Breaking into the car was easy. It was the waiting that was difficult.
Ishmael had been hunkered down in the back seat of John’s car for the better part of twenty minutes. He’d spent the time repeatedly imagining what it would be like to kill him.
He wanted to put John’s head on a plate for his queen, just like the Bible stories he’d heard as a child. But this would provide more than just the queen’s satisfaction.
Ishmael looked up to see if the preacher was within sight. When he didn’t see him, he pulled out his cell phone and dialed his lover once again. Her voice mail came on, and he refused to leave another message.
He would tell her about it in person, when he met her that evening at the safe house. He would take her in his arms and describe the look on John’s face, the words from his mouth, the
sound of his heart beating against his chest and fading, slowly, to nothing.
Ishmael looked up again from the back seat and saw John round the corner with the bag swinging from his shoulder. Reaching into his jacket pocket, Ishmael extracted the gun, chambered a round, and tightened his fingers on the butt.
He heard footsteps approaching the driver’s side of the car and stopping. Keys jangled and pushed into the lock, and then the door opened and the car listed to the side as John got into the driver’s seat.
Ishmael waited for John to start the car, and before he could put it in gear, Ishmael sprang up and pressed the gun against the back of the preacher’s neck.
“Don’t move,” he said, reaching around him to adjust the rearview mirror so that they could see each other’s faces.
John looked at the reflection and recognized Ishmael as the man he’d spotted earlier, in the blue car. His face was filled with a rage unlike anything he’d ever seen before. Reasoning with him would be difficult. But he knew he had to try.
“Do I know you?” John asked while slowly moving his hand toward the gym bag.
Ishmael laughed. “Nah, you don’t know me, man. But you ought to.”
“Why is that?” John asked, his hand edging ever closer to the bag.
“I’m the one in your dreams, askin’ how you can preach when you worse than the people you preachin’ to.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” John said, reaching into the bag and trying to close his fingers around the sawed-off shotgun.
“But God knows,” Ishmael said, smiling. “And so do I.”
“What do you mean?” John asked, though he feared the answer more than he feared the gun the man was holding.
“Nineteen sixty-five,” Ishmael said. “Fifteenth and Diamond, ’round midnight, you drove around the corner in a Cadillac. You rolled the windows down and pointed a sawed-off out the window.”
The color drained from John’s face, and his grip loosened on the gun. Tears stung his eyes. And yet his tormentor continued to speak, giving voice to his darkest secret, and weight to his greatest guilt.
“You ain’t care about nothin’ but doin’ what your father told you to do, did you, John? You wanted to please him, ’cause you thought he loved Frank more than he loved you, didn’t you?”
“Who are you?” John asked, feeling as if he were falling from a great height, and spinning ever faster toward the ground.
“You was always scared Frank was gon’ steal your father from you, wasn’t you?” Ishmael asked, happily observing the tortured look on John’s face.
John let go of the gun as Ishmael spoke, and the tears of thirty-five years began to flow.
“Who are you?” he asked through grief-stricken sobs.
“You ain’t care who I was when you pulled that trigger, did you? All you cared about was Frank Nichols bein’ more like a son to your father than you ever coulda been.
“You was weak,” he spat. “You was nothin’. Just like you is now”
John wanted him to pull the trigger. He wanted his misery to end, but it wouldn’t. It couldn’t, because Ishmael wouldn’t allow it to.
“You did everything your father told you to do, and it still wasn’t enough, was it? ’Cause Frank Nichols stole him from you
anyway. But he ain’t steal him the way you thought he would. He took him away with bullets.”
John leaned forward and put his head on the steering wheel. His soul was wracked with pain as the tears continued to fall.
He sobbed as the grief he’d covered with anger came pouring out of his eyes. He sobbed as the sense of loss overcame his desire for vengeance. He sobbed and waited for God to have mercy,.and end his life with the gun that was leveled at his neck.
“How did you know?” John cried as the tears soaked his face. “How did you know?”
Ishmael leaned over the back seat and whispered in John’s ear.
“I knew because somebody took my father the same way they took yours—with bullets. They took him on a summer night on Diamond Street, with a sawed-off stickin’ out a Cadillac’s window. They took him and they ain’t think twice about the little boy he left behind. They took him and my life was over, ’cause nobody wanted me but him.
“I waited thirty-five years to find out who killed my father,” Ishmael said with quiet triumph. “Who woulda thought I would hear it from somebody you thought loved you?”
John looked up from the steering wheel, his eyes red with fatigue and grief, and stared into the mirror at the man who planned to murder him.
“Nola told me about what you did to my father,” Ishmael said. “Then she told me about what you did to her. She told me how you beat her and raped her.”
