My Brother Esau1

My brother Esau killed a hunter

Back in 19692

And before the killing was done

His inheritance was mine

But his birthright was a wand to wave

Before a weary band

Esau gave me sleeplessness

And a piece of moral land

My father favored Esau

Who was eager to obey

All the bloody wild commandments

The Old Man shot his way

But all this favor ended

When my brother failed at war

He staggered home

And found me in the door

Esau skates on mirrors anymore . . .

He meets his pale reflection at the door

Yet sometimes at night I dream

He’s still that hairy man

Shadowboxing the Apocalypse

And wandering the land

Shadowboxing the Apocalypse

And wandering the land

Esau holds a blessing

Brother Esau bears a curse

I would say that the blame is mine

But I suspect it’s something worse

The more my brother looks like me

The less I understand

The silent war that bloodied both our hands

Sometimes at night, I think I understand

It’s brother to brother and it’s man to man

And it’s face to face and it’s hand to hand . . .

We shadowdance the silent war within

The shadowdance, it never ends . . .

Never ends, never ends

Shadowboxing the Apocalypse, yet again . . .

Yet again

Shadowboxing the Apocalypse

And wandering the land

Words by John Barlow

Music by Bob Weir

1 Esau

The Biblical character Esau is told of in Genesis 25, 27, and 33. He was, according to The Anchor Bible Dictionary:

Isaac and Rebecca’s firstborn son, and Jacob’s older twin. In the OT, he is described both as an individual person who represents a specific lifestyle (the hunter) and as the eponymous ancestor of a people (Edomites or Idumeans).

The entry continues:

The contrast between the twins is already anticipated before their birth in God’s proclamation that the older brother will serve the younger. . . . The older son is his father’s favorite while the younger is favored by his mother. . . . The younger brother bargained for the older brother’s birthright . . . and deceitfully obtained the firstborn’s blessing from Isaac. . . . Jacob fled to Harran to escape Esau’s vengeance. . . . After Jacob’s return, the brothers reconciled and settled in different regions. 21

2 Killed a hunter / Back in 1969

Possibly a reference to Altamont, where the man knifed by the Hell’s Angels was Meredith Hunter.

Notes:

Written in Cora, Wyoming, August through December 1982.

First performance: March 25, 1983, at Compton Terrace Amphitheater, Tempe, Arizona. It remained fairly steadily in the repertoire through October 1987.