THE INFINITE BEING

F. T, Catulla

“What do you think?” The Broker said.

He lounged in his chair and spoke with his fingertips.

I turned to Violet

but she was already answering.

“We’ve robbed a museum before,

this isn’t our first rodeo.”

She extinguished her cigarette

And took my half-finished one

from its resting place.

The speakeasy was so full of smoke

I was surprised Boston’s finest

Had not yet come to extinguish us.

“That’s good to hear,” the Broker hissed.

I watched as something

Moved beneath his

Crisp pressed shirt

“We are very interested,

the money is good.” I said,

“But this ring is magical,

correct?

Before we go about handling it,

what exactly does it do?”

“It’s not particularly potent,”

the Broker replied coyly,

He leaned over the table

and my eyes fell on his bolo tie

A gold sigil of seven points

Whose middle member bore a gem

Unlike any I had seen before

From a distance it appeared to be black

But was actually Nothing

As though Lachesis had slipped a stitch

In the tapestry of the Universe

“It simply has some

material from another star,

Our interest is purely scientific.”

“Very well.” I nodded.

“Tell the Sorcerer we accept.”

“Excellent,” the Broker cooed,

He took a brown bag full of crisp bills

From his coat,

along with a small gold ring

“Replace it with this replica,

and do not get caught.”

I stood to shake his hand

Only to find it ice cold.

***

When we returned home

Violet instantly threw aside

Her suit jacket and button down

And undid the board

she used to bind her breasts

Before falling backward onto our bed.

She groaned with satisfaction.

“Why do you put yourself through it?”

“Through what?”

“The board,” I gestured,

“they don’t look that different.”

“You’re blind,” Violet laughed.

She straightened up

and looked at herself in the mirror,

pressing her hands into her breasts,

“The shape is completely different.

Without the board

a pig could pick me out of a crowd

a mile away.”

I shrugged.

Violet frowned and fell back into bed, rolling over so her back was to me.

I focused my attention on my fingers

Which intertwined in my lap.

I became suddenly aware

Of the tension I carried

In every fiber of my body

From my hands pressed together

To the force keeping

My back hunched

And my legs tightly clamped.

I was about to speak when Violet cut me off.

“You just like looking at my chest.”

She rolled back over and playfully pulled at my belt.

“I do,” I laid down next to her

“But you should wear it,

Heaven forbid

We run afoul of the pigs.”

Violet giggled

And pressed herself into me.

“I couldn’t imagine what would happen

If we got on the bad side of the law”

I continued,

“and by the way,

any thoughts about the heist?”

“I’ll think of something.”

Violet melted into my arms.

***

“I thought it would be heavier.”

The ring was covered in smooth,

Glowing stones, the crown of which

Was a stone similar to that

On the Broker’s tie.

“Why would it be any different than the replica?”

“The way the Broker carried himself

It was like that little stone was a great weight around his neck.”

“People just slouch sometimes.”

“FREEZE.”

The light of a flashlight fell upon us

Fortunately I was facing away from it

And swallowed the ring

in a single hidden motion

Before we turned around.

Behind us an old guard

fumbled with his revolver.

We simultaneously drew

I shot him four times in the chest

And Violet three.

“I had it handled,” she turned to me,

“Where’s the ring?”

“I swallowed it.”

We both began to sprint to the exit.

“Slick move.”

“I thought so.

The replica is exceptional

They’ll assume he stopped the robbery.”

We sprinted down a flight of stone stairs.

“And for the record, I got him first,”

I said with confidence.

“No you didn’t.”

“Then how did I get off four shots

instead of three?”

We both skipped off the last step

and found ourselves in a windowless hall of armor.

“Because the Luger has a faster action.”

Violet grabbed my wrist and pulled me left.

“No, it’s because you keep your gun

in your trousers

Instead of a proper holster.

I had a hip holster the entire war

And the first thing I did when

I got back was buy an

Armpit holster

They’re just the best.”

“You mean your favorite—”

Violet was cut off by a guard who

rounded a corner in front of us.

I drew and shot him between the eyes

before he could say a single word.

I glanced over at Violet who glared at me,

Her hand is still in her pants.

Before I could open my mouth,

Violet pulled me by my wrist again

Around the corner to a windowed wall.

She held me tightly

And we fell through the wall

As though it wasn’t there

Rolling out onto the wet grass

Outside the museum.

Violet pushed herself up

And pinned me to the ground.

