London
THE ROSES WERE GLORIOUS.
Heavy-petaled, crimson peach and palest blush-pink, they glowed through the florist’s window. Even through the glass Gray Mackenzie could almost smell their lush perfume.
Around her the honking horns and squealing brakes of Oxford Street faded away to nothing. As if in a dream, she watched herself turn and push open the door to the neat little florist shop.
She would buy a dozen of them.
For herself. Just because she wanted to.
It was a gesture totally unlike her, of course. Lingering jet lag, perhaps?
Gray worried her lower lip. She’d arrived only last night after a hellish flight from Philadelphia, and this morning her pale cheeks showed the strain.
“Yes, miss. ’Ow can I ’elp you?” The proprietor was short, red-cheeked and impatient to get on with his work, though he was trying hard not to show it.
Gray pointed. “Those roses in the window. They’re—magnificent. No, not the modern hybrids. There, to the right—the old ones. The centifolia roses with the densely packed petals. ‘Lisette,’ aren’t they?” She delighted in the cluster of rich fuchsia blooms tucked in an elegant crystal vase.
There was something sad about her, the bald-headed proprietor thought. Not like the usual Yanks who came in here, flashing their plastic, talking fast and loud. Only hybrids would do for their sort.
But this one was different. Careful and slow in her speech, she was. And she was a rare and proper beauty, what with that auburn hair spilling over her shoulders and skin that seemed almost too translucent to be real.
And those eyes! Purest sea-blue, they were. They put him in mind of a tropical beach at dawn.
The florist frowned, wondering why such a beauty went about dressed in a dark skirt and a nondescript gray jacket. Then he sniffed. None of his business, after all.
But the flowers were.
He nodded, approving her choice. “Quite right, miss. ‘Petite Lisette.’ ‘Normandica’ over ’ere. I’ve a few ‘Fantin Latour,’ as well. You know something of roses?”
“Not a great deal. It’s just…a hobby.” Gray knew the blooms must be terribly expensive. “I think—yes, I’ll take them. All of them.”
The florist’s estimation of her soared several notches. She had good taste, this red-maned Yank. But perhaps she didn’t understand exactly what she was looking at. “That will be ten pounds each,” he murmured discreetly, just in case she wanted to back out.
Gray’s eyes flickered. The figure was extortionate!
She did a quick calculation, counting nearly two dozen cut stems. In one sweep she saw most of her cash going.
But those roses would be worth every penny. Every shilling, she corrected herself, savoring the rich-veined damask of the petals, drinking in their heady scent. “I’ll take them all,” she said decisively.
Yes, it was time she put the past where it belonged and treated herself to something special.
The florist gave her an approving smile. “Very good, miss. I’ll just fetch some paper to tie them up.” A moment later, he disappeared into a curtained alcove.
Behind Gray the front door opened with the tinkle of a bell. Chill air swirled through the little shop. Crimson petals dipped in the swift currents and Gray brushed a curl from her cheek.
Behind her came the creak of a floorboard, and then the rasp of a dry voice.
A familiar voice, even after five years.
A voice straight out of her nightmares.
“Lovely, aren’t they?”
She spun about, her heart pounding. Dear God, don’t let it be him. Anyone but him!
But the man in the shadows by the door was broad-shouldered, his skin bronzed from long hours in the sun. Bleached nearly white, his long hair feathered low over his eyes.
Brown eyes, not green.
Not like her ex-husband’s at all.
Gray squinted into the shadows. Appearances could be changed, after all. She of all people knew that.
The low, dry voice continued. “Such a pity that they die so soon after they’re cut.” The man’s brow rose when Gray did not answer. A smile drifted over his lips. “Sadly, that is often the way with things of beauty. They never last, you know.”
Suddenly all the old panic arose. Gray felt her hands begin to quiver. The cold eyes narrowed, studying her, frankly curious now.
“Ex-excuse me. I—I must go.” She spun about and stumbled to the door, fear tightening her throat.
Behind her the curtain swished open.
“’Ere, miss, come back! You’ve forgotten your roses!”
But Gray was too busy stumbling through the impersonal crowds of Oxford Street to hear.
“JUST OVER THE HILL, it is. Take the first roundabout and then watch for the second turning. That road will take you direct to Draycott Abbey, miss.”
Gray smiled her thanks to the healthy, red-faced village boy and put her rented Mini into gear, trying to forget the curiosity that had gleamed in the boy’s eyes as she had asked directions to the abbey.
