“HE’LL BE BACK, Cait.”
Caithren looked up from her feet, which were trodding a path through Lincoln’s Inn Fields. “I know he’ll be back,” she replied to her new friend Kendra. “He lives here.” With a sigh, she made her way over to a stone bench. “You just don’t understand. He promised me we would be together this morning. He said he had something to tell me.”
Kendra sat beside her, her features lit with intrigue. “Any idea what?”
Slowly Cait drew her hat off and set it on the bench. Sweeping her hair from her face, she watched a dove flutter from the sky and peck around in the grass, foraging for food. A fresh scent in the air hinted at coming rain, reminding her of home, but the thought did nothing to raise her spirits.
“You’re hiding something,” Kendra insisted. “I can tell.”
“Are you always so observant?”
“Always,” Kendra said smugly. “So what is it?”
“This is going to sound daft.” Cait licked her lips and smoothed the skirts of the blue day dress she’d borrowed from Kendra. Until the Gothards were caught, she felt safer disguised as an Englishwoman. “I realize we’ve known each other less than two weeks, your brother and I, but I thought…well, I thought maybe he’d be asking me to marry him.”
Kendra clapped her hands. “I knew it!”
“Nay, you don’t understand.” Tears sprang to Caithren’s eyes—oh, how she hated that. She brushed at them angrily. “He made such a point of saying we’d talk in the morning. Then he disappeared.” She turned on the bench to face Kendra. “I was wrong. He only wanted to tell me we cannot be together. But he lost his nerve, or just decided something else was more important.”
Her new friend reached to take her hands. “Maybe you misunderstood about this morning.”
Cait shook her head. “Impossible.”
“Then something unexpected came up.” Kendra’s fingers squeezed tight. “I’m sure of it. Didn’t you say you needed some papers for your brother? I’ll wager he wanted to take care of that before he talked to you. And when he does, it won’t be to say you cannot be together.”
“It doesn’t matter what he went to do or what he’s going to say.” Caithren pulled her hands from Kendra’s and hugged herself. “I hadn’t made up my mind, anyway.”
Jason’s sister fixed her with a penetrating stare. “Oh, yes, you had.” She smoothed her own apple-green skirts. “Whether you know it or not.”
Uncomfortable under that gaze, Caithren rose and resumed walking.
Kendra jumped up to follow. “How is your arm today?”
“It’s healing.” Cait shook her head in disbelief. “After English doctoring. I never would have thought it.”
“They say never trust an English surgeon. Quacks, one and all.” Kendra grinned. “How was it cut? You said you would tell me.”
A small smile threatened to burst through Cait’s melancholy. “I never said anything of the sort. You said you would ask.” She took a deep breath. “Wat Gothard nicked me with his sword. We think he was going after your brother.”
“He was?” Kendra stopped dead on the path, her face a mask of concern. “Maybe Jason went after Gothard. What if he’s not here because he’s hurt?”
“Hurt?” Cait echoed numbly. “He was going to warn Scarborough today, but he said nothing about chasing down Gothard. He doesn’t know where to find him. We don’t even know if he’s in London.”
She couldn’t bear to think of Jason hurt. He didn’t want to be with her, and he didn’t want to tell her, either. That was all there was to it. He would have said something were he planning to go after Gothard.
Kendra was still watching her, as though waiting to be reassured. Suppressing her own unease, Cait touched her friend’s arm. “Your brother didn’t go chasing after Gothard this morning.” When Kendra still looked wary, Cait forced a smile. Surely there was nothing to be worried about. “I’m certain of it. You yourself said he wasn’t after revenge.”
Kendra nodded, apparently placated. “Still, I cannot believe you were injured. It sounds so romantic, being saved by the man you love.” She leaned against the rail that edged the path, her eyes lit with envy. “My life is so boring. What sort of adventures have you two been up to?”
So much had happened, Cait didn’t know where to begin. And she couldn’t bear retelling all the events that had brought her to respect and love Jason in such a short time. It hurt too much. “Your brother brought me from up north to here. A long, tiring journey. Things happened.”
“Things.” Kendra’s voice sounded speculative, but she let the matter drop. “At least tell me what you meant last night when you said you hadn’t cared properly for your cut. What could you have done that the doctor didn’t?”
“There are healing plants, but—”
“You’ve knowledge of healing?” When Cait nodded, Kendra looked excited. “Could you teach me, then? I visit the sick at Cainewood, but sometimes I don’t know what to do for them, and—”
“There’s a great deal to teach.” Cait reached to pluck a leaf off a low-hanging branch overhead. “You cannot learn it all in an afternoon.”
“When you come to live at Cainewood—”
“I don’t think that will be happening.” Walking again, she shredded the leaf and avoided her friend’s eyes. “Your brother doesn’t love me, Kendra. Or at least not enough. I’m naught but an annoyance to him.”
She knew that wasn’t precisely true, but she didn’t know how to put it. She only knew that if Jason wanted her, he would have been with her this morning as he’d promised.
