Tricia walked into Gus’s house with a determined stride. It had been years since she’d asked her grandfather about her parents, and his answer had always been “Let sleeping dogs lie.”
Well, she was ready to wake up the dogs and didn’t care whether they barked, snarled or bit. She was thirty-two years old—old enough to accept the truth no matter how shocking or painful.
“Grandpa,” she called out as she walked through the living room. Bright sunlight coming through the windows revealed a light layer of dust on the coffee table. She made a mental note to come by later to dust and vacuum. It had been her grandmother who had kept the house immaculate.
Gus wasn’t there even though his truck was parked in its usual spot. Shrugging a shoulder, Tricia showered and dressed. Jeremy was scheduled to see a psychiatrist later in the afternoon. She lingered long enough to tape a note on the refrigerator for Gus to call her at Jeremy’s house. They had to arrange a time to sit down and talk.
Tricia sat in the doctor’s waiting room, flipping through magazines as she waited for Jeremy. She glanced surreptitiously over the magazine at a woman who had tried unsuccessfully to calm her young son. He talked incessantly while fidgeting. The boy ignored his mother, sliding off his chair and onto the floor. His motions mimicked making a snow angel. There was no doubt the child was there to be evaluated for ADHD: attention deficit hyper-activity disorder. She smiled at the boy as he got up and approached her. His dark eyes gleamed and he returned Tricia’s smile.
She was surprised when he sat down next to her, and she surmised he was either four or five. Reaching for one of the books stacked on a nearby table, he handed it to her.
“Read,” he ordered in a manner that said he was used to being obeyed.
The book was Dr. Seuss’s Green Eggs and Ham. She opened to the first page and began reading. The little boy sat quietly, listening to her soft voice as she read the entire book. She closed it, glanced up and saw Jeremy leaning on his crutches. He stared at her with a strange expression on his face.
Handing the book back to the child, she smiled. “I have to go now.”
The boy pointed at Jeremy. “Is he your father?”
Tricia laughed. Jeremy certainly did not look old enough to be her father. “No, he isn’t.”
“What is he?”
She took a quick glance at Jeremy, who’d raised his eyebrows in a questioning gesture. “He’s my—”
“I’m her boyfriend,” Jeremy said. Taking in her annoyed expression, he smiled for the first time since he’d entered the medical building. Tricia seemed so at ease with the child. There was no doubt she was a wonderful pediatric nurse and probably would have been an excellent pediatrician.
His smile faded. His session with the psychiatrist had not gone well. The doctor had asked him questions he could not and did not want to answer. Jeremy was certain that a copy of the doctor’s evaluation of his condition would be faxed to Special Operations in Washington, D.C., and placed in his personnel file.
Tricia stood up and walked over to him. “Are you ready?”
He did not move. “Am I, Tricia?” he asked softly.
“Are you what?”
“Your boyfriend?”
“Definitely not. You’re my patient,” she answered.
Jeremy stiffened as if Tricia had struck him, and a shadow of annoyance crossed his face seconds before he walked to the door. He paused as she held the door open for him, then he made his way down a ramp to where she had parked her car.
Waiting until she was seated behind the wheel, he turned and glared at her. “What am I to you, Tricia?”
Taken aback by the question, she stared at him with wide eyes. “Let it go, Jeremy.”
“I don’t want to let it go,” he countered, his voice rising slightly.
“If you’re looking to argue with me, then you’re out of luck today.”
Jeremy refused to relent. He had to know where he stood with her. “I don’t intend to argue, Tricia. Just answer the question.”
There was one thing she knew and remembered about Jeremy and that was his stubborn streak. Once he believed in something, no one could get him to change his mind. He’d believed Russell Smith’s lie about them sleeping together and in the end it had cost them a future together.
“You’re someone I grew up with and slept with, someone to whom I gave my heart and innocence, someone I fell in love with, someone who did not trust me enough to believe I’d be faithful. And I am someone who on August fifteenth will get into my car and drive back to Baltimore and the life I’ve made for myself.” She took a deep breath. “Does that answer your question, Jeremy?”
A lethal calmness shimmered in the dark-gray eyes that held her gaze. “Yes, Tricia, it does.”
The ride back to the farm was accomplished in complete silence. Tricia hadn’t turned on the radio and with each passing mile the silence swelled until it was deafening.
She didn’t know what Jeremy wanted from her. He’d asked her to forgive him, and she had. They’d reconciled, made love and chances were they would continue to sleep together up until the time her vacation ended. Jeremy said he wouldn’t pressure her to stay, but he also hadn’t offered her anything that would give her a reason to stay.
She drove through the electronic gate and maneuvered onto the road where several Thoroughbreds grazed behind a fence. Slowing, she came to a complete stop. Her gaze was glued to a small figure sitting astride a magnificent black horse racing around the winding, muddy track. Three men stood outside the fence screaming at the top of their lungs, while a fourth sat on the top rail, holding a stopwatch. Tricia’s breath caught in her throat.
“Oh—” Jeremy swallowed an expletive as he watched jockey and horse become one as they appeared to fly over the track. His heart was pounding in his chest by the time horse and rider crossed the finish line. A loud roar rent the air. The jockey jumped off and pumped a gloved fist in the air.
