the routine of seeing Penny every day was established.
“I guess I better start looking for someone else to be with the twins,” he said.
“Why?” Penny demanded, staring at him intensely. “With you working at Wranglers, once the daycare’s open, they could attend here. Wouldn’t their transition to here and then school be easier on everyone if they continued with me?”
Rick sagged with relief. He’d tied himself up in knots wondering if Penny had only taken on care of the twins out of a sense of duty to Sophie. Judging by the kids’ excitement when he’d picked them up each day, he knew they enjoyed being with her. So now seeing Penny’s obvious discontent at the prospect of not caring for them confirmed his hunch that she enjoyed their company and wasn’t doing this out of a sense of duty.
“Why would you even think that?” she asked, a hurt tone in her voice.
“I’m thinking of you, Penny,” Rick said mildly, hating that he might have hurt her. “I don’t want the twins to wear you out before Wranglers Ranch Day Care even opens its doors.”
“You, Tanner, Sophie. You’re all so worried about me. You must think I’m a doddering old maid. I won’t be twenty-eight until August, you know,” she protested as red spots appeared on her cheeks.
“Trust me, Penny. When I think of you, I do not think of a doddering old maid.”
Wasn’t that the truth? And the fact that Rick did think of her, a lot, was something he was going to have to correct. His focus needed to remain on the twins and on making the three of them into a family. He couldn’t afford to get sidetracked by the pretty woman standing in front of him, no matter how special she was.
“Good to know.” Penny grinned cheekily then arched an eyebrow. “So?”
“It’s a deal. Katie and Kyle will stay with you,” Rick said in a firm tone. “After all, I don’t want to—” He paused. Winced.
“Don’t want to—?” she prodded.
“I was going to say look a gift horse in the mouth.” He peered at her worriedly. “You don’t think I’m calling you a horse, do you?”
Penny’s hoot of laughter brought the twins running to see what was so funny.
“You came too early, Uncle Rick.” Kyle’s face wore a fierce frown.
“You don’t want to go home with me?” Rick tried to hide his hurt. Obviously he wasn’t doing his best at parenting if the kids preferred Penny to him and returning to his un-homey ranch.
“We can’t go home till after the bar-cue,” Katie explained. “Aunt Sophie ’vited us, ’member?”
“Um—” Confused, Rick looked to Penny to explain.
“That’s barbecue, Katie.” She lifted her gaze to him. “Sophie invited all Wranglers staff including the kids of our soon-to-be daycare clients to a barbecue this evening. I think she texted you about it.” Penny ruffled Kyle’s hair, smiled when Katie reached to grasp her hand then glanced at Rick. “You’ll come, won’t you?”
“I guess, though I’m not exactly dressed for partying.” Rick glanced down at his dusty jeans. “But I am in the mood to celebrate. I finished a job today. The house will be cleaned tonight and the family can move in tomorrow.” Satisfaction created a bubble of energy inside him. “Now I’ll have two permanent crews building the cabins here. I’m pretty hopeful that we will finish on time.”
Then the bubble burst. Finishing the cabins by his deadline meant leaving Wranglers Ranch, and that meant he’d have to find another caregiver for the twins.
“It must feel wonderful to create a home and so gratifying to know a family will benefit from your work.” Penny’s generous smile held no undertone but in his mind Rick heard a tiny voice ask, Like Gillian benefitted from the house you built for her?
“Yes, it does feel good,” he agreed and pushed away the heaviness of guilt.
“So, we’re about ready to head over to the patio now. Coming?” Penny waited for his nod, her eyes as bright as the blue cotton sundress she wore. Its full skirt was splashed with the vivid colors of hibiscus flowers. The wind tugged at those flowers, making the skirt swirl around her legs as she walked beside him. The twins raced ahead then ran back to urge Penny and Rick to hurry.
“We’re coming,” Penny assured them. When they were gone again she addressed him in a lowered tone. “Earlier we were talking about barbecues and I noticed they seem to have memories of outdoor cooking, but they talk as if that was over an open fire. They said it wasn’t a wiener roast.” Her manner was inquisitive.
