Canto of Self-rebuke

In the headlights logic is no guide,

and the roo standing nine foot on its back legs

is a griffin, and its eyes are green fire

set in feathery, tinder-dry undergrowth;

washed in high-resolution night-vision,

slightly off-centre full moon;

I dreamt last night, still disturbed

by the near miss, that no guide had ever

been at my side, that the house

tilted with isolation, that all the dead

had lifted and walked on past—foundations

and framework not earthquake-proofed

enough, knowing the summit

can’t be transgressed. Though you’ve gone further,

and won’t call back, unattended?

Yesterday, I spent the afternoon

tearing melon infestation from the driveway,

tap roots stratifying local history.

It has to be done, you say. I rebuke

myself, an early sea-breeze bringing

humidity from that distant coast,

the crackling of invertebrates in dry grass

is muffled, and I notice my hands are raw

from weeding, and I stand within my childhood.