“That’s not true,” John mumbled as he tried to understand what he was hearing.
“She told me how you tied her up for days.”
“No, I didn’t,” said a bewildered John.
“She told me you would kill her if she told anybody.”
“That’s a lie,” John said, his voice growing stronger.
“I told her I would kill you first.”
Ishmael pressed the gun against the back of John’s head and squeezed the trigger.
There was the tap of metal against metal. And in that moment, they both realized that the gun had jammed.
John grabbed the gym bag and swung it, hitting Ishmael in the head with the heavy metal of the sawed-off shotgun. Ishmael fell back against the seat, and John pushed open the driver’s-side door and fell out into the street.
An approaching car braked hard, and John jumped up to avoid being hit. Ishmael emerged from the back seat and grabbed him from behind, choking off his air with a forearm at the neck.
John flipped the younger man over his shoulder, dropping the bag in the process. When it hit the ground, the sawed-off discharged, the blast echoing along Ninth Street. Cars came screeching to halt while their drivers watched the two men fight violently in the middle of downtown traffic.
Ishmael got up and swung wildly at John, who ducked the blow and delivered a vicious hook to Ishmael’s midsection, knocking the breath from his body. Ishmael doubled over, wrapped his arms around John’s knees, and pulled, flipping him onto his back.
Ishmael jumped on top of him and began flailing wildly, hitting him hard across the jaw, then flush on the nose, before John grabbed his suit jacket and flung him off with a mighty heave.
Ishmael looked over at the gym bag and spotted the sawed-off sticking halfway out. It was five feet away from both of them, in the middle of the street. John followed his eyes to the gun, and the two of them raced to get it.
The younger, quicker Ishmael grabbed it first, and pulled the gun from the bag. John froze in his tracks as Ishmael aimed the gun in his direction.
“Drop it!” said a voice from the post office across the street.
Ishmael looked over and saw two postal policemen leveling their weapons. Sirens wailed as police cars approached from four blocks away, at police headquarters. Motorists on Ninth Street stared wide-eyed at the spectacle.
John took it all in—from the anxious looks on the faces of the policemen to the disbelieving stares of cowering passersby. But it wasn’t until he looked into Ishmael’s face that he knew how the standoff would end.
“Drop the gun now!” the police officer repeated.
Ishmael’s finger tightened on the trigger as John dived between his car and the one parked in front of it.
There was a loud blast as Ishmael fired the shotgun. There were dozens of popping sounds as the officers emptied their weapons.
When the shooting finally stopped and John raised his head, Ishmael lay dying in the street. The officers ran over to him and John ran to his side as well.
As blood streamed from the wounds in his face and chest, Ishmael uttered one final word.
“Nola,” he said.
And then he closed his eyes.
Keisha got up from the bed, walked over to the window, and peered out between the edge of the shade and the windowsill.
She could see that the activity on the street below was beginning to increase, especially on the other side of the street, near the Market Frankford el, where a group of transit police were gathering on the platform.
Keisha’s heart beat faster as she watched them confer with one
another. She was sure they were looking for her and Jamal. But then the police disappeared down a stairway, and she calmed down.
As she closed the shade, Jamal came up behind her and wrapped her in his arms. The warmth of his touch was comforting, as was the sound of his voice in her ear.
“I don’t think you wanna be all up in the window,” he said. “Ain’t nothin’ out there but trouble.”
“There’s trouble in here, too,” she said, backing away from the window while wearing a devilish smile.
“How you figure that?”
“I’m trouble,” she said, turning to face him.
“No you not,” he said. “You innocent.”
“Not as innocent as I used to be,” she said, taking his fingers between hers and placing them in her mouth.
He kissed her on her forehead and wrapped his arms around her. Melting into his embrace, she allowed herself to rest in his strong arms as she lay her head against his chest. She wished that she could stay there for the rest of her life, but she knew that they would eventually have to face the world outside.
It was a world trying desperately to destroy their love, a world Keisha believed that she could do without. Jamal was in no hurry to think of the world, either. He only wanted to think of her.
“So, you asked me where I came from,” he whispered in her ear. “The least you could do is tell me where you came from, too.”
“We come from two different worlds,” she said, looking up at him.
“Yeah, we do,” he said in a melancholy voice. “In mine, you gotta decide what you gon’ do, when you gon’ do it, and who you gon’ do it to. If you take too long to think about it, you might never have to worry about thinkin’ again. ‘Cause somebody gon’ make the choice for you.
“Your world a little different than that,” he said. “But I’m only guessin’, ’cause I don’t really know a whole lot about it.”