“Gillian and her husband were missionaries in a very remote village in Africa,” he explained. “The twins were born there and played with the other children. I don’t think they ever thought they were any different than the other kids. When Gill first moved back after her husband was killed, she used to joke about having to get used to cooking on a stove again. So my guess is that she prepared a lot of their meals over what we’d call campfires.”
“Missionaries. What a life they must have lived.” Penny remained silent for the rest of the way, obviously deep in thought.
Seeing that the patio teemed with people and children, Rick snagged a table with benches near the periphery and settled the twins while Penny fetched drinks for all of them. The laughing and chattering quickly died away when Tanner tapped his spoon against a glass.
“Thanks for joining us.” He looped an arm around Sophie’s waist and drew her near him. “We’re getting so busy at Wranglers that we don’t often get a chance to just be together. Tonight is that time. We hope you’ll enjoy Sophie’s good cooking and use this gathering to get to know each other better. And yes,” he promised with a smile and a nod at his stepdaughter Beth. “Later we will have s’mores around the campfire. Along with some singing.”
“But tonight’s main goal is for you to relax and have fun,” Sophie added.
“It’s our small way of thanking you for being the best staff ever and for making Wranglers Ranch into the outreach facility that our founder, Burt Green, dreamed of. Our success is due to God using you. So thank you for joining us in this ministry.” Tanner lifted his glass of punch, and everyone joined in the toast to future success.
Moments later the chattering was once more going full force and the twins along with the rest of the kids were invited to roast hot dogs over the fire. Rick nodded permission and Katie and Kyle scooted off to join the daycare’s future clients. He chuckled as they dashed away without a backward look.
“Sophie’s gone above and beyond with that feast.” Penny inclined her head toward the loaded buffet table. “I don’t know how she does it with three kids in the house.”
“She’s like you. Extremely organized,” Tanner said from behind them. “Glad you could make it, Rick. Penny wasn’t sure you’d be here.”
Rick glanced at her, silently asking why.
“Because you’re so busy.” She giggled. “And you wouldn’t have come if we hadn’t brought you along tonight. He didn’t read the text Sophie sent,” she explained to Tanner.
“I read it,” Rick corrected then added sheepishly, “I just forgot.”
“Given you’re a new dad, I totally understand that issue,” Tanner assured him. “Kids provide a steep learning curve for a single guy. Just ask Sophie about me.”
Penny’s amused laughter did funny things to Rick’s midsection.
“I’m glad I came, though,” Rick said. It was the truth and his pleasure didn’t only come from being with Penny. “After this party I’ll have a pretty good idea of who belongs at Wranglers and who doesn’t. We don’t want trespassers on the job site. My company’s priority is always safety.”
“Good to know,” Tanner approved. “Safety is our priority at Wranglers Ranch, too, because we always have kids coming and going. Seeing what you’ve both done so far, I’m confident you’ll do a great job with the cabins, Rick, and you with the daycare, Penny. But for tonight, please relax and enjoy yourselves.” He lifted his hand in a salute before moving on to the next table.
The twins returned with their hot dogs and Penny settled them at the table, insisting Rick retrieve his own dinner. When he returned, he found her talking to a couple whom she introduced as the camp nurse, Ellie, and her husband, veterinarian Wyatt Wright. Then he met Maddie and Jesse Parker. Jesse was one of the youth workers who took a personal interest in ensuring troubled kids had someone to talk to. Both the Wrights and the Parkers had children who would be attending the daycare Penny was organizing.
There were more people, of course. Names blurred as people kept stopping by to welcome them. Rick was better with faces and figured he’d soon be able to identify every ranch employee. He particularly liked the way people who stopped by greeted the twins and was very proud of the polite way the two responded.
