You were a "victim of semiromantic anarchism
In its most irrational form."
I was "ill at ease in an ambiguous world
Deserted by Providence." We drank wine
And made love in the afternoon. The neighbors'
TVs were tuned to soap operas.
The unhappy couples spoke little.
There were interminable pauses.
Soft organ music. Someone coughing.
"It's like Strindberg's Dream Play," you said.
"What is?" I asked and got no reply.
I was watching a spider on the ceiling.
It was the kind St. Veronica ate in her martyrdom.
"That woman subsisted on spiders only,"
I told the janitor when he came to fix the faucet.
He wore dirty overalls and a derby hat.
Once he had been an inmate of a notorious state institution.
"I'm no longer Jesus," he informed us happily.
He believed only in devils now.
"This building is full of them," he confided.
One could see their horns and tails
If one caught them in their baths.
"He's got Dark Ages on his brain," you said.
"Who does?" I asked and got no reply.
The spider had the beginnings of a web
Over our heads. The world was quiet
Except when one of us took a sip of wine.