Cover 1
Title Page 2
Copyright Page 3
Endorsements 4
Dedication 5
Section 1 Insecurity 11
i. Barcelona 13
ii. Italy 21
iii. Apartment 27
iv. Zoo 33
Section 2 Love Is a Choice 37
i. Jesus 39
ii. Boys 45
iii. Perfection 51
iv. Choose Me 55
Section 3 Trust 61
i. Trajectory 63
ii. Impressions 67
iii. Secrets 71
iv. Surrender 77
Section 4 Legacy 81
i. Fights 83
ii. Heroes 89
iii. Forgiveness 95
Section 5 Motherhood 101
i. Pregnancy 103
ii. Delivery 107
iii. Hormones 115
iv. Rocking 121
Section 6 Friendship 125
i. Longing 127
ii. Comparisons 131
iii. Judging 135
Section 7 Coming into My Own 141
i. My Baby—Myself 143
ii. O Christmas Tree 147
iii. Daddy’s Girls 153
iv. Retreat 157
Section 8 The Main Thing 161
i. Anger 163
ii. Change 169
iii. The Right Way 173
Section 9 The Accident 177
i. Headlines 179
ii. Grief 183
iii. The Wall 189
Section 10 Fear 193
i. Prayer 195
ii. Facing It 199
iii. Plans 205
Section 11 Ten Days 209
i. Fast and Furious 211
ii. At My End 217
iii. Phone Call 223
iv. I’m Okay 227
Epilogue: My Inheritance 231
Questions for Reflection 237
Acknowledgments 247
Notes 249
About the Author 251
Back Ads 252
Back Cover 255