A Chase promise is not given lightly. If he’d ever considered marrying her, he must have had second thoughts. Now, even should he return and ask for her hand, she couldn’t say aye. Not knowing he’d had such doubts.
She knew he felt guilty over their improper behavior, but she wouldn’t marry him just to ease his shame. For her, it was all or nothing. A half-commitment would never do.
It was a gray day, to match her mood, even darker along the paths where the trees met overhead and cast their shadows. She walked beside Kendra, listening to her own thoughts and snatches of conversation from passersby. When they scooted to the side to let a wizened old vendor pass with his barrow, he nodded to them and recited a little verse.
Buy marking stones, marking stones buy,
Much profit in their use doth lie;
I’ve marking stones of color red,
Passing good, or else black lead.
“Thank you, no.” Kendra smiled, and the aged peddler went on. “Marking stones,” she mused. “That man will be scrambling for business soon, if Jason has his way.”
“Aye?” Caithren could barely muster interest, but she’d not be rude.
“He’s set some cottagers at Cainewood to making pencils from the graphite mined on the property.”
“What’s a pencil?”
“A long strip of graphite encased in wood. You write with it, like a quill, but you don’t have to dip it. You just sharpen it, instead. Jason heard they were being made in Cumberland and traveled there to see. There is nothing he won’t do to make Cainewood profitable. The Roundheads ran it into the ground while it was in their hands—when Charles restored the title and lands, Jason had to start from scratch.” Her heels clicked on the hard dirt path. “My brother is an admirable sort, don’t you think?”
“All this new knowledge of Jason is a wee bit much,” Cait admitted. “I spent our whole journey trying to puzzle him out, and then when I finally reckoned I understood him…yesterday I discovered he’s someone else entirely.”
“No, he’s not.” As they walked, Kendra ran a hand along the low fence beside her. “You may be surprised to find him titled and a man of means, but inside, he’s exactly who you saw. Or what you’ve made him to be.” She stopped and leaned against the rail. “You’ve changed him, Cait. In good ways.”
“I don’t know…”
“Come, they sell lemonade on the other side of the square. I’ll treat you.” Kendra linked her arm through Cait’s. “With or without brandy?”
“Definitely with,” Cait said dryly.
The lemonade was cool and bracing. They walked around the fields for a spell, drinking and chatting, and after a while Cait began to feel better. Children ran circles around them, their harried mothers not far behind. Street balladers were there to entertain, as well as violinists and one lone bagpiper that made Caithren’s heart swell.
She touched her amulet, rubbing her fingers over the smooth rectangular emerald. Tonight was the wedding. She’d best head back to the house to ready herself.
“May I borrow another gown for tonight?”
“Of course.” Kendra eyed her assessingly. “I’ve a lovely one in yellow that I think will just fit.”
“I’m sure it will do. Whether Jason returns or nay, I must go to Lord Darnley’s wedding to meet up with Adam.” By force of habit her hand went into her pocket, to feel for his portrait and pull it out.
“Ford and I can take you. We’re invited and were planning to go anyway, in order to find out who Jason killed.” She squinted at the miniature. “What is that?”
“Adam’s picture.” When Kendra reached, Caithren handed it over. “Do you see a resemblance?”
“Oh, yes.” Kendra grinned, looking from the wee painting back to Cait. “You’ve the same eyes and chin and hair.”
“That’s all we share,” Cait said. “We couldn’t be more different.” She sighed. “I’d best get back and prepare to leave.”
One more night dressed as an English lady to find Adam, then she would head back home where she belonged. Her hair would go back into plaits, and she would be herself again. Hopefully then she could leave this devastating feeling behind, and forget Jason Chase.
Her hand went up to finger the foreign English curls—and she felt something missing. “My hat! I forgot my hat! I must’ve left it on that bench.” She began running.
“Wait!”
At Kendra’s shout, Cait turned back.
“Have you no sense of direction?”
“Nay.” She laughed at herself. “Where was it, then?”
“There. Behind that big tree, and back along the path a bit.”
“Aye. Bide a wee. I mean, wait here. I shall be right back.”
She hurried along the shady path, relieved when she spotted the bench and saw that no one had taken her hat. Running the last few steps, she grabbed it and jammed it on her head.
Just then, a horse came thundering through the park. Someone scooped her off her feet. Her heart hammering, she found herself facedown across a man’s lap, his hand tangled in the chain around her neck in an effort to wrestle her upright.
She kicked and twisted, trying to find freedom, but his grasp tightened and the chain bit into her throat. Finally it snapped.
She heard a roaring in her ears as she watched her amulet tumble to the grass.
Her protection, gone. Her hope, gone.
“Let me go!” she wailed, her eyes filling. The emerald looked smaller and smaller as they rode away, her last glimpse of it blurry through her tears.
Something cold and thin pressed into the back of her neck.
“It’s the dull edge of a knife,” Geoffrey Gothard growled, “but one more move and it’ll be the sharp side instead.”