“Here you go.” The bartender hefts a plastic bag full of bottle caps onto the bar. There’s the sound of metal cascading into a lazy pile as the bag almost tips over, the top unsealed. “Whoa!”
“I got it,” Ava says, catching the bag in time. The bag is nice and heavy in her hand, and already a couple of bottle caps catch her eye—a navy blue one with a yellow starburst and a red one with white block lettering across the top. Quite a few are bent but that’s okay—she wants to practice a few new techniques and they’ll do perfectly.
“Great reflexes,” the bartender says, grinning. His name is Colin. He unties the apron from around his waist and tosses it into a pile with the dirty towels.
“It’s parenthood,” Ava says, giving the bag a shake, delighting in the weight of it. There’s easily two hundred caps, maybe more. “I’ve caught many a falling sippy cup in my time.”
“In your time?” Colin does a quick appraisal of her and Ava laughs, knowing she looks like a kid herself these days, careless and frayed around the edges. “How old is your son again?” Colin has two boys of his own, in high school.
“Four, going on twenty.” Ava reaches for her wallet. “And I’m twenty-eight going on fifty.”
“I hear that.” Colin instantly reddens. “I mean, not that you look like you’re going on fifty, because you’re obviously not. You don’t even look twenty-eight …” He grimaces and shakes his head. “Sorry, that came out wrong. I just mean that I know what it’s like to have your hands full.”
“It’s okay. I know.” Ava smiles. “Well, thanks for this. How much do I owe you?”
Colin holds up his hands. “This one’s on the house. It’s my last day.”
“Your last day?”
“Got laid off. A bunch of us did. Restaurant’s ‘renovating.’ ” Colin gestures to the booths and tables around them, empty even though it’s only an hour past lunchtime. “They’re going bare bones until business picks up. But I found a new job at the Avalon Grill starting tomorrow, so I’ll be all right.”
“The Avalon Grill?”
“Yeah. I’ll check with my manager, but I’m sure it won’t be a problem to put aside some bottle caps for you if you don’t mind driving over to pick them up. It’s about an extra fifteen minutes from Barrett.”
“Yeah, I know.” Ava remembers a pear-and-blue-cheese salad that she used to have for lunch all the time and her stomach rumbles, hungry. “I used to work in Avalon.”
Colin writes something on a piece of paper, then slides it across the bar toward Ava. “Here’s my number. Call me in a couple of weeks and I’ll let you know what I have. Or, you know, call me anytime.” His eyes hold hers for a second longer than usual, then he glances away, embarrassed.
Ava doesn’t quite remember Colin’s marital situation but knows he’s either divorced or separated, both of which are already far too complicated for Ava. He’s a nice guy and she appreciates his help these past couple of years, putting aside used bottle caps for her and charging no more than a cup of coffee for them, but she can’t see beyond that right now, doesn’t want anything beyond that right now.
“Thanks,” she says. “But I don’t want to put you out.”
“It’s no problem—” he begins, but Ava shakes her head, her guard back up. Awkwardly she slips the piece of paper into her purse and offers her hand. “Well, good luck, Colin.”
She can tell he wants to say more, but he doesn’t. Instead he takes her hand and gives it a shake, his cheeks still pink. “You too, Ava.”
In her car, Ava lets out a long breath. She gives the bag a poke, sad that she won’t be seeing Colin again, weary at the thought of having to find another source in Barrett for her bottle caps. She knows Colin takes special care not to bend them more than necessary, has seen him use a soft cloth over the bottle opener, careful not to scratch the cap. He makes it look easy and effortless and most customers don’t even notice that he’s taking this extra step, but Ava knows.
She feels herself blinking back tears. She was foolish to let herself get attached, even in this small way. But Colin is one of the only people she can talk to and he’s a decent person, which counts for a lot.
Still, she should know better.
Ava starts her Jeep. The engine reluctantly kicks over, a sign that there’s trouble up ahead, or at least something that will need attention. A new fuel pump, the starter, a weak battery, who knows.
“Please,” she whispers under her breath. The engine revs and Ava feels a spark of hope that things will be all right.
