JORDAN
We held hands as the cab made the forty-five-minute drive from the Strip to Nellis Air Force Base. We didn’t speak.
Maybe it was stupid, but I was nervous. So much more nervous than I’d been going up to his room, the kind of nervous that came with venturing into uncharted territory where boundaries were murky and undefined.
I kept questioning the decision to come with him, doubting my sanity, cursing the impulsive streak that had me hitching my wagon to a guy I knew next to nothing about. But no matter how many times I tried to wrap my head around how I’d gotten here, I couldn’t get to a place where I didn’t see myself sitting next to him, my hand clutched in his.
So I gave up and just went along for the ride.
“Are you hungry?” Noah asked, breaking the silence between us.
I shook my head. “I’m pretty sure I’ll never be hungry again. That buffet was intense.”
He grinned. “Yeah, it’s my favorite. Definitely the best buffet in Vegas.”
I’d considered not gorging myself on the eclectic fare for like a second, but the lure of so many of my favorite foods had been too powerful to ignore. Hopefully, I had a bit of time for the food baby in me to subside before we were naked and horizontal—or vertical considering the added food poundage he’d have to support if he did me against the wall again. Or in the shower. He’d had some amazing moves in the shower this morning.
“How long do you have to go into work today?” I asked, hoping that would buy me enough of a reprieve.
“An hour or two? It shouldn’t be long. I just have to finish up the mission planning I started on Friday.”
Friday. The day we met. The day all of this had started. It had only been two days and yet it felt like so much more.
“We can go out and get a drink after or stay in if you want,” Noah added.
I squeezed his hand. “I think we should stay in.”
He raised our joined hands to his lips, my pulse racing as he kissed my knuckles, his voice rumbling over my bare skin. “Sounds good to me.”
This guy was so freaking hot.
“So am I going to get to see some planes while I’m here?” I squeaked, trying to get my bearings back.
He grinned. “Do you want to see some planes?”
I’d never really thought about it, but it’d be cool to see what he did all day.
“Yeah, I do.”
“We can check out the flight line, then. There should be some jets out for you to look at.”
I nodded like this was a normal, everyday occurrence, when really it felt like I was in a movie or something. The whole thing was just surreal. I mean, a few days ago, I’d been getting ready to board a flight to Vegas. Now I sat next to this fascinating guy whose touch set off fireworks throughout my body. I’d never imagined my life could change so much in just a few short days, and even though this was still new, and I wasn’t even sure what it was, that feeling that I stood on the precipice of something unexpected was inescapable.
We drove to the Nellis Air Force Base gates and Noah took me to the visitor’s center to get me checked in with a pass that would let me stay on the base for the night. The whole thing was way more intense than I’d expected, and silly though it may be, I felt like I was entering a whole other world. I cracked a joke about being in a spy movie that made Noah hook his arm around my neck and press me into his side for a kiss that left me breathless.
I watched as people in uniform saluted Noah, and while he was nice to everyone, it was impossible to miss the air about him that stated unequivocally that he lived in a world where he commanded a great deal of respect. And that was undeniably sexy, too. Maybe it was the fact that he was confident without being an arrogant dick. Or even more, the feeling that he’d earned every inch of the deference that he was given.
We walked the rest of the way to the hotel and he pointed out things on the base, holding my hand the whole time. As much as he gave off the cool, tough guy vibe, I loved that he didn’t shy away from being sweet with me, that he didn’t care who saw. Every moment I spent with him made me like him a little bit more, unveiling a side that was even more intriguing.
He took me up to his room and we dropped off our bags and then he grabbed his wallet and a lanyard with an ID card on it and held his hand out to me.
“Come on, I’ll take you to see the flight line and the squadron.”
I fucking melted.
I wouldn’t have protested if he’d led with sex; hell, food baby or no food baby, I’d been ready to jump him again for a while now. But he wanted to show me where he worked. And he genuinely looked excited to do it.
I really liked him.
He took me on a short tour of the base as we headed to the flight line, his arm draped around my shoulders, pointing out the various sights. I didn’t know what I’d expected a military base to look like, but I walked around wide-eyed as he gave me a crash course in how the base operated. We walked over to the building where he had been working while he was at Nellis for the past couple weeks and he pointed out the flight line across the street, showing me the row of F-16s.
