Chapter 26

Carter

“Save me!” Jolene signs, one-handed, as Trina drags her to the door of the den and the glitter-covered craft table that awaits.

I grin. Okay. I tap Trina on the shoulder. “Let her go,” I sign.

“But I want—”

“She did crafts with you yesterday. Plus, I… promised her… a bike ride.”

Jolene looks at me, surprised.

“You did not!” signs Trina. “You’re lying!”

“You’re right,” I sign. “I was lying. But not anymore.” I look up at Jolene. “Want to go on a bike ride?”

She nods.

“I promise I will take you right now,” I say. I look down at Trina. “See?”

“Not fair!” She crosses her arms.

“Maybe we’ll do a craft when I get back,” Jolene signs to her. She looks up at me. “Bike ride… ?”

“I promised,” I sign.

She throws on her shoes and we head out the door, out the gate to the parking lot. The sun is shining, and for once the humidity from the lake doesn’t make you feel like you’re swimming everywhere. A perfect day for a bike ride.

“You know you’ve never taken me on your bike?” she signs.

“Never?”

“Never.”

“Well, here’s the deal…” I explain how to be a good passenger and hand her the helmet.

“Where are we going?” she asks after scrunching it down over her curls.

“I don’t know,” I answer. “Let’s see.”

Her weight is different from Robin’s— she’s taller and a little curvier—so it takes time for me to get used to the balance. Once I do, though, it’s smooth sailing.

We coast through little main streets until I find myself on more and more remote roads. We pass Amish kids working in fields and a buggy or two on the road. Jolene releases me to wave as we ride past. The horses toss their heads but never break their trot.

Finally, I realize where the bike is taking us—to the overlook where I first took Robin. I smile to myself and pull into the lot, parking the bike, and unbuckling my helmet.

“So loud!” Jolene signs after setting her helmet on the bike and before finger combing her hair. The corners of her hazel eyes crinkle, and I see that they’ve turned their customary summer green. With an Irish mother and Puerto Rican father she looks white in the winter and Hispanic in the summer, which is when her eyes turn a brilliant dark green. One time we were walking to the 7-Eleven when some photographer asked to take our portraits for a series he was doing on “The Diversity of New York City.” She ate it up—used one of the photos as her profile pic for ages.

“So loud!” she signs again.

I nod and smile, signing, “Yes!” I “hear” the bike the same way I “hear” a parade or a thunderclap or a train—the vibrations in the air and the ground and a very distant roar. I know it’s loud. I can feel that it’s loud. I can feel that it gets louder when I gun the motor. But I’ve never heard anything loud. Even when I wore hearing aids, nothing was loud. It was just… not silent all the time.

“Oh my God,” Jolene signs, walking to the crest of the hill. “This is beautiful!”

“It’s where I took Robin for our first date,” I sign.

“So cute,” she signs.

“What do you think of her?” I ask. We sit on the grass at the top of the hill and I pull out my phone, snapping a picture. The Nikon’s back in my room.

She shrugs. “You want the truth?”

“Yeah,” I sign, and I know it’s going to be bad. Nobody says, “Do you want the truth?” and then follows it up with, “I love her and she’s amazing.”

“I think she’s… sweet. But insecure.” It takes her a while to find the right words. “Is she always that uncomfortable?”

“She’s different around you guys,” I protest. “She’s usually bubbly and bright and funny…” but she’s right, of course. The past few days Robin’s seemed like a different person. We went to Grape Country Dairy and she kept apologizing for it. She loves that place. I didn’t understand.

Jolene shrugs. “All I know is what I saw, Carter. I saw a hearing girl who’s not comfortable in a Deaf world. That’s all.”

“Speaking of hearing girls, where’s your CI?” I’d been meaning to ask her ever since Robin pointed it out.

Her tan skin turns redder and she picks at little blades of grass before answering me. “I… was sick of things being weird between us. I thought it might help. Did it?”

I smile. “I guess so… ? To be honest I didn’t really notice one way or the other.”

She nods.

“But thanks. It’s a nice gesture.”

“You’re welcome.” She smile and plays with a patch of clover.

I wave to get her attention. “Is it like you remember?” I ask.

“I don’t know. I guess so.” She looks out at the lake for a while before talking again. “I don’t even wear it all the time in New York. I keep a case in my purse and take it out on the subway, on the street. I’d probably wear it all the time here. This place is so much quieter than New York. It’s… peaceful.”

I smile. “Too peaceful,” I sign.

She laughs and turns away, the wind ruffling her hair, and my phone buzzes in my pocket. I pull it out and glance at the screen.

Carter! Church performance is this Sunday!

I sigh and type, “Sure.” Sunday is the day after everybody goes back to New York. I’ll probably want a distraction anyway, even if it’s church and music.

“What’s that?” Jolene asks.

“Nothing.” I put the phone in the pocket.

“Didn’t look like nothing.”

“Robin is singing at her church,” I sign. “So I’m going on Sunday.”

She shakes her head, a smile playing on her lips.

“What?”

“Nothing!” she teases, using my word against me.

“What?!”

She looks me up and down. “You’ve got it bad, Carter,” she signs. “Music AND church? Never thought I’d see the day…”

I shrug. “It’s important to her.”

“And she’s important to you,” she signs. “It’s sweet. You’re so stubborn, I never thought you’d change for anybody.”

“I’m not changing,” I argue.

She holds her hands up in surrender before signing, “Okay, fine. I never thought I’d see the day you willingly go to a concert. At a church. But I guess you do those things all the time, since it’s not a change for you.”

“You always have to be right, don’t you?” I sign, smiling.

“I don’t always have to be right. I always am right,” she signs back.

I laugh and shove her shoulder. She tries to balance on the steep hill for moment, her eyes wide, hands spread, before toppling over in a giggling heap. I laugh and hold my left hand out to help her up while signing “Sorry!” with my right hand. She waves me off, pretending to be mad, and gets up on her own. I reach over to help her brush cut grass off her shirt and see something flash out of the corner of my eye. It’s a guy in a white wrestler-cut T-shirt and gym shorts. That Trent guy. Robin’s ex-boyfriend. The hotshot musician with an early admission scholarship to Berkeley or something.

He jogs up to us, Frisbee in hand, smile gleaming. It’s so similar to the first time I saw him, I wonder if this is all he does—plays Frisbee at the overlook, waiting to interrupt my dates. But this isn’t a date. Not really.

“Hey,” his mouth says, overenunciating. Probably yelling. “Who’s this?” He points at Jolene, who smiles in return.

“Jolene,” her mouth says clearly as she sits up. “And you are… ?”

She must be talking too because he startles. “I’m Trent,” his mouth says in a quick recovery, the smile spreading back over his face.

“Nice to meet you,” she says and signs.

“Nice to meet you, too,” he replies. His eyes bore into me, speaking so I can see every word. “Does Robin know you’re here? With this girl?”

I reach for my little pad of paper but it’s not there. I haven’t needed it for days. I shake my head and look away.

“Sign it to me. I’ll translate,” Jolene signs, and I shake my head again. “Not worth my time, or your time,” I sign. I don’t want to talk to this guy. Robin and I are no business of his.

Jolene turns to him, signing as she speaks. I guess she can’t bear to leave his questions unanswered. “Robin wouldn’t care. We’re just friends. I’m only here for a few days.”

He raises his eyebrows. “Robin wouldn’t care? Let’s see about that.” He holds up his phone. “Smile.”