When are you going to stop being so jumpy? she asked herself angrily. It’s been five years, after all. Why can’t you just let it go?
But Gray knew why.
Because her ex-husband was free again. Because all the high-tech equipment in the world hadn’t kept him behind bars.
Away from her.
And now it was just a matter of time until he tracked her down, just as he’d sworn to do.
Her fingers clenched against the steering wheel as she fought down dark memories. Memories of what he’d threatened to do if she revealed any part of the dirty little arrangements he excelled at.
But Gray had revealed what she’d heard. Every detail, every damning fact she had spilled to a packed courtroom and an army of eager reporters.
And the last thing Matt had screamed before he was jostled out of the courtroom was that he’d find her somehow. And when he did, he’d make her pay.
Biting down a jerky breath, Gray sailed through the roundabout and eased the gearshift to low. She tried to tell herself she was making too much of the situation. Matt had escaped, yes, but the security officers in Washington had assured Gray it would be just a matter of days until he was back behind bars.
Meanwhile, they had told her, a visit to England—especially to this quiet little backwater of Sussex—would be an excellent idea.
As Gray drove, she went over the conversation, looking for details she might have missed then. But no, the officer—Harrington, wasn’t it?—had been calm, professional and totally unalarming.
There was absolutely nothing to worry about, he’d promised her. Not with all the levels of protection and security that had surrounded her case.
Yes, she was to go off to Sussex and work. Leave the heavy stuff to them, he’d ordered briskly.
The man was a professional. Of course he was right, Gray told herself as forested estates rushed past in a blur of green. She had to forget all this brouhaha about her ex-husband and concentrate on her work.
Especially now, when she had the assignment of a lifetime before her.
At that moment, a second lane came into view. Above the trees Gray caught a quick glimpse of weathered towers and stark stone walls.
Her heart began to pound.
How well she remembered her friend Kacey’s letters describing the great moat-encircled structure with its picturesque stone gatehouse and climbing roses. Blond-haired Kacey, the new bride of the Twelfth Viscount Draycott, had been an unshakable friend to Gray at a time when she had desperately needed one.
And Gray was determined to do her best work for Kacey now.
She shoved the gearshift into Second and sent gravel flying up, savoring the feel of the Mini as it hummed down the narrow drive.
As she passed beneath a line of overhanging oaks, the years seemed to slip away. Suddenly she was young again, with all things possible.
Without warning a speckled brown deer darted across the road. She slammed her foot onto the brake and wrenched the wheel violently, barely managing to avoid the animal.
Gray’s breath hissed free. Her fingers gripped the wheel. Abruptly, she remembered another time she’d driven down a quiet country lane, remembered how much she’d been enjoying the feel of speed and control when a dog had shot out onto the road.
Matt had cursed and wrenched the wheel away from her.
That night, they’d had their first disagreement. Their first full-blown quarrel. Their first—
White-faced, Gray clutched the wheel, struggling with fear and raw despair. Down, down, she pushed them, back into the dark cubicle she reserved for her past. For anything to do with the other woman she’d been before her name had been changed, and her features altered.
Before she’d become Gray Mackenzie.
Put everything to do with Matt out of your mind, the counselors had ordered. You’re Gray Mackenzie now. Forget that Moira Jamieson ever existed.
With a ragged breath, Gray sat back.
She ought to be happy, after all. She was making a name for herself at last. Her work was found in architecture quarterlies and trade publications on three continents. She was almost established enough to pick and choose her assignments.
She was a success, by anyone’s standards.
But inside, Gray knew differently. Inside she was still shy, gawky Moira Jamieson, an uncertain little nobody from a backwater town in central Maine.
Matt had known that, too. In fact, he’d never let her forget it.
Out of the corner of her eye Gray saw a dark shape separate from the thick woods.
Her heart lurched as a tall figure emerged from the dark tree line. Gray stiffened, half-expecting to see her ex-husband’s sullen face swim into view before her.
But it didn’t, of course. Matt would never find her here, not on this quiet estate tucked away in the middle of the English countryside. With any luck he might even be back behind bars already.
Keeping that thought firmly in mind, Gray turned to study the man walking toward the car. The moment she did, she regretted it.
Heat poured into her cheeks; her breath caught in her throat.