The relaxed family-type atmosphere along with the sheer number of staff and volunteers surprised Rick, but what impressed him most was that everyone seemed comfortable rubbing shoulders with their coworkers. No wonder Penny wanted to work here. An amiable workplace made a world of difference to how you felt about your work.
“Isn’t it great?” she murmured when the other adults had moved on.
“What?” He took a bite of his hamburger and savored the succulent beef. “This? It’s delicious.”
“Actually, I was talking about this place.” She waved a hand. “Wranglers Ranch. It’s like a little town. Everyone knows each other. Everyone has the same goal—to reach kids. The only difference is our parts in that goal.”
A surge of satisfaction filled Rick at knowing he’d be part of it, too. For a little while, at least.
He didn’t want to think about after, when he was finished with the work here. He especially didn’t want to think about not seeing Penny every day, not being able to bounce ideas about the twins off her or listen to that joyful burst of laughter whenever she found something new to appreciate about life.
Rick had until September 1 when the last cabin needed to be complete. Maybe if he prayed hard enough God would work out a solution for him with the twins by then. Maybe He’d also find a way to erase his guilt over Gillian’s death and let him find the same joy Penny had.
* * *
Later that evening Penny sat on a log bench with her shoulder rubbing Rick’s as she soaked in the wonderful ambience of worship around the campfire. When Kyle couldn’t settle she gathered him onto her knee and hummed along with Tanner’s guitar-playing. Rick cuddled Katie the same way and by the end of the song the two were fast asleep.
“Wranglers Ranch has been a life-changing experience for Sophie and me, and for our family.” Tanner’s voice was quietly reflective as he strummed a background accompaniment.
“We’ve seen God touch lives in marvelous ways, ways we never dreamed possible,” Sophie agreed. “Very soon we’ll launch our daycare, which we see as another opportunity to minister to more kids, younger ones this time.”
“We’ll start with your children, if you bring them. My hope and prayer is that God will use your kids to reach other kids, other parents and other people for Christ.” Tanner glanced around the group. “Reaching kids is our mission here at Wranglers Ranch, and Sophie and I are so glad and so thankful that you’re on board with us.”
“Each of you is blessed with a special gift, a niche of service that God gave especially to you.” Sophie smiled at her husband. “I’m sure you’ve seen the sign over the barn that says, ‘Fan into flame the gift that is within you.’ Our ranch started with Burt Green and his faith in God’s plans for Wranglers Ranch. Burt strongly believed that Tanner could be the means to making his dream happen, but Tanner didn’t even believe he had a gift.” She smiled at her husband. “I doubt either of them in their wildest dreams could imagine what God has created here today. Perhaps you, too, are astonished at how He is using each of us as an integral part of His work at Wranglers. Don’t be. If we’re available and willing, God will use us.”
Penny met Rick’s gaze, unashamed of the tears in her eyes.
“Tears of joy,” she whispered when he frowned.
She was startled when he reached out and brushed one off her silky cheek. “You’re such a softy,” he murmured.
But she knew he was just as moved as she was by the sweet communion of these moments around the fire.
“As we go through summer Sophie and I would like to challenge each of you to fan your own gift into flame. If you see an area where we’re missing something, a niche you could fill, a child whose heart burdens yours, tell us.” Tanner smiled. “Let’s work together to make this the best summer our Wranglers Ranch kids have ever had. Let’s make an impact for God. Let’s pray for that.”
He led them in a prayer of dedication that had Penny’s heart singing with excitement at the prospect of joining this ministry.
The Lord will work out His plan for your life.
She’d adopted that verse from Psalms at the beginning of this year, hoping to finally erase the memory of her broken dreams. Yet the brutality of her former fiancé’s hurtful denunciation when she’d most needed him still haunted her. Damaged goods, he’d called her before making it clear that he wanted a wife who had more to give him than Penny ever could. His betrayal still hurt.
Thanks to her friendship with Sophie, Penny had found solace and help when she joined a study of Biblical women, ladies who were also less than perfect and yet they were women whom God used. If God could use someone as imperfect as Mary Magdalene Penny figured He could use her, too. Maybe when she was fully engaged in doing His will the ache inside for a family would fade away.
