THE TEMPTATION TO BLOW OFF genealogy work for the afternoon was strong. Leaves needed raking, books needed reading, bikes needed riding. But Esme and I both wanted to give Olivia all the time we could before we left for the Wilmington job, so we pushed on.
Sometimes our clients want only a bare-bones pedigree chart with names, dates, and maybe the occupations of their ancestors and their country of origin. Or they want a coat of arms they can hang on the wall in the den. Those are easy-peasy jobs we can knock out in a day or two. Olivia’s project wasn’t one of those.
She was looking for a deeper, richer family narrative. She wanted the story of her people. And for that you have to dig and shuffle through a lot of stuff. Often clients get completely overwhelmed by the task of taming all the photos, heirlooms, and other artifacts a family accumulates over generations into some kind of logical order so that patterns and identities start to emerge. That’s where I come in.
I get to strut my stuff on these jobs since I absolutely rock when it comes to organizing, at least in my professional persona. In my personal life, not so much. Hence the need for frequent safaris into the deepest reaches of the house, hunting for my keys or a mislaid hairbrush or iPod.
But sorting clients’ family artifacts is something Esme and I have down to a system. I was going through the boxes, examining each item for dates, placing each into a protective sleeve and then snapping it into a three-ring binder in its proper chronological position. Simultaneously, I was constructing an index database that included a description of each item and the noted or estimated date, so we could build on the information in a methodical, cumulative progression.
For amateurs the impulse is to start looking through things and get drawn into the contents of a letter or ponder over the identity of someone in a photo, only to suddenly realize an hour has passed and there’s been no progress in organizing. With our method there’s no sidetracking.
Theoretically.
The boxes we’d brought home from Olivia’s on this trip included two containing Olivia’s maternal grandparents’ belongings and one with Celestine’s personal diaries from the year Olivia’s parents were married. I worked through the books trying hard to record the dates without succumbing to reading the actual text.
I failed.
Once I caught the word bride I was hopeless against the compunction to read on. I figured if I was going astray I should take Esme along with me, so I read the passage aloud to her:
Diary of Celestine Duffy Hargett
September 7, 1941
We met Johnny’s new bride, Irene, today. Johnny calls her Renny and she says she’d like us to call her that, too. She is a beautiful child. And that is what she is; she is a child. So is Johnny for that matter. I wonder if she knows what she has got herself into. Johnny is my husband’s only brother, and I love him, I truly do. But I can’t make out what kind of husband he’ll turn out to be. I expect not a very good one. I blame his mama since she doted on him right much and allowed him to skate by on near ’bout everything. Now he’s grown tall, but not so much grown up. Maybe it’s ’cause he’s such a good-looking boy, but he has a very high opinion of himself and is bad to get aggrieved and pout or act out when he doesn’t get his way about every little thing. I fear there will be some rough road ahead for these two young ones.
And doesn’t that all make me sound like an old granny woman? I’m not but five years older than Johnny myself, but I dare say I’ve a better head on my shoulders in the first place and I’ve done a whole lot of growing up since me and Riley married, nearly six years ago now. Seems hard to believe it’s been that long, and yet again hard to believe it’s ONLY been that long. Seems to me I’ve always been with Riley Hargett. If not here in this place then somewhere up there in heaven where our souls got matched up long ages ago.
Renny is a t-nincy thing. Puts me in mind of a little sparrow. And seems like she’s got the sweetest disposition you could imagine. Right off she hugged my neck and told me how glad she was we were to be sisters since she never had a sister. I never had one either so I told her I was just as glad as her. And I am.
I’ll own up to some unfair judgment on my part. I was half expecting she’d be snooty. She is a town girl and her parents are both educated people who’ve traveled to lots of far-off places. I’ve heard they are none too happy about their daughter running off and marrying the likes of Johnny Hargett, who even his family that loves him will allow is a wild boy with not much prospects. Her folks were missionaries in China, which is where Renny was born, and they wanted her to go to college and become a learned lady, which will surely not happen now. This must be a heartbreak to them as Renny is their only child, at least their only one left with them in this world. I hear they once had a son, but he died when he was real little. I believe I recollect hearing it was of some disease he got from wherever foreign place they were serving as missionaries at the time. I imagine that would be the hardest thing a person could be called on to endure. I consider myself a faithful woman and I try to live a good example every day of my life but I don’t know if I could ever answer the call to spread the Word if it meant putting my child in danger. If I had a child, I mean. Riley and me have long ago accepted that being mama and papa is not in the cards for us. Now that is a true heartbreak.