Then the Jeep sputters and dies altogether.
Frances Latham gazes at the small black-and-white photograph in her hand. The mop of black hair, the chubby cheeks, the searching dark eyes staring back at her.
“Beautiful,” Frances breathes.
The package came yesterday. Reed, her husband, knew it was coming because people started posting on the boards that their referrals had arrived. Pictures were posted with virtual cheers from everyone in the group with the same log-in date from the time their adoption application was accepted by the Chinese government.
But there was envy, too, and anxiety for those who were still waiting. Frances had been ecstatic and then crashed, crying, her emotions bouncing all over the place. Why hadn’t they received their referral? What if something was wrong? Reed assured her that everything was fine, but how did he know? How did any of them know? They finally called the agency and the agency confirmed that yes, people were getting their referrals, and the Lathams should receive theirs by the end of the week.
And then Jamie Linde arrived in his UPS truck, a package in hand. Frances could tell by the look on his face that he knew what it was. He didn’t seem at all surprised by the hug or the tears, and even offered to take a picture of her holding up the heavy, flat envelope. Frances got Noah, her five-year-old, to take the picture because she wanted Jamie in it. She had the picture printed the next day and wrote on the back, “Me with our stork, Jamie Linde.”
Reed came home immediately and they opened the envelope together. When they saw the picture clipped to the stack of documents, Reed’s eyes got wet and Frances gasped. “She’s beautiful! Look at her, Reed!” He nodded and wiped his eyes.
There is still more waiting ahead, but now they know. They know that this little girl is the one that will make their family complete.
Frances closes her eyes, feels the hot tears of joy and relief coming again. They’ve already made copies of the picture so Reed can take one to work and each of the older boys wanted one as well. Frances taped copies on the fridge, the bathroom mirrors, the home office, the car. She sent framed copies to her parents and to Reed’s mother.
But this one, the original, the one that came from China and taken by someone who had looked this little girl in the eyes, this is the picture Frances holds in her hands.
Mei Ling. Our daughter.
Frances and Reed pored over every detail, put stickies on the pages to send to the agency to get translated, made notes in their notebook of questions and things that needed clarifying. But the bottom line is that they are one step closer to bringing her home.
The phone rings and Frances jumps to answer it. “Hello?” Her voice is breathless.
“Hi, sweetheart.” It’s Reed, and Frances smiles. He sounds tired, but happy. “How’s your day going?”
“Good. Wonderful. Perfect. Do you have to ask?”
Reed laughs, a low baritone that reminds her of Reed’s father. Frances wishes that he was alive, that he could meet this little girl, his soon-to-be granddaughter. “I guess not. I’m calling to see if you want to take the boys out for dinner. Give you a night off.”
“I already have a marinara sauce simmering on the stove,” she says. “With meatballs. It’s spaghetti night, remember? Tuesday?” Frances is gazing dreamily at Mei Ling’s picture and then it hits her. “Wait. You’re going to be traveling again, aren’t you? Where? When?”
“Arizona. One week. I leave the day after tomorrow.”
“Reed …”
“Fran, I know. But there’s no way around it. And the way I see it, the more I do now, the easier it’ll be when I have to put in my vacation days when we go to China to pick up Mei Ling.”
Frances tucks Mei Ling’s picture back into a wax-paper envelope. “I wish I knew when that was going to be.”
“I know. Me too.”
The timeline is sketchy at best, but now that they’ve been matched with Mei Ling, it could be anywhere from six months to a year before a travel date is set. They have to be ready either way, and even though there are a few more hoops to jump through, the worst is over.
“So dinner in or out?” Reed asks. “I have to go in a minute—one more meeting and then I can head home.”
“Let’s go out,” Frances says. She can refrigerate the sauce for another day. At least there won’t be any dishes to worry about tonight.
“Did the agency say anything about the medical records yet?”
“No. I sent them an email this morning but I haven’t heard back. I didn’t want to call and hound them any more than I already have.” Frances turns the heat off on the stove.
“I’ll call them before I leave the office,” Reed says. “See you soon.”
“Bye.”
