Mom? Hi. It’s me.”
“Oh, my. Is it Sunday already?”
“No. Thursday.” Adam’s top-floor office had formerly housed four junior analysts. The other three desks were now empty. The long narrow room was brightened with skylights and furnished in flowing Swedish lines but remained a far cry from the executive quarters two floors below. “How are you?”
“Adam, you know what we decided.” His mother’s voice was soft but relatively strong. Eleven o’clock in Oxford was six in the morning, Maryland time. His mother had always been an early riser. Nowadays, this was her clearest hour. “You agreed it was best if we spoke once each week.”
“Only because I didn’t want to leave after another argument.”
“You have to be strong, son.”
He did not want to hear her go through all the reasons for his being four thousand miles away from her bedside. So he changed the subject with, “Mom, I got the job.”
“Well, of course you did.”
“This place is in serious trouble. I don’t know what’s wrong yet. But I’m thinking major meltdown.”
“So they need you even more than you expected.”
“The way things look, I might be home pretty soon.”
“Did you find anything that might be the sign we spoke of?”
“Maybe. The entire building is filled with Eve Arnold prints.”
The sound from the other end of the line was so alien, Adam feared his mother was choking. “Mom?”
“Eve Arnold? Really?”
Adam realized she was laughing. He tried to remember the last time he had heard the sound. “They’re holding a retrospective. They’ve got Marilyn’s picture, you know the one, she’s leaning against Clark Gable’s car from The Misfits. It’s downstairs in the reception hall.”
“That was always my favorite.”
“How did you know? I mean, about the sign.”
Adam expected her to respond with one of her standard edicts, as in, A life without faith is only half lived. Or, Blindness of the heart can be cured with one small act. Words he had been ignoring for years.
Today, however, she said, “The veil between heaven and earth seems to be diminishing. From time to time, there are the most astonishing moments of crystal clarity. I can see the door ahead, and it is wide open. Angels pass through and speak with me.”
He set an elbow on the table and leaned his forehead upon his fist. She had never spoken openly of this before. Even so, after twenty-five months of crises, he should have been ready.
His mother went on, “There is a glory in suffering. I wish the lessons had come in some different form. But they haven’t. At least for me.” Her breathing rasped across the distance. “This is why I asked you not to call but once a week, son. We knew it would be a trying time. But we also knew this was the right move.”
“You did.”
“No, Adam. No. We both knew this. You have seen me through the impossible. You have had your own trial by fire. You must be strong now. Find a future without hospitals and suffering. For both of us.”
“I need to be there with you.”
“You are. Now I want you to do something else for me. Find another old lady who faces her own trial. Give her a rea-son to smile.”
“I’ll try.”
“I’m very proud of you, son. Call me Sunday.”
Kayla had been granted three minutes with the board. She needed only two. Their gazes were rifle barrels that shot down her words before they were fully formed. But what truly silenced her was her father’s demeanor. Peter Austin, her strongest ally and constant support, stared blankly at the conference table. His bearing matched his suit, dark and gray and all the life starched out. Nothing he might have said could have impacted her more.
Kayla was reduced to proper formality. She apologized for having lost the company’s capital. She apologized for having hired a charming thief. She neglected to mention she had done so only because they had insisted upon her bringing in a business manager. She apologized for delaying her return. She had hoped her team could pull things together and survive. They almost did. Kayla passed around details of their current financial situation, which showed clearly that a relatively small injection of further capital would bridge them into success.
She then left the boardroom. Her unspoken request dangled in the air like a spinning target, waiting to be shot down. Kayla could almost smell the gunpowder as she shut the conference room door. Not one of the board members had even glanced at her handout.
She took a slow tour of the building, ostensibly to examine the Arnold prints. In truth, they merely gave her something to look at while she moved about. She had never imagined the board would turn her down flat. She had expected a severe dressing-down and a check reluctantly written for a fraction of what she needed. Even that would have granted her the chance to work out terms with their African bankers. But to receive nothing was unthinkable. Kayla walked the halls, surrounded by her mother’s soft presence, and tried to breathe around the gaping wound. Nearly two years of struggle. All her hopes. Gone.
She was midway along the upstairs hallway when the change finally struck home. She could hear a man struggle through a phone conversation because that was the only sound. Normally the building’s top floor possessed a sort of joyful pandemonium. Her father’s junior employees played like human skyrockets, their frenetic excitement a force that infected the entire building. But not today. Kayla found herself drawn toward the open door. She saw a young man hunched over his desk, his forehead planted upon his fist. His accent was American. She heard that he spoke with his mother. The conversation was clearly tearing him apart. Finally he hung up the phone, took a hard breath, and used both hands to drag his hair from his face. Kayla retreated unseen.
She carried the young man’s distress back downstairs. She realized the same anxiety was reflected in almost every face she passed. Oxford Ventures had always been a special place, full of her father’s vibrant optimism and power. Normally, the air was electric with potential. The company’s reputation among the business community was legendary. Peter Austin did not merely invest other people’s money. He made things happen.
Kayla retreated into a little alcove just outside her father’s private office. When Kayla had been twelve, and her mother’s pending departure had filled their home with shadows, her father had fitted this out as her little niche. An eighteenth-century wormwood writing desk, just twenty inches wide, had been positioned against one wall. Peter Austin had bought her a Victorian occasional chair with scrolled arms and extra padding in the seat. Her father had then presented Kayla with her very own key to his private filing system and showed her how the bottom drawer with its polished mahogany front had her name in the little brass frame. The drawer was hers to stow whatever she wished, and no one, not even he, would dare touch a thing. They had never mentioned the reason for these gifts. Nor why the secretaries had gathered in the doorway and smiled at her. Nor why everyone in the company gave her such a warm welcome whenever she arrived.
Mrs. Drummond, her father’s secretary, an unflappable woman who had been with Peter Austin for nineteen years, gave Kayla her customary greeting of a solemn nod. As though Kayla had been in the day before and not absent for almost a year. Mrs. Drummond possessed little ability for familiarity.
Slipping into her alcove and seating herself at the desk brought Kayla no relief. The bulletin board above her desk was filled with work from her last visit home—financial projections and spreadsheets and photographs, all of which had been packed into the glossy brochure she had produced for her investors.
All lies.
She was still seated when her father returned from the boardroom. “A rather curious thing.”
“What, Daddy?”
“This young gentleman I was telling you about. He seems to have caught Joshua unawares.” He knocked gently upon the side-wall, another gesture from their past. Even in the most frantic of days, he would tap the wall as he passed, just letting her know he was there for her. “I have the distinct impression Joshua was not altogether sorry I insisted we give Adam a chance.”
This was so like her father. At the worst moments of their life together, when the entire world seemed blanketed by shadows, her father would search out something good to share with his daughter. Kayla was flooded with memories of other such times. “I’m so sorry, Daddy.”
He gave his distinct smile, warm and sad and loving, despite the world falling apart around him. “Mrs. Drummond, ask the young man to join me.”