He was nothing at all like her former husband. Hard, keen eyes the color of wintry seas stared back at her from a rough, weather-hardened face. His nose was high and his lips were full. Dark and thick, his hair brushed the top of his broad shoulders.
It was a face capable of much pride, Gray thought. A face capable of much stubbornness. It was also a face dark with secrets, secrets that would not be easily revealed to anyone.
And it was indeed the face of a stranger, just as she’d known it must be.
Yet somehow not quite a stranger?
Something nagged at the back of Gray’s mind. Something Kacey had told her in one of her short letters before she’d left on her honeymoon with Nicholas Draycott?
Gray frowned as she saw the man scowl, then move directly in front of the car. Of all the colossal arrogance! The insolent fellow was blocking the road!
Reluctantly, Gray coasted to a halt, making no attempt to conceal her irritation. Muttering under his breath, the man stalked straight toward her.
A moment later, his black-clad legs banged full against the front fender, almost as if he were unaware that the car existed. Cursing roundly, he stared down at his knee, then looked back up at Gray.
Drinking, no doubt. Just her luck to run into an English lush! But sweet heaven, the man was tall—well over six feet.
Unconsciously Gray studied the hard muscles rippling beneath his soft dark shirt and the long thighs that braced and tensed as he moved around to stare at her through the open window.
And Gray stared back, pointedly and quite rudely.
Her interest was strictly professional, of course. Merely the impersonal concern of an artist assessing a possible subject.
But that explanation didn’t stop strange tendrils of heat from licking at her cheeks and uncoiling through her stomach. And that knowledge only made Gray angrier.
She gulped down a deep breath, fighting for calm. Get a hold on yourself, Mackenzie. The man’s a stranger, remember? Just a stranger.
“Where are you going, woman?”
His voice was low and richly accented. For some reason the sound of it made Gray flush, made the fine little hairs at the back of her neck prickle and rise.
“Straight up this drive—if you’d just move out of the way, that is.” Maybe even if you don’t, Gray thought irritably.
“What business have you here?”
Her hands tensed against the steering wheel. “I might ask the same of you!”
Gray glared, but even then the man did not move back from the window. Clearing her throat, she tried a more direct attack. “Do you mind? I’ve just had a long ride from London and I was hoping to—” She halted abruptly. “This is Draycott Abbey, isn’t it? Don’t tell me I missed the second turn.”
With every word the man’s black mood seemed to deepen. “Yes, of course this is the abbey, woman! And these are Draycott lands. But how in the name of all that’s holy did I—” He stopped, then plunged long fingers through his thick black hair.
Gray barely noticed his tension, too relieved by the assurance that she was finally near her destination. Soon she would be ensconced in one of the lovely old chintz-and flower-filled rooms Kacey had described. There she would be safe from Matt, safe from any and all distractions while she completed the work she’d come here for.
But the man outside the window continued to frown, showing no sign of being finished with his interrogation. “What sort of game are you playing at, woman?”
Gray felt her cheeks redden. Game? Was the fellow mad or just terminally rude?
“I’ve come on an assignment—for Lord Draycott, not that it’s any of your business.” Suddenly she stiffened. “You can’t be—good heavens, you aren’t Lord Draycott, are you? That is, I expected someone—”
Shorter? Younger? Less imposing?
She didn’t finish, held captive by the intensity of his slate-dark gaze.
“I? Nicholas Draycott?” The man’s dark brows rose as he laughed bitterly. “By God, that’s rich! The woman thinks—”
Suddenly a rustling at his feet called his attention to the ground, where a sleek gray cat pressed against his black-booted ankles.
He seemed to catch back his words, his eyes narrowing.
Gray didn’t mean to give him time for any more questions. “Well, if you’re not Lord Draycott, then I’m wasting my time here. So if you don’t mind—” she gestured at the gravel drive “—I really would like to reach the abbey before the light goes.”
The man’s frown grew to a decided scowl. “Mind? Who am I to mind? When am I ever consulted about anything?” Suddenly he bent closer, his eyes scouring her face. “Ah! You must be the artist. American, I believe.”
Gray merely glared. “Are you going to move or not?”
The slate eyes glittered. “I believe not—Miss Mackenzie.”
Suddenly Gray felt cold—very cold. So what if he knew her name? Why did any of this matter?
But it did. For some reason it mattered intensely. Perhaps it was something about the man’s face, something sad and bitter in the way he laughed…
Enough, Mackenzie. Get out while you still can.
