I came to tell you my feather:
at the marina so many bells,
so many voices coming ashore
saying listen we have nothing
to say beyond who we are:
old business the wind works
through the slack riggings
of boats laid up for winter,
each the one note clapped
on the incoming wind, slap
of metal on mast, wave on hull,
rope on the rain an orchestra
of random notes moored where
always this was the river,
for someone the waters of home.
My blue feather. On the beach
so many lives feathered into being
and out of it. And so much
interesting foreign detritus
in the rubbery scourings
in the kelp’s piled tripes
weary with flies in summer.
Everywhere a tangle of guts,
crabs, starfish and bladderwrack,
the weeds of abandoned brains,
tumours, dropped masks, amputations
and all the bloody murders ever
ending in string, ripped nets,
hooks, driftwood and the wreck
of the good ship One blue glove
Quatre-vingt je ne sais quoi,
Merde de lapin s.v.p. Ce poisson-çi,
c’est une seule nucléare n’est-ce pas?
Mes enfants, ma langue c’est fini,
je suis en vacances, après la guerre,
not permitted to be bored or to work.
Mine is a country of small cheeses,
here I live in a bordello of cheese
and white Muscadet with the widow
of Arromanches, perhaps I’m a man
other men would like to be like
but they keep their distance,
ces enfants que le bonheur oublie.
It’s late et la clef c’est fini
dans la chambre privée,
et Monsieur Toledo bonne nuit.
My blue feather. Falling.
In the quick wind. If the wind
turn you round, blow you west
down the rowdy Atlantic
and out of yourself, my bride,
my blue feather. By night
on the dark edge of water
that says here a wise man
holds out. Do we think
the rock thinks forming the slow
thought of itself that dissolves?
The wind off the sea, steady.
On the quays faces of Vikings,
on the beach wayward paths
secretly marked by stones,
by the track of a dog,
the snake tongue of seaweed
spelling your name in cursive
in a scribble of wormcasts,
and the doll’s burst head,
from her bleached broken face
a single blue eye staring seaward.