I still cannot believe those two ran off and got married without a whisper to a living soul. But with all that’s going on in this old world I suppose folks are grabbing at happiness while they can. Who knows what tomorrow holds. That terrible war overseas seems like it’s going to soon overtake the whole world. Every morning I wake up to the clear blue Carolina sky and the peaceful countryside around our little place and I can scarcely think of danger or strife. But Riley says it’s coming. He says President Roosevelt will have no choice but to lead us into that big war soon. I hope with all my heart Riley is wrong since if the call to service comes I know he’ll be first in line to answer. I’d be proud but scared half to death every minute he was gone away from me. I cannot bear to think on it.
Good night, dear diary. I will write more tomorrow.
Esme let out a sigh. “Not exactly a ringing endorsement of Johnny Hargett, is it? I hope Olivia means it about wanting to know about her father. People always say they want the truth, but sometimes what they’re really hoping is we’ll find something that proves it was all a big misunderstanding. That Uncle Edgar wasn’t really a horse thief; he was borrowing the pony for some emergency. Or that Aunt Gertrude didn’t really steal her best friend’s husband; she was just there to comfort him after the split.”
“I think Olivia’s going into this with her eyes open,” I said, lifting the jeweler’s loupe from where it dangled from a chain around my neck. I put it to my eye to try to decipher the cancellation stamp on an envelope. “But I’ll talk with her about it to make sure we’re all on the same page.”
Esme, wearing a paper mask to ward off the dust, was going through the box of Olivia’s grandparents’ things that Daniel had retrieved from the pastor’s wife. She took an envelope from the box and stared at it, then pulled the mask from her face. “This is a letter from Renny to her parents around that same time. Now that you’ve opened the door my curiosity’s got the best of me. I’m gonna have to read it.”
I wasn’t in any position to protest, since I was the one who’d violated our protocol in the first place. “Go ahead,” I said, “but read it out loud.”
Esme slid the pages out onto a clean bath mat we use to absorb the dust. She unfolded the thin paper and gently pulled the pages apart, smoothing out each sheet in turn and studying it. “Okay, this is a letter from Renny to her parents. It’s dated October 16, 1941.”
Dearest Ba-Ba and Ma-Ma,
I know you are still angry with me and that makes me very sad. I am sorry it has taken me so long to write to you. First I had to get my courage up and then I realized I had no writing tablet so I had to wait until Johnny went into town to get me one. As you know paper is precious these days and having a whole tablet is a luxury.
I hope that you will someday find it in your hearts to forgive me for leaving to marry without your permission. If I’d had a sliver of hope you would have someday given me your blessing I would have waited, but I knew that day would never come, not for me to be with Johnny. You both had your hearts and minds set against him from the start. So I will say that I am so very sorry for disappointing you, but I am not sorry to be Johnny’s wife.
I wish you would understand that all the talk of war and the horrors of what is going on overseas makes a person stop and think about putting good things off for a someday that may never come. I am hoping you will write back to me, Ba-Ba, and give me comfort and assure me that God will protect our country and that this will all pass and life will be peaceful and right again, and that you and Ma-Ma will love me still as you always have.
I am blessed to be welcomed into the Hargett family. Johnny’s brother, Riley, and his wife, Celestine, live next door to us. Their house is close by, just a few steps across the yard. Riley is Johnny’s older brother and together they own this farm their parents left them. It is beautiful here. Our houses are on a hill and we can see the valley below dressed out in autumn glory.
They rented out most of the farmland this year and the men who planted it are well into the harvest. Riley worked it alone for the past two years but the place is too much for him to handle with just the mules and he hasn’t the money to buy a tractor even if he could get one with things like that so scarce right now. He’s working for now at the livestock barn taking care of the mules coming up for auction.
As for Johnny, he never had it in his mind to be a farmer. He wants a job where he can use his mind. He’s very smart, which you’ll both come to believe when you get to know him. He really is a swell fellow and he’s good with figures. He’s going to try to get on with the Savings and Loan or maybe at the Tobacco Exchange.
Riley and Celestine have been so good to me since I came here. They are caring, faithful people anyone would be glad to count as family. Celestine is teaching me to knit but I am a poor student. I get the yarn all tangled and drop stitches then I must ravel everything out and start all over again. Celestine is patient with my fumbling fingers.
She’s also showing me how to put up the vegetables from the big fall garden she and Riley tend and the fruit from the orchard behind our houses. She belongs to the Home Extension Club and she knows all about the proper way to do these things. We are putting by everything we can as many are saying there will be shortages even worse than now if we go into the war.
Celestine has complimented me on my cooking, Ma-Ma, and I told her the credit goes to you for having taught me since I was a very little girl, starting with how to cook rice when we were in China.