One last question leaped to her lips. “Who are you? What gives you the right to cross-examine me?”
Did she merely imagine that he stiffened? “I? I am…Adrian. The caretaker, as you would call it.”
Gray frowned. Caretaker? He was like no caretaker she’d ever met before. A tiny network of lines radiated from the corner of his eyes, and she had a sudden urge to touch them, smooth them.
“Have I ever—I mean, have we ever—”
Ridiculous! Of course they hadn’t met before.
But how else was she to explain the familiarity of that lean face, her instinctive knowledge of the pain that haunted those wintry eyes? The heat hidden in that stern mouth?
With a gasp, Gray recovered herself. “N-never mind. Of course we haven’t.”
Outside the car the man smiled slightly. Draping his arm along the metal roof, he bent closer, his eyes darkening. “If you mean by that obscure bit of gibberish have we met before, the answer is no. But I do have the advantage over you, Miss Mackenzie. Kacey told me you were coming.”
It was a lie, of course. The viscount’s bride had said nothing to Adrian Draycott about Gray Mackenzie. But a ghost had ways of hearing nearly everything that happened within his domain, particularly when he was a resident ghost of the guardian variety.
In that sense Adrian supposed his answer about his identity had not been a lie. In his role of guardian he had chanced to overhear Kacey and Nicholas speak about Gray Mackenzie several times before their departure.
But no amount of discussion could have prepared Adrian for the pure beauty of the woman who sat before him now.
Nothing could have captured the glow of her alabaster skin, the fiery sheen of her wild auburn hair.
The wariness that darkened her azure eyes.
And those things made Adrian want to sweep her against him and drive the fear from her eyes. To kiss her and tease her and coax a laugh from her soft lips.
And then carry her down to the ferns beside the moat and slide deep inside her, filling her with his hard heat until she shuddered and arched in breathless abandon beneath him.
Adrian stiffened. What in the name of heaven was wrong with him? He was a ghost. He hadn’t had such raw impulses for years!
Two hundred years, to be exact.
He scowled, trying to fight down the heat that rose insidiously toward the seat of his manhood. Abstracted, he ran his finger down the rim of the roof, leaving a long trail in the dust atop the car.
But how was it possible? This woman saw him. She heard him. And somehow he was beside her in physical form, with fingers that moved and felt and left a visible mark against dusty metal.
He had managed to materialize once or twice before, of course, in times of dire need. He had even appeared to Kacey once, desperate to warn her of the danger that she and Nicholas faced unless they found a way to trust each other.
But never had those appearances been more than temporary, and never had they involved a tangible flesh-and-blood body such as he now possessed. Certainly Adrian had never before felt the intensely physical things he was feeling now.
Yet here he stood, the wind ruffling his long black hair, the sun warming his neck, the metal of this clamorous four-wheeled conveyance cool and smooth against his all-too-real fingers.
In physical flesh-and-blood form, by God! Accomplished without conscious thought or effort of any sort. Damn, but it was unnerving.
Was this another test? Or was it simply a new twist to his ancient duties at the abbey?
He smothered a curse, trying to understand, knowing already that he would not succeed.
Meanwhile the look in the eyes of the woman beside him told Adrian that to her he was only too real, and that the sight made her vastly uncomfortable.
Somehow that hurt Adrian Draycott most of all.
For at that moment, he felt a stunning need to sweep the fear from those wary azure eyes forever. To see those petal-soft lips curve up in joy and wonder.
Shocked by the force of these unfamiliar emotions, he could only stare down at her pale face, fighting to understand this sudden and intense need to protect her.
Beside him, Gray swallowed. What was happening to her?
The man was handsome, there was no mistaking that. But the sun would soon be setting and, if she dawdled any longer, she would miss the best time for viewing the abbey. “I—I’d really better go.”
She tried to look away, but the storm-black eyes continued to hold her. Motionless, the black-clad stranger merely stared back at her.
And the look was pure heat, a beam of summer sun poured through leaden clouds straight into her heart.
Frowning, Gray swept unsteady fingers over her forehead, then clutched the wheel. “I—I’m going to go now. If you don’t want to lose a toe or two, I’d suggest you move back.”
She tried to make her voice cool, but all she felt was utterly foolish as she looked down and fumbled with her keys. What in heaven’s name was wrong with her?
In that second, a hard hand reached out to catch her fingers, pulling them from their trembling hold on the steering wheel. His eyes were tense, unreadable. “Don’t go.”
