FIFTEEN

Late at night, with the children asleep, Jean still kept an eye on the trailer. It would explain something to her if Jo were to go inside to be with him. She was curious how it worked with other people. It wasn’t so mysterious that Jo had married someone like Leonard Dawson—it didn’t flabbergast her the way it did Harry, who was beside himself trying to figure it out. If Jo went inside to be with him in the trailer, that was all the figuring out Jean needed. She wouldn’t blame her. In its own way it was something hard to resist.

But Jo stayed outside and sat on the trailer step, staring out. Now and then she turned and stared at Jean. She stared as if she had the freedom to, as if she couldn’t be spotted in the dark. Yet they could see each other’s faces pretty clearly. The moon was up and their eyes had adjusted. Jean thought Jo looked like some creature. She had stopped being a woman, a human. And in the way you watch any creature, Jean was waiting for it to make its move.

The creature looked right at her, then stood up and matter-of-factly moved away. In a few minutes it made its reappearance, stooping to pick up the wads of paper strewn over the campsite, returning them to a pile near the stove. It proceeded across the boundary line, melted into the darkness, and then reemerged, standing before Jean, an offering. Jean could smell it, that perfume that lifted off the tent. The tent was eight feet by eleven. It would be hell to pack up in the morning. “If you want, you can sleep in there,” she said.

Jo played with the pleats of her dress. “I would really like something else to wear.” With a flashlight Jean directed her to a corner of the tent piled with clothes she could choose from. When Jo reappeared, she was wearing a man’s undershirt. “Does that feel better?” Jean asked. Jo put a blanket around her shoulders and sat outside with her. Jean wondered if she would remember this moment, this silence, this sky of stars. She wanted to. She didn’t have faith that she would.