81. Sweet Dreams

Others aren’t having this sort of life, so why are you?

Did God choose this for you? This path, this destination, this fate?

Did He pinpoint this place on the map to lead you to? To suffer and to shiver? To wonder deep in the night like now, listening to headphones and wondering why?

Will you break down and need Kinner to come and save you?

Will you unleash the gate under the bridge and let Aunt Alice roam with the wolves, or find yourself imprisoned in some little cell below?

Will the demon dog delight in your demise, or will Marsh take one too many trips to the falls?

Will this all feel like some brilliant, bewildering dream that you’ll wake up from ten years later in Chicago?

The questions have answers, but they won’t come now or tomorrow or maybe even the next day.

You want to believe God is in control, but if He is, then why? Why?

And why you?

Maybe some don’t get the sweet dreams after all. Maybe for some those are just in the pages of a story they read. Then they go to sleep and the nightmares come. And when they wake up, the nightmares are still there.