A LITTLE FAITH
I wrung out my soaked hair as soon as I darted through the café doors.
The storm had come out of nowhere. One minute, there’d been nothing but blue skies and balmy heat; the next, lightning was flashing and rain was pouring down in sheets, immediately drenching my thin cotton blouse and sending me rushing for the nearest open coffee shop. Sunday was my only day off this week, and Margot had picked up an extra shift, so I’d been sightseeing alone at the historic Parliament building. The guided tour had lasted about an hour, but I’d lingered long after, exploring the huge basement-level library, taking pictures of the distinctive architecture and lamenting the fact that I’d forgotten my sketchbook at my apartment across town.
Praying my camera hadn’t been destroyed by the sudden deluge, I used the semi-damp hemline of my shirt to wipe at the screen, but it didn’t seem to do much good. I cradled my Canon in one hand and ferreted out my wallet with the other as I approached the counter and ordered a cappuccino.
A few minutes later — steaming cup in hand, camera strap slung over one shoulder — I was making my way to an unoccupied table by the window, when I heard it.
“Do I need to upgrade you from stranger to stalker?”
Chills licked down my spine as I turned toward the sound of his voice. In the instant before my gaze swung up to meet his, I found myself hoping it would be him – my stranger, as I’d come to think of him during the past few days while replaying our first interaction over and over in my mind. I wished, with every part of my being, that he’d be the one sitting there, taking shelter from the rain.
And, as fate would have it, he was.
“Twice in one week? That’s definitely crossing the line from stalker to serial killer, if you ask me,” I countered, smiling at him despite myself.
“Well, you’re the expert,” he murmured.
I couldn’t help but notice that he was even more jarringly gorgeous today, with his dark eyes locked on mine, that cap of close-cropped black hair, and two twin tendrils of ink snaking up the back collar of his shirt, hinting at tattooed skin beneath. I found myself wondering what his naked back looked like, and instantly banished the question to the far recesses of my mind, horrified I was even entertaining such thoughts.
But, looking at him, it was hard to stop myself. He was just so… raw. So male. There was no other way to explain it. From the top of his head to his littlest finger, his every part exuded sensual energy, as though he was putting out some kind of invisible pheromone-enthralling, ovary-ensnaring tractor-beam that lured in women against their better judgment. As I stared down at him, my mouth going dry at just the sight of his face, I knew I wasn’t entirely unaffected. In fact, I was pretty sure I was entirely screwed.
And yet — sitting there with his bicep muscles straining against the sleeves of his plain black t-shirt, leaning over the small table with a book clutched in his hands — he was also a total contradiction. Men who looked like him rarely sat alone in quaint coffee shops, reading Joseph Heller’s Catch 22.
From the looks of it, he’d been there a while. His coffee cup was half-empty and the leather jacket slung across the back of his chair wasn’t dripping water onto the floor, so he’d likely been inside when the skies opened up. We stared at one another for several seconds in silence, mirrored smiles on our lips, and I couldn’t help but think that this was fate, pulling us together again. That it was somehow my destiny to keep running into this beautiful stranger, against all odds, in a city of nearly two million people.
There was a name for it.
Kismet.
That moment when stars align and things that are just meant to be come to pass.
My mother always told me, fate was a force to be reckoned with. Some encounters were just destined to happen in this life, and you stood little chance of avoiding them. Certain people were simply meant to cross your path — to reach into your chest and leave an irreversible handprint on your heart, on your very soul.
Then again, my mother also believed that loose tea leaves at the bottom of her mug foretold the future and firmly insisted that she could see peoples’ auras, so I tended to take everything she said with a grain of salt.
“Are you going to fall into my arms again?” my stranger asked, smiling crookedly up at me. “Should I be prepared for a dead faint, or do you intend to remain conscious?”
“You make it sound intentional.” I rolled my eyes. “I tripped. You just happened to break my fall… with your face. Did the impact of my head against yours do permanent damage?” I asked sweetly, fighting off a grin.
“Well, if you’re going to be ungrateful, next time I’ll just let you collapse to the ground unassisted,” he said, his dark eyes warm on mine.
“How charming of you.” I snorted in a truly ladylike fashion. “Chivalry isn’t dead, after all.”
“Not dead, just passed out somewhere without a handsome stranger to revive it.”
I rolled my eyes a second time.
