Dear Reader,
I’m writing you from my bedroom window as I watch the August wind move the trees. What a picturesque view—I wish everyone was able to experience this.
I used to not see the world as I do now. In my past, the trees seemed dull, the wind cold, and I couldn’t understand the reason behind life; nor did I want to. I felt inadequate and always saw myself lower than everyone I came in contact with. I found myself in such a dark place, constantly seeking attention and love when I was looking in all the wrong places. I had let self-harm, depression, angst, hate, loneliness, and suicidal thoughts govern over me. What a horrible thing, to believe that you are worthless compared to the world around you.
As I contemplate my past and all the thoughts that come with it, I find myself gazing at the trees. Each one of them is built uniquely, beautifully, thoughtfully, and intricately. How could someone not believe that they are so much more valuable than the trees that surround them?
This book is in your hands for a specific reason. I hope that it will be a reminder of your worth. You do not need to compare yourself or change who you are to feel whole. You do not need to harm yourself or degrade yourself in any way to relieve what’s going on inside of your head—and your heart. So many people have believed that these are the paths to comfort, and what a lie that is! Despite what you’ve been through and what you’re going through now, your value is evident. You were chosen, planned, and formed by a God who longs for you and wants you to see the masterpiece that he designed you to be.
I’m so glad you are able to look inside the story of my family. Looking from the outside, it’s easy to believe that we have it all together; but the truth is that we are as broken as the next person. It was just a matter of letting God mend together the missing holes that separated us. The goal for my dad and me through this book was to show people that they are not alone in their sufferings, and that they should hold fast and know that it can change for the good. You are so incredibly loved and wanted, and I hope our story can bring you hope, joy, peace, understanding, and revelation. Be inspired, and know that you are not alone in this.
Jennea