All these meetings. The memories among patent-mops, plastic folders. I met the skipper at the goodie counter. All roads meet here in December. If you don’t see someone out at Marybank Garage, waiting for a tyre or exhaust, you’ll see them in the Woolies. I was looking along the presentation boxes for Terry’s Spartan. The olaid had never gone for soft-centres.
This was F W Woolworth, not long before the sign changed to Woolworth and the cheques had to be made out to Woolworth PLC. The skipper was Angus from Garyvard. Kenny’s uncle. It might be enough to be all Jock Tamson’s bairns in the rest of Scotland but in the Outer Hebrides, we need to know the details of the relationships.
The round face was even more round. A trace of white stubble coming through the red. The thick glasses. No Sellotape. The ones he had to hand on the boat were held together with the stuff. These must be his best wear. I’d first met this man, amongst others, in a fishing boat chartered for a sea angling competition. Then again when he bought my olman’s Morris Traveller. He put the brush over it with Charlie Morrison’s Paint – yacht enamel – wooden bits and all and it did him a couple of years. But that was as far as my track went. I didn’t know he was Kenny F’s uncle, till that first time out in the sea angling boat.
‘Do you still go fishing?’ It was his question, direct, no smalltalk.
It was like we were in the movies. Marbled vinyl of the floor going wavy. Here we go. We’re away. A bit like LSD. But that’s how it was. The shoppers passing us by like other vessels in transit. I was afloat.
Kenny F and me took turns being anchor-man and mate. A bristling rivalry between us. Usually, it was Kenny who was up the pecking order. He was ahead of me in seamanship. A guy who knew what he wanted to do. But we’d work as a team to start the Lister. One on the handle, the other ready to pull over the lever on the first cylinder when she was turning over fast enough. Then the second two got recompressed when she was chuntering. Since then, I’ve never fully trusted an electric start.
Kenny’s uncle Angus gave us the marks once. Then he let us argue between ourselves until we remembered them and found anchorage uptide from the pinnacle. Quite a knack in judging the slack so you’d hold but not drift too far down. I learned not to coil that warp, on the way out, but to flake it, end for end, loose so it would run.
All around The Carranoch it’s thirty fathoms and then it climbs. Twenty, then eighteen and you’re right on it. Abeam the tits up on the hill over Loch Erisort, the mark open on the island – Tavay. We couldn’t wait to get the lines down.
A real Christmas tree rig, Angus called Kenny’s set of lures. I blame all these angling magazines.
But there was something to be said for hedging your bet between the bigger hook on the bottom and a smaller one on a snood. You might get something interesting half a fathom up. Maybe because the three of us fished a different set of terminal tackle, the box would fill with colours. Twelve species was nothing out of the ordinary and sometime we’d be struggling for names, between our town English and the skipper’s Gaelic. Was a red bream the same as a Norwegian haddock? He would often start to sing but composing in English, for our benefit.
‘If you catch a Balallan Wrasse,
You can stick it up your ass…’
Cuckoo wrasse had the tropical colours, ballan wrasse, often larger fish, had a soft shift of shading from kelp red to a green I haven’t seen anywhere else. The ling coming up, mottled like pike but a valued fish in our parts. All sure signs you were over the hard ground. Every village in North Lochs would have its own set of marks for the reef. Balallan was further up Loch Erisort, almost inland. Not taken too seriously by guys like our skipper from further down the loch.
All gasping colours, darkening on wrinkled skins as the day went on. The light always seeming to be refracted so it came from the clouds as rays from a protractor. Spreading to link us, over The Carranoch, spreading further west to Eilean Calum Chille – St Columba’s Isle. If that Irishman visited half the islands that bear his name, he’d have got around as much as Bonny Prince Charlie. The Prince’s cairn was another of our marks, muddy ground for thornback ray, in his case.
‘Did you ever see such a fluke as –
A skate on a haddock hook?’
It was only a matter of time before Angus’s big rod would go right on over, as far as the water and we’d think he had the bottom and was winding us up. But no, nine times out of ten, a grey slashing conger would come up on his single Scandinavian hook. Mustad. Best forged Swedish steel.
But it was one of Kenny’s congers that nearly caused a mutiny.
‘If that bloody thing is coming into this boat, I’m leaving it.’ His uncle’s judgement. And I played along. Kenny was getting worked up.
‘Come on, I don’t have a wire trace on. Just the thick mono. It’s getting frayed. Don’t piss about, gaff that eel before we lose it.’
I was guided by Angus. We lifted several of the bottom boards before taking up the gaff. Put them aside in order. As I swung the big black thing in, Angus took his knife to the thick nylon snood so the whole thing fell into the place prepared for it. He chucked the boards back and sat on them. There was a drumming. But you couldn’t risk your fingers near that. He’d stun it, aiming at the spine near the vent, in a minute. That one would be in the salt by tonight. Feed half his own village unless we townies wanted it.