Her colt and several loose bullets fell onto my belly.

I stared down its barrel for a moment

Before pointing it away from me

While Violet watched,

With a cocky grin.

I glared at her

And flicked on the safety,

just as the museum turned on its spotlights.

We sprung to our feet

And fled into the night.

***

I woke up late the next morning,

Nursing a headache, world spinning.

I almost tripped over an empty bottle

As I pulled on a night gown

and made on my way to the kitchen.

Violet left a note

Saying she was at the range with a friend

Leaving me alone to make a cup of coffee,

The mere thought of which sent me running for the toilet.

I had grown up on a farm

And was not squeamish of such things,

So I quickly found the ring

Only to see, to my horror

The black stone was missing

I promptly threw up.

When I recovered myself

I got dressed

and began making my way to the range

As neither our house or it had a phone.

The spinning sensation had not dissipated

But I was more confused than nauseous.

There was really nothing I could do

So I took my time as I walked,

Enjoying autumn.

I watched with envy

As the leaves left the earth

And vanished in the distance from my view.

The spinning feeling intensified.

I stopped to examine

one leaf in particular

That skirted across the cobble stones.

As I examined it,

The effect became

more and more

Until the leaf

Broke into its component parts.

I screamed and turned to run

But found myself stuck

As my feet became roots

My body a trunk,

And my arms and fingers

Were covered in flowers

Blooming into fresh spring leaves.

They caught the cold of autumn

And changed from yellow to orange and red

Until I soared upon a gale

As free from the earth as the clouds.

The wind carried me for quite some time

Until I felt myself deteriorate

And fell to ground before our house as dirt.

The earth was then kind enough to bloom

And restored my flesh to me.

Naked and freezing

I fled into the house.

***

When Violet returned

She found me in our bed

Finding solace

In the darkness from which I was made.

“Are you alright?”

She ran to me and held me in her arms.

“No. The ring.”

“Did you lose it?”

I held out the ring to her.

“Did you lose one of the stones?

I am not going through your shit!”

“No, Violet, I digested it.

I tried to go to the range to find you

But on the way there I turned into a tree,

Into leaves.

It was beautiful.”

Violet held me close.

“Oh God,” I breathed heavily,

“It’s happening again.”

I held out my hand to see vines

Creeping down my body

From where Violet’s fingers touched my hair

They consumed my whole body

Bloomed and died

Leaving me trembling on the bed.

“Are you alright?”

Violet reached for me in the darkness.

“I’m fine, I’m fine,

the effects are temporary.”

I sat up and caught my breath.

Violet rubbed my back,

Then my hips and my thighs.

“How long have you been a woman?”

I ran my hands down my body.

“I don’t . . . ”

I ran my hands down my body again.

“I guess since just now.”

“Are . . . you okay?”

Violet turned a lamp by the bed on.

“I mean I was a lot of things earlier.

I was a tree which I didn’t like.”

I examined myself in the light,

“I’m not sure if it’s as good

as being a leaf on the wind.

Definitely better than being dirt.”

“Are you sure about that?”

Violet laughed

And looked down at herself.

“Despite popular belief,”

I laughed,

“But I don’t feel that different.

I’m just waiting to change back.”

I drummed my fingers on my thigh.

“I think you’re cute,” Violet took my chin

And examined my face in the lamplight.

I melted into her hand.

“I’m a little scared though,”

She said after a moment.

“About what?”

“The Sorcerer.”

“Why?”

“He’s going to melt our brains

For losing his ring.”

“That sounds bad,”

I said, still lost in the moment.

There was a knock at the door.

“It’s the Broker.” I bolted upright.

“I can sense him.”

“Oh no.”

I pulled my night gown back on

And we went to answer the door

“Hello, where’s the ring?” He cooed.

The Broker cast a long shadow in the twilight.

I handed it to him.

“Where’s the Voidstone?”

“I ate it,” I said quietly. “It’s destroyed.”

“Then why can I still sense it?” He hissed.

I noticed the flesh around his teeth

Was the same color as the stone.

“She said it was gone.”

Violet said with vitriol.

I looked back at her

And she gave me a thumbs up

and a crooked smile.

“If I have to flay you alive to find it I will.”

The Broker’s shirt split open

And several abyssal arms

Sprung forth,

Each holding a snub nose forty-four.

