EPILOGUE

These are the fiery mornings of August.

His manservant, Zonta, wakes him, his gentle purring ‘excellency . . .’ A light touch on the shoulder. But Evdaev rarely sleeps. He does not need sleep any more, he has become free of the need for sleep, free of the dreaming.

Why dream when each day is unto itself such an ornate dream? A dream of millions of men rushing to meet each other, a dream of urgent messages being delivered, sweating horses, exhausted couriers. Blood and steel. Things burning.

And on the roads, all sorts of people—peasants, farmers, merchants, priests, Jews, local dignitaries with their hats in their hands, poised, looking up as his regiment rides through their miserable hamlets. Old people, children, their hands held aloft so that you cannot divine what they want; is it a salutation, a wish for Godspeed? Is it because they are already starving? All this strife about, and they have only been at war for a week or two!

He is on his way to decapitate Prussia. The mobilization has gone perfectly, no, better than ‘perfectly’. The armies have been assembled with unbelievable speed. And now the Russian steamroller is driving westward, to divert the Germans from their meticulously planned invasion of Belgium. They are rushing forward, always forward. Forward to save France. A fantastic, glorious, noble gesture. It will be like Tannenberg in 1410 and the destruction of the Teutonic knights all over again. Ha! Yes, history is doomed to repeat itself. And, yes . . . those poor, poor German boys.

And afterwards there will be time for adjustments, for the memoirs and the alibis, for promotions and forgiveness, for the historians to remark on the ironies, to reflect on the Tsar’s gallant, sacrificial gesture. Time to set the record straight for once.

They have been billeted in a series of houses, this latest a large farmhouse that smells of generations of Polish grime. Every corner, every wall and door betrays clumsy attempts to modernize and repair the sad dwelling. The most you can say is that it is a hideous pile, devoid of character, for decades repaired and maintained on the cheap. The people who lived there, one notch above their own animals.

Still . . . he is rapidly becoming used to such quarters. He shares these spaces with the officers of the 133rd, an honourable regiment, but nothing, nothing like the Life Guards. He floats through the days like a ghost. Naturally enough there are rumours which swirl around him; lies, misconceptions, fantasies that rarely touch upon the truth. He says nothing. It’s only through Nicholas’s benevolence that he has escaped the gallows.

Undeserved charity from the man he’d planned to kill; the nobility of the Tsar’s gesture brings tears of shame. But he says nothing. Honestly, he is still feverish, recovering from his ‘accident’. Naturally the doctor attends him each day. There are a series of pleasant nurses, some who are interested, some of whom only feign interest.

They have advanced rapidly, outrunning their supplies, their communications, their plans, their maps. A headlong rush towards Danzig, a thrust, a coup that will divide Prussia from the shoulders of Germany. It is all according to plan. Timetables, schedules. Oh! These modern tools of warfare! The telegraph, the railway. It is terrible to contemplate. Opposing them are children and old men. They are so victorious it is worrisome.

Everything is confusing and miraculous in this land of Polish swamps and briar-patches. And all of these poor sods on the dusty roads! Everyone is afraid of being left behind, for in times like this whom could you count on? Some of them would be friends, some enemies, some would give you water if you were wounded, and some would steal your eyes.

A day passes. Another. Zonta’s gentle touch. Another. He waits for orders. Chats with the younger men. They look up to him with respect, measuring themselves against what they imagine him to be. Of course he is a legend, a kind of god. But his fingers, it is absurd, they refuse to heal!

Like an ikon bleeding tears, the fingers are just some mushy substance. They leak, they throb, they stink of infection. The doctor does everything he can, advising salt baths. Zonta makes one for him every night. He bathes his fingers in the hot water until they throb with pain. Each beat of his heart is something joyous, a divine flagellation, a rhythmic blood-pulse chanting to God.

That’s what this bloody hand is, a talisman. He has become proud of it.

To the other officers he offers no opinions, he says nothing that is in any way disagreeable, or controversial, no matter what the topic of discussion. He drinks only a toast to the Tsar, a toast to Samsonov, the commander of their army, a toast to the defeat of the Hun, and then the sad fingers are his excuse to crawl off to bed.