“There’s no flying on the weekends, but you’ll hear them taking off tomorrow morning. They’re loud.”
They looked loud. They were huge, gray, intense. The guy who I’d spent the night with felt even more like a mystery. I couldn’t quite wrap my head around what it would be like to sit in the cockpit and fly one of these things. What it would be like to go to war in one, to do the kind of maneuvers he described now, to fire missiles or drop bombs. He said his primary mission was suppression of enemy air defenses, and while I had no clue what that meant, it sounded badass in a way that was far out of the realm of badass I’d previously measured all other things by.
“It means we’re the first ones in during a conflict,” he explained. “We take out the enemy’s air defense systems to protect the other planes.”
And suddenly badass began to sound really fucking dangerous. I swallowed, reconciling this new part with all the other ones I’d learned about him.
Noah flashed a badge at some scary-looking security guys with some serious weaponry that had me sidling up closer to him, and then we were standing next to one of those giant metal beasts, and I once again struggled to get my bearings. As much as I stood out, he looked like he’d been born to be here, that feeling that I’d first gotten when I saw him at the club coming back to me.
This was his kingdom.
Noah stroked the metal with a gleam of pride that was both paternal and loving as he explained to me how the planes had the base and squadron they were from painted on their tails, as he threw out complicated terms and palmed the training missiles affixed to the jet. We walked along the row of F-16s, and he pointed out the one with his name, rank, and call sign painted below the cockpit.
He answered all my questions, explaining what the training missiles were and how they worked. He told me that part of his job was teaching guys how to fight in the air, and given the way he went through the process with me—clearly and methodically—I totally got how he would be really amazing at it.
“What’s it like?” I asked as we began walking off the flight line.
“Flying?”
I nodded.
He was quiet for a beat and I realized he wasn’t with me anymore, that he was somewhere else, up in the sky.
“It’s the ultimate rush. Everything fades away when I’m in the jet. For an hour or so, my entire world narrows to this cockpit. In one moment, it feels like I have the world in the palm of my hand, and in the next, it’s fucking terrifying and I’m putting out fires to make sure I don’t crash. For sixty-plus minutes, I’m consumed with getting my ass on the ground in one piece. It’s both heady and humbling. Best job in the world.”
I leaned into him, pressing my lips to his, giving him all the feelings crashing through me like a wave carrying me away. Then and there, I knew, whatever happened between us, wherever this headed, I would always share a piece of him with this jet.
I understood, or thought I did, at least, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t a little scary, too.
NOAH
I exited the airspace in a four-ship formation, descending, my eyes on the Strip as I approached the runway, the big hotels gleaming in the Vegas morning sun. I hit a visual approach to initial, five miles from the runway, my jet two thousand feet above the ground.
Almost home. Almost back to Jordan, who I’d left curled up in my hotel room bed, her body calling me back as I’d headed to work long before the sun came up.
I keyed the mic and checked in with the tower, looking out the left side of the jet, the runway beneath me. Almost there. I executed a left-hand bank turn, slowing the jet, the gears coming down like clockwork. I looked over my left shoulder, made the radio call, waiting for the tower’s clearance to land, and then I began descending in the turn, slowing my airspeed. I slipped the power back to idle and I flared it off, wheels touching the ground, bringing the nose of the jet down.
I put on the speed breaks to slow the F-16 to a taxiing speed, exiting at the end of the runway, the motions I went through each time I flew nearly as familiar as breathing.
I taxied in to de-arm the jet, maintenance doing a quick check of the systems to make sure it was good to taxi back. I called the ops desk, notifying them of my status, and then I taxied the F-16 until I hit the parking spot and put it in park. I flipped the canopy switch, the canopy rising as I shut down the jet, going through the motions that were rote.
I began unhooking hoses, my com cord. I released my harness, then my lap belt, followed by my seat kit and G-suit. Each movement was a little faster than normal, still methodical but definitely spurred on by my desire to get back to the room. Grabbing my helmet bag from behind the seat, I disconnected the cord from my oxygen mask and removed my helmet, the dry Vegas air hitting my face. I picked up my gear, handing it off to my crew chief, then stuffed my classified materials in my G-suit pocket.