He sat there, looking at her, and waiting for her to fill in the blanks. Keisha was uncomfortable doing so, because she knew that she should tell him about more than just herself.
“What do you want to know about my world?” Keisha asked.
“Whatever you want to tell me.”
“I always wanted to be a designer,” Keisha said. “I used to make little drawings of my little fashion ideas and hide them in my drawer.
“I like long walks in the park, horseback riding, and intimate dinners for two,” she said with a giggle.
“Oh, so you a personal ad now?”
“No,” she said. “I’m just someone who hopes she can have a real life again someday, after all this is over.”
Jamal knew what she meant, but he didn’t want to deal with such harsh reality at the moment. He just wanted to learn about her.
“After this is over, I’m takin’ you on my yacht, and we gon’ sail around the world,” he said, putting his arm around her.
“Yeah, okay,” she said, grinning at him.
Jamal looked at her and saw something wonderful in her smile: something sexy, and sensual, and vulnerable, and sweet; something that needed to be loved. He wondered how much love she’d gotten to this point. And he wondered how much more he would have to give.
“Tell me ’bout your father,” he said.
“Why?”
“’Cause I asked you.”
“You gotta do better than that,” she said playfully.
“All right. How I’ma know how to treat you if I don’t know how he treats you?”
“Good answer,” she said, leaning back against the headboard.
“My father was always around,” Keisha said. “I always knew he loved me, and he showed me that whenever he had the chance. But even though he was always there physically, he wasn’t there emotionally, and that’s the one thing I always hated. I wished that he had more time for us.”
Keisha looked down at her hands and began twisting them around each other. It made her nervous to talk about her background. She smiled at how much she’d changed.
“What’s funny?” Jamal asked.
“I’m just thinking about how easy it was to tell you everything when we were kids, and how hard it is now.”
“You was tellin’ me about the movies you liked to see and the games you liked to play. That’s easy. Now you tellin’ me about your life. That’s hard.”
“Yeah,” she said with a faraway look in her eyes. “It is.”
“What’s your mom like?” Jamal asked.
Keisha laughed. “That’s a good question,” she said. “Sometimes it’s hard to tell, because she keeps a lot inside.”
“My mom like that, too,” Jamal said. “But I think she do that ‘cause she ain’t tryin’ to let nobody see when she hurtin’.”
“Maybe my mom is, too,” Keisha said. “She’s always talking about how hard it is to be married to a preacher, because you have to share your husband with everybody else.”
Keisha looked at Jamal.
“I guess it’s hard to be a preacher’s daughter, too,” she said. “Not just because you have to be this perfect child. That’s just part of it. The other part is, you need to have your father to yourself sometimes, and people just don’t want to let him go.”
“So why would he wanna be a preacher, then?” Jamal asked. “He coulda went and got a regular job in a factory or somethin’.
He coulda went to school and been a lawyer, or a doctor, or a teacher. Why preach?”
Keisha sat back and thought about the question. She’d never heard anyone ask it before, yet everyone around her acted as if they knew the answer. Keisha, for one, wasn’t sure. She only knew what she’d been told.
“My father told me once that he was called,” Keisha said. “He said it’s like something inside you, this voice pulling at you, telling you what you’re supposed to be.”
“So where the voice come from?” Jamal asked.
Keisha thought he was being facetious. But when she looked at him, she saw that he really wanted to know.
“God speaks to us in a lot of different ways,” she said, speaking as if in a trance. “He speaks through the scriptures, he speaks through believers, he speaks though a voice inside of us—the voice of the Holy Spirit.”
Jamal looked at her and thought about the voice inside her. He wondered if he had such a voice as well. And if he did, what was it telling him now?
“You want some water or something’?” he said, changing the subject.
“No, I’m fine.”
“You sure is,” he said, reaching over and kissing her on the cheek.
She smiled weakly.
“I wish I coulda seen some o’ those drawings you did,” Jamal said. “I know you got a lot o’ talent.”
“That’s the same thing Nola used to say,” Keisha said.
There was a moment of uncomfortable silence.
“You know somebody named Nola?” Jamal said as a sick feeling rose in his throat.
“Yeah,” Keisha said. “Nola Langston. She’s a buyer for
Strawbridge’s and Lord & Taylor. I worked with her a few times this summer.”
Jamal’s jaw dropped. He thought about Nola’s hold over his father, and how she’d used it to get him to start a business that Jamal thought gave Nola too much control. He thought about Nola pushing for them to use Keisha to get to Reverend Anderson.
Keisha could see the change in his face, and she was concerned.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“Nola Langston works with my father,” he said, speaking quickly while getting up and searching through his pants pocket for his cell phone.
“Is that the Nola Joe said was in jail?” Keisha said, shocked.