Violet drew her colt

From an appendix holster

shot him six times in the chest,

Before he could get off a single shot

The third shot destroyed his bolo tie

and the Broker twisted into darkness,

Leaving his clothes and shattered jewelry.

“Nice holster.”

I gave her a thumbs up.

Violet crossed her arms.

“If you can sense the Broker,

Can you sense the Sorcerer?”

“I think so, why?”

“I think we should kill him

Before he kills us.”

I closed my eyes.

“I find myself drawn to the East End.”

“That’s where the bar is.”

“I know that’s where the bar is

But the Sorcerer isn’t at the bar.”

“Where is he then?”

“I don’t know yet,”

I growled,

“I was trying to figure that out,

Call a cab.”

Violet sprinted to our neighbors house

While I got dressed.

***

Before long

I found myself face to face

With a cabby

He looked me up

And down quizzically.

I tugged nervously

At my baggy suit.

Board.”

Whispered Violet from the backseat.

I held my breasts defensively

And gave Violet a sideways look.

“Where’d’ya wanna go?”

The cabby squawked.

“Just bear with me,”

I took out a wad of cash

And closed my eyes.

As night fell across the city,

I slowly directed the cab

Deeper and deeper into Boston

Until we arrived

Before a dilapidated church.

I thanked the cabby

And spent a moment

Staring at the night sky.

It was as dark as in my youth

Before electricity

Had turned the black clouds purple

But unlike in that distant time,

Not a single star filled the sky

As though all of creation was empty.

We hurried into the church

And Violet used the ring

To conjure a floating light.

“It’s in the basement,”

I said softly,

as I collapsed into her arms.

“It’s becoming difficult to control

The sensation

There’s something here

Something below us.”

“What’s happening to you?”

“I am Everything.”

I said slowly,

“Everything I see

I touch

I become it

From its beginning to its end.”

Violet undid my tie

And made me a blind fold

Before carrying me down into the cellar

From there I guided her along the wall.

“It’s here.”

“What?”

“The way down.”

“I don’t—”

Violet tapped her fingers against the wall.

“Wait, it’s hollow here.”

She held me close and fell through the wall

Into what felt like

A comfortable elevator

But I dared not remove my blindfold

As we descended into

The Sorcerer’s lair.

***

The elevator left us

At the entrance to water-carved cave,

Barely tall enough to stand in.

Violet tried to guide me

But I walked across the rough stones with ease.

“I feel like I’ve been in these caves

A thousand times before,”

I said calmly.

“There’s a door

After several splits in the cave.

Follow me.”

I felt Violet conjure light

With the ring behind me

But I was already

Skipping ahead.

“Wait up!”

“We need to keep moving

There’s something alive down—”

I tripped and

Splayed across the rough stones

I felt blood well up

From torn skin on my hands

Buy I dared not remove

My blindfold to look.

“Male, in his thirties.”

I felt Violet put her hand on my shoulder.

“What?”

“The skeleton you tripped on.

It’s been here a while.

Looks like whomever it was

Was torn to pieces prior to death.

These are either claw marks

Or teeth marks and I’m not sure

Which is worse.”

I ran my hand across the bone’s

Marred surface, “these feel

Like dents made from fingernails.”

“That’s not possible.”

I handed Violet a femur

And then focused my attention

At the surrounding tunnels.

“Do you see something

Moving in the third tunnel

From the left?”

“No.”

“Hello!” I said into the darkness.

Hello.” It whispered back.

“Did you hear that?”

“Hear what? Are you okay?”

Violet poked my shoulder with the femur.

“Im speaking with the darkness,

I said to Violet.

I then turned away.

“Who are you?”

I do not know. Who are you?

“I am—”

I ran my hands down my body

“I also have no idea who I am.”

Before I met you Humans

And your finite space

I thought I was everything

But now I know I am Nothing.

“I do see something moving.”

I heard Violet draw her gun.

“Is it a person?”

I said with some concern.

“I think it’s two people. I see four arm-”

Violet roughly grabbed me

And pulled me to my feet.

“What is it?”

“Which tunnel?!!?”

She said frantically.

“Go right!”

I regained my footing

And lowered

My blindfold to see

What was chasing us.

At first it looked like an insect;

Some kind of massive millipede,

But then I saw its legs were human arms

And it did not walk forward

But pull itself by its maw towards us,

A gaping hole in the tapestry

From which rows and rows

Of limbs emerged like teeth.