I hope that you will come for a visit soon so you can meet them and get to know Johnny better. Until then please know that whether you believe me or not I remain your devoted and loving daughter.
Renny
“Well, that answers one question,” Esme said, sliding the letter and envelope into a flat paper bag to await the scanner. “Renny’s parents surely did not give their permission for the marriage.”
“And considering he ran off on her a short time later, when she was pregnant no less, looks like they were better judges of character than Renny. Sounds like she was a sheltered girl with stars in her eyes,” I said.
“And she paid dearly for every twinkle,” Esme said.
“I think what Olivia would really like to know is how her mother felt about her father and all that went on before he left them. That’s certainly what I’d want to know if I were in her shoes. Too bad Renny wasn’t willing to talk with her about it.”
“It is,” Esme agreed. “My mother talked ceaselessly about my father. I don’t have clear memories of him, since I was only four when he passed. But my mother helped me know him. Hardly a day passed without her mentioning a food he liked, or a piece of music he was fond of or how my laugh sounded like his. She didn’t make him a saint, though. She’d fuss, too, telling me how I left all the kitchen cabinet doors standing wide open just like he used to do, which drove her crazy.”
“Speaking of things that drive a person crazy,” I said, “why did you accept Daniel’s invitation for both of us yesterday, without even a by-your-leave to me?”
Esme was unbowed. “You said yes in your head. I can’t help it if I sometimes overhear your thoughts. You think loud. And anyhow you can thank me later. Daniel’s made a few dishes for Olivia to bring to the church potlucks and once folks get wind which one is his they’ll elbow little old ladies out of the way to get to it. He’s good. And it’s a nice way to show his appreciation. I knew you wouldn’t deny him that. And I knew you’d want to go because the others are all coming, including Jack.”
While Olivia was ill, Jack had brought his landscaping crew over every week to mow her lawn and trim the hedges. These were chores Olivia had taken care of herself right up until the time she was diagnosed. She’d tamed the yard into submission with a push mower and manual garden tools. She’d been a healthy, strong woman and years of constructing the whimsical, kinetic metal sculptures she welded had given her better-than-average upper-body strength. It had been hard for her to accept that she couldn’t manage the upkeep of her house, even temporarily.
Winston had pitched in with household chores for Olivia. And, of course, kept her supplied with fresh baked goodies. Esme and I had secretly hoped a romance might blossom between the two of them. Winston had been alone for a year, ever since his shrew of a wife, Patsy, had gone off to visit her sister for two weeks then on day fourteen announced she wasn’t coming back. True confession: The last part hadn’t seemed all that tragic to the rest of us. For years we’d wondered how a wonderful man like Winston ever got hooked up with that old crabapple in the first place. But they’d been together a long time and Winston was sad, more for the sake of his kids and grandkids, I suspected. Patsy had turned her back on all of them.
As for Olivia, she’d been widowed twice over. Bethany’s father, Quentin Saunders, had been in Vietnam. He survived that hell, but it haunted him. Afterward he became deeply involved in the movement to bring home comrades being held as POWs, and in an anvil-heavy irony he’d been killed in an accident aboard ship when he was returning to Vietnam as a delegate on a negotiating team. He’d gone in peace, not as a warrior, but the war had claimed him all the same.
My parents had been close to Olivia and Quentin and I’d heard them talk about how devastated Olivia had been. Beth had been conceived just before he left on the mission, so she’d never known her biological father, either. But unlike her own mother, Olivia made certain her daughter knew the man her father had been.
After Quentin died, Olivia had moved in with his parents and put all her energies into raising Beth. Her in-laws, Silas and Regina, loved her like a daughter. They were concerned about her, submerged as she was in her grief. They tried to get her out into the world to open up new possibilities for her. In fact, it had been Silas who’d introduced her to George Clement, a counselor at the VA center where he volunteered. He invited George to dinner in a flagrant attempt at matchmaking. It worked—eventually. George and Olivia became friends, and a long while later, more than friends. The wedding was held in the backyard at the Saunderses’ home, with Beth as flower girl and Silas and Regina as witnesses.
George was a good stepfather and a year later Daniel joined the family. Shortly after that both Silas and Regina passed away, leaving the house and all their worldly possessions to Olivia and George.
The Clement family lived happily together in the house for a little over a decade, before George succumbed to a respiratory ailment, leaving Olivia a two-time widow. Maybe she’d decided not to risk the pain of loss again.
In any case, Olivia and Winston had remained friends only. But sometimes that’s even better than a romance. At least that’s what I tell myself when I’m with Jack.