Cousinland

thank you Eric S. for this word in the Koroot kitchen

Far, far away

somewhere East of East

sits the Korean peninsula

Land of the Morning Calm

airfare exceeds my bank account

this is not my motherland

this is my Cousinland

Familiar airport lobby stranger greets me

holds my English scrawled name

the welcome I’ve always wanted

tonight I want to run away

pretend I don’t see him

this is my Cousinland

Who are these adopted Koreans?

Asian, black hair, almond-shaped eyes

English speakers

Australian, European, US passports

we sound not how we look

How do I eat this food I can’t pronounce?

fried egg tops rice

hot stone pot holds vegetables

red chili paste decorates

like cake icing

foreign spicy taste

What is this unshapely dress?

lost beauty, tradition

how to wear a hanbok?

tie the otkorum?

how do I pronounce otkurum?

this is my Cousinland

June humidity begs summer apparel

Korean society won’t tolerate

my sleeveless dress

women’s beauty shamed

Olympics, World Cup

provide survival English

language of origin expected

impossible to my tongue, ears

heart blocks vocabulary

alphabet haunts

Why is your last name Smith?

Are you married?

Are you Japanese?

Why don’t you speak Korean?

Are you kyopo?

Are you an original Korean?

Are you Chinese?

Why don’t you speak Korean?

This is my Cousinland!