“Want to sit?” he offered, gesturing toward the empty seat across from him.
My eyes flickered from his face to the chair, undecided. I felt a blush stain my cheeks. “Oh, no. I wouldn’t want to interrupt your reading.”
“You’re not,” he said softly, closing his book and nudging the free chair away from the table with his foot. A clear invitation.
My eyes moved back to meet his.
“You already know I’m a psycho, stalking serial killer,” he pointed out. “What else do you need to know before you’ll agree to have coffee with me?”
I laughed lightly and could almost feel those intense eyes watching my mouth as the sound escaped. It should’ve alarmed me, but instead I found it oddly comforting.
“True enough,” I agreed, some of my trepidation fleeing. “But, if I sit, there are some rules you have to agree to.”
His head tilted in an evaluative stare and he forcibly suppressed his smile into a serious expression that had me fighting off another laugh. “Terms are open to negotiation,” he said formally.
“Good.” I grinned. “First rule of stranger club…”
“Let me guess,” he interjected. “Never talk about stranger club?”
My laugh escaped. “No, Brad Pitt. The first rule of stranger club is no names.”
“I can deal with that.” He shrugged. “Second rule?”
“Questions are fair-trade. You ask one, you answer one.”
“Sounds good to me, Red.”
“Red?”
He eyed my hair pointedly and the skin around his eyes crinkled in amusement.
“I am not a redhead.” I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him.
His lips twisted in a repressed laugh. “Whatever you say.”
“My hair is clearly brown.”
“Uh huh,” he agreed, grinning.
“Ugh!” I groaned, craning my head back so my eyes were on the ceiling. “I don’t even know you and I can already tell you’re impossible to reason with.”
“There’s that redhead’s temper.” He laughed. “Now are you going to join me, or are you planning to let your caramel latte get cold while you list a whole bunch of rules I have no intention of following?”
“It’s actually a cappuccino,” I corrected, narrowing my eyes at him. “And you better follow my rules.”
He leaned back in his chair and unleashed that crooked grin once more. “You have any more excuses left in your repertoire? Or are you fresh out of reasons why you can’t sit with me?”
I sighed and set down my mug. Pulling out the chair across from him, my eyes dropped to the table as I settled in. My sassy, smart-talking bravado seemed like a pathetically thin shield, now that I was seated directly across from this beautiful man. I felt my confidence fleeing as I sat beneath his steady gaze.
“Suddenly shy, Red?” he asked, his voice wry.
My eyes lifted from their intent study of the wood-grained tabletop. “No,” I objected a little too defensively. “I’m just thinking of my first question.”
“Who says I’m letting you go first?”
“It’s the gentlemanly thing to do,” I pointed out.
“Who says I’m a gentleman?” he asked, his eyes flashing. I suppressed a shudder — not one born of fear, but of something far more startling: desire. It was like nothing I’d ever felt. Perhaps because I’d already had a perfect gentleman in Conor, and it hadn’t satisfied me.
One glance at this man, at the promise in his dark eyes, was enough to assure me he was nothing like any of my well-mannered ex-boyfriends.
I ignored the sensation, as well as his words.
“So…” I took a swallow of my cappuccino before forcing my eyes up to meet his. “You’re American?”
He nodded. “Yep, born and raised on Cape Cod.”
“Here for vacation, school, or work?” I asked, thinking he didn’t look much like a tourist or a student.
“That was two questions in a row,” he said, narrowing his eyes at me. “It’s my turn.”
I huffed and motioned for him to get on with it. “Do your worst.”
“You’re American, that much is obvious,” he noted.
I glared at him playfully but didn’t disagree as he spoke on.
“Based on the book-bag you were carrying the other day, I’m going to assume you’re a student.” His gaze drifted lazily across my features, moving from forehead to chin in such a slow study, I immediately had the urge to hide behind the curtain of my still-wet hair. “So, instead I’ll ask: why Budapest? Of all the places you could’ve chosen to study abroad, what brought you here?”
I stared down at my teacup so I didn’t have to meet his gaze directly. “Honestly? I have no idea.”
“Nah, I don’t buy that.” He shook his head and leaned across the table into my space. “There must be a reason.”
I took a deep breath, then looked up to meet his eyes. “I guess I picked it for a lot of reasons.”
His eyebrows quirked. “Such as..?”