Almost home.
I stood in the cockpit, swinging myself to the canopy rail to avoid standing on the seat. I climbed down the ladder, unhooking my harness, letting the boys breathe, doing my postflight walk-around, running my hands on my jet, stroking the metal. I finished everything up, an edgy energy filling me as I went back to the squadron and rushed through the debrief, struggling to concentrate with the knowledge of what awaited me on the other side.
I went home to the girl waiting for me in bed.
JORDAN
I heard the sound of the key card sliding into the electronic lock, my heart pounding with anticipation.
Noah had to wake up early this morning so we’d gone to bed at 10 p.m. last night. Well, he’d gone to bed. I’d lain awake, a million thoughts running through my mind on loop, struggling to get it together, to figure out how I was going to get on a plane and fly back to Florida leaving all this behind me.
Yeah, I still didn’t have an answer to that one.
I had to get back. My partner, Sophia, was working the store and watching my dog, Lulu, but it was only a temporary arrangement. It wasn’t like I could duck out on my responsibilities. Even if I wanted to.
I’d spent the morning packing, waiting for Noah to come back from his flight before I headed to the airport, and now he was here, and holy hell, I was not prepared for the sight in front of me.
I’d been asleep when he’d gone to work in the morning, so I’d missed the opportunity to see him in a flight suit. Now that I’d made up for that and experienced him in his full glory, I knew it was an image I’d likely never forget.
Noah opened his mouth to speak, staring at me kneeling on the bed, and I held up a hand in the air, cutting him off.
“I’m gonna need you to just stand there for a moment.”
He cocked his head to the side, a gleam entering his gaze.
“You know how guys get off on pictures of topless girls with their legs spread and like a cherry hanging from their mouth?”
His eyes went dark, a delicious tension filling the air around us as he nodded slowly.
“This is my version of a Playboy magazine and you’re basically Miss February.”
Noah’s lips curved. I wasn’t kidding.
I came up on my knees, crawling to the edge of the bed, sinking back on my heels, his body close enough that I could reach out and touch it if I wanted to. Which I didn’t. Not yet, at least. Right now I wanted to burn this image into my brain.
He wore a green flight suit covered in patches and Velcro and all kinds of interesting zippers and pockets that hugged his tall frame in all the right places, his legs seeming longer, his shoulders broader. His sleeves were rolled up to expose tanned, muscular forearms, his wrist adorned with the watch I had previously thought capable of conducting missions to the moon, and now knowing what he did for a living, probably wasn’t that far off.
His feet were covered in rugged green boots, a blue hat in his hand, which I figured was another part of his ensemble. His flight suit was unzipped a bit, exposing a khaki-colored T-shirt underneath, the zipper that ran down the entire front of his flight suit, from neck to crotch, a temptation I couldn’t ignore.
His eyes locked on to me like he was devouring me, even as he stood as I’d asked him, his lips firm, his jaw tight, his hair just a bit messy.
I rose up on my knees, crooking a finger at him, beckoning him closer, my nipples already pebbling with the promise of what was to come.
Noah stalked toward the bed, his gaze intent on me dressed in his T-shirt, which I’d slept in the night before. He stopped so close that our bodies touched and I swayed a bit toward him, unsteady on my knees as I reached out and stroked the patch on his shoulder, a gold leaf-looking object.
“What’s that?”
“Major rank.”
I trailed my hand down to his chest, tracing the stitching on the patch with his name, Noah Miller, and his call sign, Burn. I moved over to his shoulder, to the patch with the lettering that said “Aces Wild” and had a picture of an F-16 on it.
“And this one?”
“Squadron patch. Our squadron is the Wild Aces.”
I touched the patch on his other shoulder, reading the words there.
“This one?”
“It says that I graduated weapons school.” He grinned. “And yes, as much as it pains me to admit it, it is kind of like the Air Force’s version of Top Gun.”
My eyes gleamed. “So you’re kind of a badass.”
His hand reached out, skimming under the hem of the T-shirt, palming my ass, squeezing, molding me against his cock.
A hiss escaped my mouth.
He quirked a brow at me. “If I said yes, would it help me get laid?”