Violet tugged me again

And we flew down a tunnel

Like the water that had carved it,

Until we came to a vast iron door

Similar to that of a bank vault.

Violet swore and slammed on the door.

I had removed my blindfold at this point

And was staring calmly at the

Complex locking mechanism.

“The pattern is

Top

Bottom left

Middle right

Upper left

Upper right

Middle left

Bottom right”

“How do you know?”

“Because I watched this door be made

And it was also

the pattern on the Broker’s tie.”

The door swung open upwards

On a great hinge

And Violet and I stumbled into a library.

My eyes were filled with

This strange wonder;

A roaring fire and rows and rows

Of books, a balcony

That overlooked

The carpeted and luxurious

Sitting area we now tracked dust into,

And most catching of all

A pool in the center of the floor

Filled with Nothing.

I turned to watch Violet shoot

The monster several times

Before leaping to the side

As it reared through the door.

But the bullets did nothing

To its bulk.

I recovered myself

And pulled a lever,

Slamming the door upon the creature

And slicing it in twain.

I squatted and touched one of the arms

For now I saw this thing

Was a child of Prometheus

An amalgam of a thousand cut-down men

Woven together with strange

Black thread that receded

As its blood spilled forth.

Why is my body different from yours?

The Void asked, it’s voice failing.

Why are you warm?

Why . . . am I cold?

I watched as the last darkness

Slipped from its form

And I cried a bitter tear.

My mourning was cut short

By a shrill scream.

I saw Violet collapse

And felt something

Approaching from the balcony.

I closed my eyes

And rather than hiding in darkness

I became it.

I opened my eyes and found

To my delight I found I was invisible.

A man drifted down from above

His body appeared to be

Suspended by his head

As though an invisible hand

Held his limbs aloft

“Look who it is,

First you ruin my ring

Then you take both

Of my sons from me?”

The Sorcerer growled.

He lifted Violet like a doll

And dangled her above

The pool of shadows.

I tip-toed forward

As quietly as I could

And picked up her colt

Which, to my relief

had two bullets left in its cylinder.

“What do you think, Void?

A new body for you?”

The Sorcerer took the ring

From Violet’s finger

It glowed like a star in his palm,

“I am sorry you will have to settle

For another discarded human form;

And that we will never know,

What I could have made with this.”

Anger flashed across his face

And he threw the ring aside like wastepaper.

I want to be.

The Void said quietly.

“Yes, yes, yes,”

The Sorcerer cooed,

“I think she’d be more useful

With a few more holes in her.”

I pulled the trigger

And turned the Sorcerer’s

Intelligence into red mist.

I then leapt forward

And tried to catch Violet

But I was too slow

Too late

And we both fell

Into the Void together.

***

In winter we slumbered,

Like running water

Beneath the frigid earth

From a source upon her face

And into her darkest chasm.

In spring I stood on a rooftop,

Having grown anew

From her womb of shadows.

I savored the fresh air

And enjoying the company

Of several crows,

Whose feathers were as dark

As the abyss

Just like the cloak

I wore around my shoulders

And the gown that wrapped my hips.

“I don’t know if I thanked you

For saving Violet and I from the pit.

I wasn’t sure if you would understand

What was happening to us.”

It was you who taught us to fly

And to fall,” the Void responded.

“Let’s do more of the former

And less of the latter.”

I watched the crows hop up on the

Parapet, and follow my gaze to the sky.

“What do you think of starlight?”

I asked the Void.

“It’s my favorite light.”

The crows looked up to me

What are they?” they asked.

“When I was little

My mother told me

There was a great light

Beyond, and the Earth

Was shrouded in a black cloth

Called the firmament

That was full of holes

Meaning that the stars

Were windows into heaven itself.

To be honest with you,

I do not know what to think.

The only thing everyone

Can agree upon

Is that they are beautiful.”

I looked down to see

the crows had speckled their feathers with stars

whose light danced and played

just like their heavenly counterparts

I giggled and raised my ring

transforming my cloak

And gown in the same way.

I spun around,

Admiring it catch on the breeze When I saw three men

In pinstripe suits

Had joined us on the roof.

“What do you want?”

I spat.

“Are you the sorcerer Violet?”

They drew guns.

“No, that’s my husband,”

I held up my ring

Which glowed

brighter and brighter

First like the stars

Then the moon

Then the sun.

“Who are you?”

The men cowered

And shielded their eyes before me.

“I am Infinite.”