SONG OF THE SORRY LOVERS

Ted Hughes was resting on his side,

bottom shelf and dusty.

Birthday Letters, now $5.50,

slightly more than the caramel Frappuccino

I purchased just to use the Starbucks’ bathroom.

The barista with the mermaid tattoo

on his forearm handed me the key

attached to a giant spoon and said,

There’s room in there for two, if you’re lonely.

Ted Hughes was saying, You want this,

but what I wanted was the half-Cuban firefighter

whose license plate read Fuego.

Earlier, I visited the station

hoping for a glance, but he was asleep

in his bunk room, deep in the back

and didn’t hear me when I dropped my purse.

I imagined him, undusty,

on his side dreaming of women

he’s not married to.

Ted Hughes was begging, sale price,

You’ve avoided me so far, but I’ve felt you finger

my pages. I tried to tell him

about my relationship with his first wife,

how I met her in high school,

even named my cat Sylvia.

If I brought him home,

they’d have to share a shelf

and if I pulled out Sexton, they’d touch.

Still, I could hear him whispering as I left,

Take me. You know you want to.