Childhood’s End

When I was hoppin’ freights and makin’ payments on the farm1, 2

Here between the angels and the deep blue sea3

You were runnin’, laughin’, growin’ sheltered from the storm4

Dreamin’ of the day the moon would set you free

Yeah, to sing your siren song so sweet and warm

River run deep

River run slow

Get a little restless

Wanna see some whales blow

River run cold5

River run clear

That feeling always gets to me

’Round about this time of year

Scoutin’ unknown borders under multi-colored moons

In the wildest flights of cosmic mystery

Rang a single soarin’ tone that strung the sky in tune

As the silence in my heart rose from the sea

Aaah, to greet you in the dawn with a pale harpoon

River run restless

River run high

Runnin’ thru a hailstorm

Try to catch a star on the fly

River run muddy

River flow like tears

Cocoon of life surroundin’ us

Holdin’ all our hopes and fears

Reach behind the wind

Search beyond the stars

We’re the life on Mars

When the day grows dark and scary scatterin’ the light

All the colors run away and hide behind your knees

The same sweet thunder tumbles rollin’ down the night

Like a mothership that calls for you and me

Come on, and drift along that sky river bright

River run swiftly

River run wide

Feel like sailin’

On the morning tide

River run golden

River run true

Set a course and follow

Ooooh, the star that leads to you

Words and music by Phil Lesh

1 hoppin’ freights

This led to one of Phil’s greatest early adventures: hitchhiking to Calgary, Alberta, Canada to work in the oil fields. He only made it as far as Spokane before learning that the job in Alberta didn’t exist. So he rode in a boxcar from Spokane to Seattle—thirty-six hours—and borrowed money from some friends of his parents to take a Greyhound back to the Bay Area: “My parents picked me up, and boy, did I catch shit then! They made me get a job in a bank and I worked there just long enough for school to be starting again in San Mateo.” (Jackson and Gans, unpublished material for Garcia: An American Life90

2 makin’ payments on the farm

The phrase “bought the farm” is slang for dying suddenly. Its origin is undetermined, though there are a number of theories floating around, including the idea that a soldier killed in combat will bring enough of a death benefit to his family back home that they can finally purchase the farm.

3 between the angels and the deep blue sea

A new take on the old expression “between the devil and the deep blue sea,” which carries the meaning, roughly, of “between a rock and a hard place.”

The first recorded use of the expression, according to The Oxford Dictionary of English Proverbs (3rd ed.), was in Bartholemew Robinson’s 1621 work Adagia in Latine and English: “Betwixt the Deuill and the dead sea.” This version of the saying was modified over the years into the familiar expression.

Perhaps the best-known use of the phrase in popular song is in Gram Parsons’ “Return of the Grievous Angel” (1974):

And I saw my devil,

And I saw my deep blue sea

4 sheltered from the storm

Compare the Bob Dylan song “Shelter from the Storm.”

5 River run

Reminiscent of the first line of James Joyce’s Finnegans Wake:

riverrun, past Eve and Adam’s, from swerve of shore to bend of bay, brings us by a commodius vicus of recirculation back to Howth Castle and Environs.

Notes:

No official recordings.

First performance: July 20, 1994, at Deer Creek Music Center in Noblesville, Indiana.

The song’s title is reminiscent of the 1953 Arthur C. Clarke novel, though Lesh stated, “It has nothing to do with that.” It was also the title of a song by Pink Floyd, recorded on their soundtrack album for the 1972 film La Vallée, released as Obscured by Clouds.