I gave him a teasing smile, my eyes smoldering. I leaned in closer, my lips grazing his ear, my words a whisper.
“You were always going to get laid. The flight suit, and the patches, and your general badassness just mean that later on, when I’m by myself, turned on and needing relief, it’s going to be your face I see when I have my hand between my legs.”
He groaned, his grip on me tightening, and then the next thing I knew, my back hit the mattress and six feet, two inches of aroused fighter pilot mounted me and took the fantasy to a whole other level.
He still smelled like Noah, but there was another scent there, too—a combination of gasoline, sweat, and metal that was sexy as hell. His flight suit felt scratchy against my skin, my fingers fumbling for the zipper between us, tugging it down until I had a hand in his boxers, stroking him, and he groaned again, burying his face in my neck.
There was something different in the way he kissed me this time, how his hands pulled my hair, and he nearly ripped the shirt off me. It was in me, spurring me on as my heels dug into his back, as I gripped the open sides of his flight suit, hauling him toward me so I could feast on his mouth. My fingernails scraped at his skin, my hips seeking his, every part of my body desperate to collide with him.
There was no foreplay here, no laughter, no sweetness.
There was desperation.
Need and want sharpened to a knifepoint that stabbed me over and over again until I ached.
I wasn’t ready to walk away from this, wasn’t ready to let go. And yet, somehow, I had to get on a plane and leave all of this—him—behind.
Zippers and Velcro dug into my skin, and I craved the bite, wanted the marks to last on my skin. Wanted to remember every single second of this when I feared it would soon all feel like a dream.
Noah reared back, leaving me spread open on the bed, chest panting, skin flushed, mouth swollen. He grabbed a condom, sliding it on, his flight suit unzipped, boxers open, gah.
He pulled me to the edge of the bed, his fingers stroking my clit, dipping into the wetness there, and then he replaced his touch with his cock as he thrust into me, hard, his hands coming to rest on either side of my hips, holding me in place as he began fucking me in earnest.
I came undone.
There was nothing to do but hold on for the ride, nothing to do but get swept up in Noah. When I came, I came hard, my arms and legs wrapped around him like I never wanted to let go.
NOAH
I stood outside the base hotel, Jordan’s bags on the ground next to us, taxi waiting, staring down at her face, our bodies entwined, my feet lead, every instinct screaming at me not to let go.
I felt raw inside after the sex we’d had, although “sex” seemed too tame a word for it. I felt scraped, and scratched, and hollowed out. Like I’d gone a round with the centrifuge and lost.
I ran a finger down her jaw, tracing her face, ending at her mouth, my thumb brushing back and forth against her fuck-me lips.
“When can I see you again?”
I wasn’t fucking around. Not after everything, and definitely not after what had just happened between us in bed.
Her lips curved against my fingers.
“When do you want to see me again?” she asked.
“What are you doing this weekend?”
A beat of silence passed and then her smile widened.
“You?”
Relief flooded me. God, I adored this girl.
“Unfortunately, I can’t get leave with such short notice, but if I bought you a plane ticket, could you come out to Oklahoma? For the weekend?”
She hesitated for a second. “The store’s open, but between Sophia and the staff, we could probably cover it.”
“So you’ll come?”
She nodded, her gaze on me. “I’ll come.”
Yes.
I captured her mouth, putting everything I had into the kiss, giving her the kind of good-bye that I hoped would keep the memory of us alive until I could see her again. When I couldn’t stall any longer, I pulled back, unable to resist the urge to stroke her hair.
“I’m sorry I can’t see you off at the airport. Stupid meeting.”
She smiled. “It’s cool. You more than made up for it with the send-off you gave me.”
“Let me know you landed safely, okay?” I murmured against her mouth. “I’ll call you tonight.”
Jordan leaned up, pressing a soft kiss to my cheek, her lips cool against my skin.
“I will. Be safe, Noah. I’ll see you Friday.”
I squeezed her hand and then released her fingers, watching as she got into the cab, as the door shut behind her. I stood there as the cab drove away, farther and farther, until it was nothing but a speck on the landscape.
And then it was gone and the knot in my chest grew, until I reminded myself that even though this felt like good-bye, it was something else entirely. It was the beginning.
Just four days and then I’d have her back again.