I can’t to see my face in mirror.
My eyes are glass with wet.
A force is on my chest.
I am in wood worker’s vice,
turning
tightening
twisting
tensing.
PING!
Where R U? Train here. ♥
I send text.
I arive now. C U on train. ♥
PING!
OK! J X
I remain looking in mirror.
Train leave in
three minute.
I can’t to move.
Train leave in
two minute.
PING!
I CANT C U.
R U ON TRAIN???????
Phone tight in hand.
Train leave in
one minute.
PING!
IM ON TRAIN...U???????
My fingers shake.
My heart break.
Yes. Stay. I come to u. Ever ♥
I listen to train.
Doors beep-beeping.
Train leave in
zero minute.
I feel for the courageous
in my heart.
The brave decide
that I make.
Time to self-defending
Jess.
Engine is louder now.
Wheels squealing.
My heart is the wheels.
PING!
PING!
PING!
Time to set Jess
free
from
me.
And Nicu,
always stupid.
ALWAYS STUPID.
Plan to go on platform
after train has vanishing.
But
train still there.
And I see her.
Jess
through door,
through window
and she see me.
Her eye
meet
my eye.
She see.
We see.
Train moving … and moving,
and we don’t to
hold hand,
have kiss,
hug tighter.
We don’t to say
goodbye.
Goodbye, Jess,
I whispering and waving.
Goodbye
my Jess.