“Are you asleep like the twins?” Rick’s breath brushed against her ear, giving life to butterflies in her stomach. Why did this man have such a strong effect on her senses?
“I’m wide awake.” She smiled at him, only then noticing that people had begun to leave.
“Did I disturb your praying?” he asked. “I’m sorry.”
“I wasn’t praying, Rick. I was just reminding myself that I’m now a part of this wonderful ministry and feeling excited about that.” She exhaled, trying to contain her anticipation.
“Good for you but that daycare’s going to be a lot of work.” A smile feathered across his damaged face as he studied the twins, fast asleep in their arms. “Fifteen or twenty of these guys running around is going to be a challenge.”
“Which I’ll love,” she promised. It’s not the family I wished for but at least my arms won’t be empty.
“Just don’t wear yourself out.” Rick rose but his gaze remained focused on her. “Listen, Penny, I wanted to ask you—”
Katie wakened and a moment later Kyle followed. Penny suppressed her frustration as whatever Rick had been going to ask was lost in the business of finding the twins’ backpacks and getting them belted into his truck. When they were settled, she blew them each a kiss.
“See you on Monday, guys.”
They nodded, heads bowing with tiredness.
“Actually, that’s exactly what I wanted to ask you.” Rick stood behind her, closer than Penny realized as she turned to face him. She stepped back an inch as he said, “Sunday is my dad’s birthday. I wondered if you’d like to spend the day at the lake with us. You could swim or boat or just relax if that’s what you prefer.”
“Water-ski?” The question popped out of her lips without thinking.
“My parents do have a ski boat.” He lifted an eyebrow, a tiny smirk flickering at the corner of his mouth. “Does that sweeten the deal?”
“Yes.” She blushed at his burst of laughter. “I would very much enjoy going to the lake with you and the twins, Rick. And I love to water-ski so if there’s a chance to do both, I will gladly accept. Thank you.”
“Good.” He thought for a moment. “I’ll pick you up at nine?”
“I’ll be ready. What can I bring?” she asked, her mind already considering what would be an appropriate birthday gift.
“Nothing. Mom’s been cooking for days. She creates this massive birthday dinner for Dad. The chocolate cake is always enough for twenty people so after everyone’s had all they want she freezes the rest.” He grinned. “She thinks she’ll have it for dessert for ages but Dad often sneaks some to have with his coffee without telling her. It’s usually gone long before she realizes it.”
“Your parents sound like fun,” Penny murmured, envious of people she’d never even met. “I look forward to getting to know them. And, Rick?”
“Yes?” He studied her with that serious look she interpreted to mean he expected trouble.
“Thank you for inviting me,” she said, and meant it.
“You’re welcome. Good night.” He waved then drove off.
Penny stood in the shadows and wistfully watched the little family leave. Rick didn’t know how blessed he was. He had a forever home to return to, a family where he belonged, roots and strong connections with people who would always welcome him back with open arms and gladness in their hearts.
Penny had never enjoyed any of that. She could never look up her past, trace her family tree or visit a cemetery to find the headstones of relations now departed. Tracing her birth mother had long since proved futile. She didn’t belong to anyone.
A familiar pain stabbed deep into her soul. Alone. What a horrible word. Knowing she would never have a family like Rick’s, that it could never happen, really hurt.
But God hasn’t forsaken you. You’re part of Wranglers Ranch now.
Yes, she was. Penny intended to make the staff at Wranglers like her extended family; the ranch would be the home she’d never had. The children of Wranglers Ranch would fill her life and she would pour her heart full of love over every single one of them. No, her life wouldn’t be like Rick’s, but she was determined she’d make it happy as she managed Wranglers Ranch Day Care.
Yet as she drove home an unspoken question lingered in the recesses of her mind.
Would working at the daycare be enough of a substitute for a family of her own?