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Too much sauce
Now I’m all lost
Reminiscing on the past
Thinking about the what if’s
All the heart breaks
All the hearts I broke
Just to leave so broken
That I can no longer tell where all my pieces have been taken.
I am not whole
My heart no longer feels like a heart
But replaced with a black hole
That sucks up everything in its path,
Destroying parts of me along with it
Until it took every bit of my soul
The uncontrollable urge to walk back into my past just to tell it how much it hurt me
How much I regretted loving it
And can’t stop loving it
And it makes me more and more unstable
It makes my heart aches
Stupid emotions
I thought I conquered you
I soberly buried you in a dark place
Where you would never ever be manifested
To lose my footing would mean losing all the logic I invested
Fuck the logic,
When my emotions take motion, logical thinking is always bested
All the times I’ve convinced myself I was somebody
When all I was feeling was alone.
Those were the times I probably should have just threw away my phone.
With all this knowledge
But no queen
What good is having the crown?
What good is trying to persuade my equals when I smile on the outside,
Inside I still frown?
I came to understand the polarity of life
You can’t be uplifted without at some point feeling down
I hate that miss you
But it’s just the 90 proof
I hate that I miss you
That’s the truth
I hate that miss
Which is why I entirely hate that I love you
I hate that I love you
I think that’s the truth
I told you I love you
But my actions meant nothing
So, I was forced think the proof will forever only be inside of me
Even though loving you made lose sight of me
