Nights with the sea’s mouth at my ear,
the moon at the window. Each day
the beach flushed twice over,
newly minted with footprints.
All day walking, Platte Saline,
La Bonne Terre, up the Zigzag
to Giffoine, to the Four Winds
and La Vieille Terre and the town.
Gulls. Distance that’s one side
Normandy, the other wild Atlantic
pouring itself in, the northeaster
that rips up all our words,
all he said and she said
and all they meant: the tale
that’s merely you and I my love,
weary and adrift and wordless
at the light’s end, at supper
in the First and Last where we are
sole audience to some tipsy crew
wondering aloud whither the weather
and whether the weather wizard works.
She says it’s all too blue out there
and all too blue in here. She says
I wish to God I’d never fallen down those bloody stairs.
He says he rather likes the idea of a ratdog.
And so forth. And as for me
I was getting my voice back from the wind,
trying to keep it to myself, I was
thinking how we could be nothing much,
grass in the restless air, a high bird
rising in the baymouth in a landscape
I want to sit here in this moment
of the quick world and watch
the light fall over the long seawall,
the sea beating at the harbour mouth.
I want to be who I want, the wind
rocking me to sleep till I’m still.
I want to be in love with water
and seaweed and lost shoes and you,
taking serious interest in the tides
and the moon’s battered face, the gale
banging at itself, the casual dramatics
of the way the world works out.
The way each day the tide makes
a clear heart’s shape in the bay’s arc.
You the gulls mutter overhead
their cries rising in the last light:
you, you. I can be glad anyone
makes anything at all of anything,
in whatever space there is,
any shape on the delicate air will suffice.