‘No, you’re welcome to it.’ Kenny was recovering. ‘You have to live at least three cattle grids out from town to eat salt eel.’
Even if none of it’s said, sometimes you know the other guy is reliving it with you. Memories meeting. Passing vessels exchanging courtesies. Angus was still in the aisle of the shop. The voice that came through to me at last, said how was his nephew, Kenny, doing?
Hadn’t he heard?
He wouldn’t be blooming well asking me if he’d heard.
The skipper’s language was more subdued these days. I’d heard he was on the tack. Religion usually went along with that. He looked well on it.
I told him Kenny F had blown it.
‘Blown what?’
‘Blown a good job at the Arnish yard.’
The yard out over the harbour Approaches, near the old quarantine buoy. I’d jotted the figures down for the surveyors who prepared the ground. That was one summer job. Next season I’d looked at the smoke from the town side, as they burned the farm cottage and bulldozed the hill behind it. Kept a lot of young guys at home. Brought a few travellers back. Jackets and collars in steel for North Sea platforms. Cash to be spent in the shops down town. Accommodation for welding inspectors.
To be weighed against the loss of the more adventurous townie’s Sunday stroll. The pollution of one shore which was thick with horse-mussels. The clappy-doos you see at the Barras in Glasgow. Once, when it was blowing too much of a hooly even for us to go out past the light, the skipper had taken us into Glumaig Bay at Low Water to fill a fishbox with them. First you saw nothing. Then you became sensitive to the barnacled black stone that wasn’t a stone. You needed a decent knife. Meaty shellfish, asking for a garlic sauce.
Angus told me my mate hadn’t been out to Garyvard for a long time. I told him I hadn’t seen him, myself. I’d been at Uni, back and fore. And on shiftwork, when I was working at home.
‘Is he at the welding? He was at Nigg for a while.’
No, Kenny hadn’t been a welder. A scaffolder and, the word was, a bloody good one. He had it all planned. A definite share, each week into the boat account. Sure as Pay As You Earn. He had the keel laid in a yard at Buckie. Small enough to work single-handed, if he had to, big enough to put out in a bit of sea.
‘So what’s gone wrong?’
The twelve-hour shifts. You could see it coming. First it was only one on the way home, when you knocked off. There were a few places you could tap at the door, whatever the finishing time.
‘Aye, I used to know a few of these knocks.’
Then it was after the night shifts, before you got to your bed. Only a matter of time before there was something in the back pocket or in the tea flask.
Angus only had to give the smallest nod. ‘So it came to a head?
‘In style. They thought he’d gone crazy one night. Nobody realised what he was up to, carrying all these poles outside the main shed. Then someone misses him for a tricky bit where they were welding. Goes out to find this amazing bit of scaffolding, pretty well the full height of the shed. And there’s Kenny, swaying, with a big can of that indelible paint, making this huge mark.
‘When you stood back, it was a big white cross. First they think it’s a big Scottish nationalist sign and a lot of guys start cheering till it looks like a war’s going to break out. Then somebody think’s he’s got religion in a big way. Could be that kind of cross.’
But the skipper knew what it was the way I’d known what Kenny was up to. Our northward mark for the Carranoch Reef was gone, since the old Coastguard aerial at Holm had been shifted. Then the Arnish sheds obscured another mark. So Kenny had painted a white cross you could see from five miles out at sea. Just what we needed to line up on the war memorial. Only of course some tidy so and so painted over it before we had a chance to test it out properly. And Kenny was down the road. I hadn’t seen him for a while.
‘He’ll get his boat another way if he gets off the sauce,’ Angus said.
And I could see now how the red in our skipper’s face was somehow different, clearer, not broken by small veins. I remembered someone saying he was an Elder, these days. But he was saying something else. I hadn’t answered his question, did I still go fishing?
No, not that way, not to sea, not for a while. But I went to fresh water. The longer the hike over the moor the better. Maybe that was like enjoying the clearing up more than the party. But I was a bit that way as well, believe it or not. And himself?
‘Eels. No, not congers. Freshwater. Like reptiles.’ He had a small business, laying traps and fyke-nets in the lochs near home. Then he had a stainless-steel smoker set-up. Got oak chips from the boatyard at Goat Island. They fetched a better price than smoked salmon, these days, with all that farmed stuff about.
He’d seen them often enough, Hamburg or Rotterdam, out on the stalls. About the only thing that stayed in his mind from the blur of all these shore visits. He’d never eat one himself.
‘If you ever taste one,’ he said, ‘it might be one of mine. You’ll need to report back to me, what they’re like.’