Gray’s heart beat wildly. “I b-beg you pardon?”
“To the abbey. Don’t go.” His voice was harsh. “Go back to London instead. And then go back home, Gray Mackenzie. Back to wherever you come from in America.”
Gray nearly flinched. “Don’t go? Just like that? After I’ve come ten hours by plane and another five by car?” She felt her cheeks burning. “Not on your life, mister!”
A vein pounded at Adrian’s forehead. “Wretched female! There is danger here, don’t you see? And somehow you are involved, though I cannot yet say how. But I bloody well won’t permit my abbey—”
“Your abbey?” Gray laughed in disbelief. “Funny, I could have sworn that Nicholas Draycott was the abbey’s owner!”
The caretaker’s fingers tightened on hers. His calloused thumb inched across her cold palm, leaving an odd trail of warmth against her skin. His eyes flashed dangerously. “Of course he is. But Nicholas left me here to…to keep an eye on things, shall we say? In his absence, of course.”
Muttering angrily, Gray tried to tug her fingers free but failed. “You take your duties very seriously, don’t you? But then, I’m clearly a dangerous sort, just bristling with evil designs upon the abbey’s treasures.”
“You might be more dangerous than you know, Miss Mackenzie.” For long seconds the frowning caretaker stared down at their entwined fingers. Abruptly he released her. “Mark me well. If you go farther, know that you do so on my land.” His slate eyes narrowed. “And it will be me to whom you’ll answer then.”
Gray glared back at him. “No, I have a much better idea! You stay out of my way! My work will keep me quite busy enough as it is. Believe me, the very last thing I need is an ill-mannered, supercilious junior gardener with delusions of grandeur and an advanced case of paranoia poking around while I’m trying to concentrate!”
Without waiting for an answer, Gray wrenched at the gearshift and sent the car plunging forward. Gravel hissed and spun beneath the flying wheels and a moment later, the forest bled away in a blur of green.
But with every second, Gray felt her neck prickle, felt her cheeks flush. Somehow she knew the unblinking slate-gray eyes were following her still.
And she couldn’t help but wonder at her nagging certainty that she’d seen those strange, implacable eyes somewhere before.
HE WATCHED, MOTIONLESS as her car sped down the drive and disappeared over the hill.
Damn and blast, he hadn’t meant to frighten her! In fact, he hadn’t meant to say most of the things he had. He’d only meant to warn her of the danger he felt and then try to find out if she could explain its source.
He certainly hadn’t meant to touch the woman.
But he hadn’t been thinking straight at the time.
After all, he hadn’t expected to be knocked speechless by the vision of a wary beauty with a mane of auburn hair and azure eyes. He hadn’t expected to see full crimson lips that trembled slightly at some private fear.
He certainly hadn’t expected to feel this fierce compulsion to protect her. From everything and everyone.
Even from yourself?
Cursing roundly, Adrian turned away from the road. He raised one hand before him, then the other.
Slowly, almost hesitantly, he ran his fingers over his tense forearms, feeling soft wool and hard, bunching muscle beneath.
Frowning, he dragged his booted toe through the rich dark earth, then stared fixedly at the small furrow raised in its wake. “So I really am here. And I haven’t the slightest memory, the slightest clue as to how it came about.”
Grim-faced, he raised his head and stared at the spot where the noisy green car had just disappeared. “One minute I’m caught up in dreams and the next I’m thrust down without a hint of warning into dirt and noise and a body I can barely remember how to maneuver. The whole thing is bloody impossible!”
But there were the powerful forearms, the booted legs to prove him wrong. He scowled down at his outstretched palms. “Muscle. Blood. How strange it all feels. How…heavy. And how vast a responsibility…”
A butterfly with azure wings skimmed past, looped around his fingers, then settled onto his calloused palm.
For a moment Adrian Draycott’s face darkened. He stood unmoving, mesmerized by the sight of those frail wings fluttering upon his long, calloused fingers.
Just like her eyes, he thought.
Azure with flecks of gold. Like sunrise on a warm summer sea.
He shook his head abruptly, forcing away that particular memory, feeling a half-forgotten heat rush through his legs and move inexorably upward in a way that was distinctly disconcerting.
And all too human.
But Adrian Draycott was not about to be deterred from his ancient obligations. Not by anyone or anything.
And before the night was over, he was bloody well going to know just what in the blazes was going on here at his abbey!