Awareness itself is what mindfulness is about.
It is not about achieving an ideal, or a particularly desirable or longed-for special state.
If the mind is thinking: “If I meditate I’ll always be compassionate, I’ll be like the Dalai Lama, I’ll be like Mother Teresa” or whoever your spiritual guru/hero of the moment is, it may help to remind yourself that you don’t stand a snowball’s chance in hell of being like the Dalai Lama or Mother Teresa or anybody else. Nor do you know what their interior experience is.
The only person that you have the remotest possibility of being like is yourself. And that, when it comes down to it, is the real challenge of mindfulness: the challenge to be yourself.
The irony, of course, is that you already are.