Sighing, I ticked them off on my fingers as I spoke. “Because I wanted to go somewhere with a rich history. Because my favorite professor coordinated this trip. Because it was the only program with a down payment I could afford.” I swallowed roughly and continued in a quieter voice. “Because I needed to escape my family for a year.” I stared into his eyes and took a deep breath. He waited, sensing I wasn’t finished. “Because, after a lifetime of stumbling around blindly, I need to figure out who the hell I am… and this seemed like a good place to start.”
I sat back in my chair and expelled a heavy breath. I was stunned those words had just escaped my mouth. I’d spent two decades pretending self-doubt and loneliness didn’t bother me, yet here I was — in a café halfway around the world, spilling the beans faster than a freaking espresso machine to a man I knew nothing about.
Maybe it was true, what people said — that blurting secrets to a stranger was always easier than confiding in your closest friends. But, as I waited for him to say something, anything, I found myself quaking under his suddenly solemn gaze. For a fraction of an instant, so fast I wondered if I’d imagined it, his eyes flashed with a dark emotion I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Not quite sadness, not quite regret — something else entirely. Before I could figure out what the expression meant, it was gone.
“Hell of an answer,” he murmured, his voice deeper than normal.
“Thanks,” I whispered back, staring at him. “My turn?”
He nodded.
“Do you believe in fate?” I asked. “Do you think that — despite everything we set out to do in this life, despite our best attempts and intentions — we don’t control a damn thing, from the people we meet to the places we end up?”
I blushed up to my hairline, immediately embarrassed. I’d known the guy all of thirty seconds and I was already peppering him with philosophical questions. Perfect. I might as well have asked if he believed in soulmates and love at first sight, while I was at it.
He was totally going to laugh at me.
Except, to my absolute astonishment, he didn’t. Instead, his face drained of color. I stopped worrying about looking like an idiot and started wondering if I’d said something to upset him – but, for the life of me, I couldn’t fathom what.
He was silent for a long time, mulling over my question with an unreadable look on his face — eyebrows drawn tightly together, lips pinched in an uncompromising line.
I fidgeted anxiously in my seat.
Finally, he cleared his throat and spoke in a low voice. “You’re asking…” He pulled a deep breath of air through his nose and seemed to steady himself. “Do I think that a man who’s set out on a particular life course — one he may not like, one he may wish to escape — has no hope of ever changing, of ever redeeming himself, because some asshole higher-power decides it’s not in his cards?”
I tried to respond but all that slipped through my lips was a nervous squeak as I attempted to formulate a coherent response.
At the sound, he seemed to snap out of his somber reverie. His face blanked, his eyes flew up to meet mine, and an easy-going smile crossed his lips once more. I couldn’t help but notice that it seemed a little forced.
“That’s bullshit, Red. We make our own fate. Forge our own fortune. Shape our own stories.” His eyes were still too serious as they stared into mine. “Sometimes, we shape other people’s, too.”
I didn’t know what he meant by that, but I nodded anyway. Silence fell between us for a moment and I was afraid to shatter it, so I just stared at him.
“My turn,” he said finally.
I nodded.
“Will you go out with me?” he asked, grinning.
Laughter burst from my mouth, a strange sensation after the serious moment we’d just shared. “I don’t go out with serial killers,” I said regretfully, shaking my head in rebuff. I glanced out the window; the rain had stopped and the sun was shining weakly. “And I’d better go while the weather’s clear. Who knows when the downpour will start again?”
His dark eyes trapped my skittish ones. “You’re really not going to tell me your name or give me your number, are you?”
“Sorry, stranger.” I smiled and stood up. “First rule of stranger club, and all that jazz. Can’t break it on day one.”
He blew out a puff of air. “So, I’m supposed to let you walk away and take the chance that we’ll never see each other again?”
I paused, staring at him for a moment. “You might not believe in fate, but I do.” I grinned. “If it’s meant to be, it will be.”
“That’s total crap,” he pointed out. “You do realize that, right?”
I shrugged, still smiling as I slid my camera strap back over my shoulder. “Well, in that case, I guess I’ll never see you again. Have a nice life, stranger.” I turned to go.
“You’re weird and stubborn,” he muttered under his breath.
I giggled and glanced back at him for a fleeting instant.
“Have a little Faith, will ya?” I called, chuckling at my own inside joke as I headed for the door and left him behind for the second time in a week.