Noah struts into the kitchen. That’s his thing these days—he likes to walk in and command a room. Reed says Noah is a lot like his uncle, Reed’s younger brother, Jason. Too smart for his own good, Reed often says, and always the center of attention. But Jason must be doing something right, because he’s living in an expensive apartment in Los Angeles, an entertainment lawyer to the stars.
“Mom, Brady won’t let me play with the airplane. My airplane, the one I got for Christmas.” Noah folds his arms across his chest and looks cross.
Frances puts away the dry packages of spaghetti. “Can you give him something else to play with? What about his fire truck?” She starts clearing the table, readying it for breakfast instead.
“He hates that fire truck. He wants my airplane, but it’s mine. I’m going to hit him.”
“Noah.” Frances frowns. “We do not hit in this family. Got it?”
Noah isn’t fazed. “Then I’ll lock him in the closet.”
Frances is glad there’s nobody here to witness this, especially any of the caseworkers who did the home study for the adoption.
“Noah, you’re a big boy. Find something else to play with.”
Noah huffs, “Mom!” but turns and stomps back to his room. Frances listens for a yell from Brady, but it doesn’t come. In a few minutes they have to go pick up Nick from a friend’s house, so they’ll have to stop playing anyway.
When the spaghetti sauce is transferred to a container to cool and everything else is washed and put away, Frances grabs her keys and calls to the boys. “Time to get Nick. Everybody in the car!”
When there’s no answer, Frances walks down to the boys’ room. At some point they’ll outgrow this house but for now, Frances likes how cozy it is. All three boys share a room and she likes knowing that at night, they’re all tucked in and together. She’s an only child and she always longed for a sibling, always wished she had a brother or a sister to share a room with, to grow up with. Maybe that’s why Mei Ling feels so right, so perfect for their family. The boys have one another just like Reed has Jason, but Frances knows that having a little girl is going to change everything for them, and for the better.
Reed teases her that it’s all about the fluffy pink dresses and frilly hairbows, but they both know it’s much more than that. It’s about the softness that comes with having a girl in the home. For Frances, this sweet angel is her long-held wish, her secret hope from the day she married Reed. She always knew she’d have a daughter, and it always surprised her whenever she found out she was having a boy. She wouldn’t trade her sons for anything, of course, but always there was the waiting, the expectation. Now it can be put to rest. The daughter she has been waiting for is finally coming.
Frances turns into the boys’ room and gasps. Noah and Brady are standing around the remains of a toy airplane, which Noah is proceeding to smash to bits with a plastic baseball bat. Brady is laughing as pieces fly everywhere.
“Noah Tyler Latham! You stop that right now!” Frances hurries forward as Noah takes another swing at the airplane.
“Can’t, Mom,” Noah says. “Airplane crash.”
“Airplane crash!” Brady repeats, delighted. He’s three. He claps as a plastic shard flies across the room. “Boom!”
“Boom!” Noah roars, and brings the bat down as Frances tries to grab it. He nails her in the foot and she tumbles toward the beds. “Oh! Sorry, Mom.”
Frances catches herself, then gives her foot a shake. It stings, but she knows nothing is broken.
“I thought you liked this airplane,” she says grabbing the bat as Noah readies for another swing.
“Nah,” Noah says with a shrug. “We’re over it. Right, Brady?”
Brady beams. “Right!” He scoops up an armful of parts and tosses them in the air before Frances can stop him.
“Stop! Boys, get in the car now.” She pushes them toward the door. “And then you’re cleaning this up when we get home.” She gives Noah a firm look.
“It was Brady’s idea,” Noah starts to protest. “Make him do it.”
“Brady is three.” Frances points toward the garage. “GO.”
Noah trudges out the door with Brady on his heels. Frances stares at the destruction in their wake. She loves her sons, but this supposedly typical-boy behavior is too much. She sees Mei Ling’s picture in a frame on the boys’ dresser, and feels herself soften once again. Already Frances feels back in balance, no longer outnumbered by all the testosterone in the house.
“You and me,” she says, rubbing her foot. She touches the frame gently. “Tea parties and dress-up. We’ll show these boys how it’s done.”