“Yeah.” Jamal feverishly scrolled though his phone book until he found the number he was looking for.
He pressed the speed dial, listened for a moment, then punched in a code when he was prompted to do so. He listened again, and his face went from hopeful to dismayed.
“What is it, Jamal?” she asked.
He sat down on the bed beside her and put his face in his hands.
“Nola Langston is the one who told my father to snatch you,” Jamal said slowly. “She tried to get you killed.”
Keisha gasped. “Oh my God.”
“She cleaned out my father’s business account, too.”
“How much money was in the account?” Keisha asked.
“A million dollars.”
Keisha’s eyes widened as she tried to imagine that much money. She couldn’t.
“Keisha,” Jamal said, grabbing a pair of sweatpants from Joe’s closet. “Nola set this whole thing up.”
He started rifling through Joe’s shirts as Keisha looked at him, confused.
“Come on and get dressed, baby,” he said over his shoulder. “We gotta go.”
“I thought we were waiting until five o’clock.”
Jamal stopped and walked over to Keisha.
“They made it look like me and my pop had somethin’ to do with the police commissioner gettin’ shot,” Jamal said. “Then they stole a million dollars o’ my pop’s money.
“Why do you keep saying ‘they’?” Keisha asked.
“’Cause you don’t set up shit like that by yourself,” Jamal said. “Somebody helped her. And until we find out who it was, we gotta go. Now, come on.”
Just as Keisha got up from the bed to put on her clothes, they heard the sound of many voices downstairs in the bar. They could only make out part of what they were saying. But the part they could hear was enough.
They were saying, “Police.”
Joe Vega saw the officers gather at the el stop, watched them descend the stairs and spread out along the block, and observed them showing everyone the pictures they were carrying in their hands.
The officers had spent the better part of the last fifteen minutes canvassing the block, going door-to-door, looking for Keisha and Jamal.
No one else on the block had seen them. That was good. That meant that no one was paying attention.
And Joe knew that the chances of his drunken patrons recalling two people they’d seen for all of fifteen seconds were slim to none.
He watched the transit cops walk in, and knew that he would be able to get rid of them even before they opened their mouths. He only hoped that Keisha and Jamal would know to remain still and quiet, no matter what they heard downstairs. Because if they began to move around, or worse, began to panic, Joe wouldn’t be able to control what happened next.
Joe pulled out a rag and began wiping down the bar as the officers fanned out, and began looking around without even announcing their presence.
“Can I help you?” Joe said, making sure the annoyance came through in his voice.
“Police officers,” said a sergeant who was leading the other officers through the bar.
The sergeant didn’t bother to say anything else, and now Joe was really annoyed.
“I said, can I help you?” he said, putting down the rag and staring daggers through the sergeant.
“We’re just looking around,” the sergeant said.
“Looking around for what?” Joe said. “Something that’s written on a warrant, I hope.”
“No,” the sergeant said, walking over to Joe. “We were actually looking for these two.”
He held up pictures of Jamal and Keisha, side by side on a single page. The pictures weren’t recent. Jamal still had his dreadlocks, and Keisha looked like a little girl.
“Nobody who looks like that comes in here,” Joe said, picking up his rag and wiping the bar even harder.
“What do you mean by that?” the sergeant said.
“I mean, look around,” Joe said. “You’re the only black person in here. There aren’t any black people drinkin’ in my bar. Not that they can’t come in. They can come in all they want to.
But they don’t feel comfortable in my bar, understand? They just don’t feel comfortable here.”
The sergeant, who was about six-three and 240 pounds, looked like he wanted to finish flattening Joe’s out-of -joint nose. Instead, he just shook his head and called out to his officers, who were still snooping around, checking bathrooms and looking under tables.
“Come on, guys,” he said, waving his hand. “Let’s go.”
He turned back and looked at Joe as he left.
“Thanks for the hospitality,” said the sergeant.
“Yeah, whatever,” Joe said, without looking up.
When the officers were a safe distance away, one of Joe’s patrons looked down the bar at him.
“Why’d you tell him black people don’t feel comfortable here, Joe? Your girlfriend’s black, for God’s sakes.”
“I was just breakin’ his balls,” he said with a laugh. “You know I hate cops.”
“Yeah, but—”
“Just go with the flow, man. Don’t worry about it. Have a beer on the house. Everybody have a beer on the house!”
A cheer went up from the six inebriated men stationed at various areas of the bar.
Joe poured the beers and looked toward the ceiling, thankful that Jamal and Keisha were quiet while the cops did their little inspection of the place.
He still thought that they should wait until five o’clock to leave the bar. But Jamal had other ideas.