Under the covers he is happy, in a state of bliss, even though his sleep is feverish. Those fragmentary dreams he might have are only nonsensical screaming matches between factions in his mind that he can never identify. The wrong words coming out of the wrong faces.

Zonta touches his shoulder and he wakes confused, not knowing where he is, strange bed, strange house, strange town, strange country. Poland. According to Andrianov’s mad Plan he should have been in Galicia, cutting a swath through the Austrians, becoming a heroic legend by now, and after the short little war, placing himself on the throne. But now, here he is! Lucky to be alive, lucky to have escaped the noose or a cell in the Fortress of St Peter and St Paul. Here he is, an honorary colonel, in charge of nothing much, not even in charge of his own hand. Here he is, a gleaming, embroidered dragoon, a handsome man on a great steed.

Well, whatever happens Khalif must be fed, watered, groomed, everything must be explained to him . . . yes, everything must actually be explained to his beautiful war horse. It is like a confessional, these talks he has in the stables. Or does the animal know everything already? Why not? It is a mystery, Evdaev thinks. Only the latest mystery, but . . . sometimes you look into those eyes and . . .

Each day is the same, another rapier-like thrust into the countryside. Each day there is the smell of burning. Someone’s home, someone’s crops. Someone. The people on the roads lift their arms, reach out. Old women in tears. A dead child.

Well, the days of luxury are long gone, aren’t they? Only a few weeks and look how the world has changed! A breakfast set for him, a meal planned to be light, but he is surprised how hungry he is. That’s a good sign, isn’t it?

And so . . . the prince contemplates his sin. Each turn of the strap on the harness that simultaneously binds his fingers and holds his sabre in a locked grip, drives home the lesson. His sins are in multitudes. With each spike of pain he prays to his God, to the Virgin, to the Tsar, to Russia, to the men whose lives are his responsibility. He reiterates his warrior’s bargain: I pledge my life for the salvation of my homeland. If only it may be.

Outside he can hear the sounds of the regiment forming up.

He is helped into Khalif’s saddle. He is sweating, hot enough that he worries he will faint and have to be carried away. Wouldn’t that just take it all? To have come so far only to fall apart on this most glorious morning.

They ride. Fifteen kilometres or more. All the while the sound of the artillery grows. The general and his staff consult the ridiculous maps and Evdaev stands politely to one side, nods his agreement. It is all a confusion of woods and nondescript towns, creeks that are called rivers, marshes that are endless, fires, burned-out sheds and farmhouses, weeping women and bad food. Corpses like sacks of spilled rotten fodder pouring out of doorways, splayed out across the rutted roads, stinking in a ditch. The map shows none of it.

Ahead of them is a long valley, a field. Some fences that might slow the horses. Ground higher on the slope where they wait under the cover of the trees. There are names that he can recall if he wanted give a title to this battle. A boy looks over at him and smiles. He is smiling too. There is music running through his thoughts, a martial symphony, a compelling rhythm of cymbals, of bugles, the sound of boots marching, of Russia moving forward into the glorious century.

He looks down at his . . . hand. What’s left of it. All of it bound into a long bloody stump. The remains of a man’s fist. Smelling and swollen and festering. Bound into a hard leather stump to which his sawn-down sabre’s grip has been bolted.

There is a screamed command. His reverie, and his memory have carried him away for a moment. But . . . thankfully he has returned. Yes, he is here. His men surrounding him, the magnificent beast nervously trembling between his legs, nearly uncontrollable, muscles rippling spasmodically along his flanks. Now there are sudden explosions in the treetops as German artillery tries to disrupt their attack. And now that they’ve been discovered, the only response is to commit to the offensive, to charge down into that promised field, yes?

See it there? Dappled with sunlight, the wind gently swaying the wheat, not quite ready for harvest. All of it green, as green as one’s youth.

More shelling in the treetops. There are screams, and men are shouting over the din. Yes. It is time to make a charge. Forward to the field, forward to meet the enemy in a bloody embrace. At the very least it will take them away from the horror of the screaming shells, the screams of the terrified horses, their mouths foaming, their eyes rolling towards heaven.

Is that some mysterious music he hears? A chorus of deep men’s voices, all of them chanting, war, war, war, war, war, war, war.

He has only to touch the spur—