Tricia stared numbly as the jockey took off his headgear and a tumble of dark hair floated around his shoulders. It wasn’t until he turned that she realized he was a she.
She turned and stared at Jeremy, the pulse in her throat fluttering wildly. This is what she’d missed about Blackstone Farms: the excitement of prerace activity.
“Who is she?”
“Her name is Cheryl Carney, also known as Blackstone Farms’s secret weapon. She’s Kevin Manning’s niece. Pop claims she’s a horse whisperer and that she and Shah Jahan can communicate telepathically.” Kevin Manning had taken over as head trainer after Russell Smith’s father moved his family to the West Coast.
“Has Jahan raced competitively yet?” Tricia asked when she recalled the celebration following the ebony colt’s birth.
“Not yet. Pop wants to wait until he’s two. He’s still too skittish to compete because whenever he’s on the track with another horse he has to wear blinkers.”
“There’s no doubt he’s destined for greatness.”
Jeremy nodded. “Ryan predicts that if he stays healthy, then he’ll become the farm’s first potential Triple Crown winner.”
Tricia raised her eyebrows. “He’s that good?”
“With Cheryl riding him there’s no doubt he’ll become a winner.” You and I were that good, he added silently.
Tricia shifted into gear and drove past the stables. She never realized how much she missed the horse farm until she returned. The smell of horseflesh, hay and fields of heather and lavender growing in the undeveloped north end of the property were like an aphrodisiac. She visited on average twice a year: summer and winter. This was the first time she had decided to spend an entire month.
She drove past the schoolhouse made up of four connecting buildings. She thought about Jeremy’s offer to become a school nurse and quickly dismissed it. It wasn’t that being a school nurse would be unrewarding. It was just that she enjoyed working with the four pediatricians who had set up one of the largest practices in downtown Baltimore.
“Do you miss the farm, Tricia?”
Jeremy had read her mind. “Yes, I do,” she answered truthfully.
“What do you miss most?”
She gave him a quick glance. “The people. They’re like my extended family. I may have been an only child, but I fought and argued with the other kids as if we were brothers and sisters.”
Jeremy nodded, smiling. He had become known as the Blackstone brawler. At that time it was not in his psychological makeup to walk away from a fight, and the number of encounters escalated after his mother’s death. He’d been filled with rage because Julia had chosen to hide her illness from everyone until it was too late for her to seek medical treatment.
Resting his left arm over the back of Tricia’s seat, his fingers feathered through the soft curls on the nape of her neck.
“Could you please drop me off at Ryan’s?”
She made a right turn and less than a minute later she maneuvered into the driveway to Ryan and Kelly’s home. Tricia parked, got out of the car and handed Jeremy his crutches.
“Aren’t you coming in?” he asked as she turned to get back into the vehicle.
She shook her head. “No.”
Jeremy studied her thoughtfully. “Don’t you want to see the baby?”
Tricia forced a smile she did not feel. “I’ll see her another time.” Interacting with newborns was something she did often, but it would be different with Vivienne. She was a Blackstone, Sheldon’s granddaughter, just like Juliet, and the image of Juliet’s tiny lifeless body was still imprinted on her mind. Even after so many years, that image was still painful for Tricia to bear.
She wondered if she would be able to cradle Vivienne and successfully hold back tears and not relive the joy of becoming a mother and the pain of burying a part of herself. And she knew the answer before she had formed the question—no, not yet.
“I have to talk to my grandfather about something.” Tricia glanced at her watch. “I’ll come back at six to pick you up for dinner.”
“Where would you like to eat tonight?”
“The dining hall,” she said quickly.
Jeremy’s dark eyebrows slanted in a frown. He did not want to eat at the farm. He wanted a repeat of what he and Tricia had had the night before.
“We can eat at the dining hall tomorrow night.” There was a thread of hardness in his statement.
“You asked me where I wanted to eat and I said the dining hall,” Tricia retorted.
He refused to relent. “Perhaps I should’ve said that we are eating out tonight.”
Tricia reacted quickly to the challenge in his voice. “Perhaps not, Jeremy.” She gave him a hostile glare. “Let me remind you that I don’t work for you. Your father asked me to help you. He asked, not demanded, Jeremy. If you want me to do something, then I suggest you ask politely.”
Not giving him the opportunity for a comeback, Tricia got into the car and drove away. She glanced into the rearview mirror and found him leaning on his crutches. His image stayed with her even after she’d walked into Gus’s house and found him sitting in his favorite chair, dozing.
Why didn’t I wait until he got into the house? What if he had fallen trying to make it up the porch steps?
Concern for Jeremy continued to haunt her until she shook Gus gently to wake him. Gus’s eyes opened and he seemed surprised to see her.
“Grandpa, you shouldn’t sleep sitting up. It’s not good for your circulation.”
Gus affected a slow smile. “Don’t worry yourself about me, baby girl. Since I stopped salting my food, my ankles don’t swell up like they used to.”
Tricia held out a hand. “Come sit with me on the love seat. I want to talk to you about something.”
“I saw your note.”
“Did you call me?”
Shaking his head slowly, Gus said, “No, because I know what it is you want to talk about.”
“I need answers.”
“Let it go, Tricia.”
“I can’t, Grandpa. I’m not a little girl. I’m a grown woman. I have a right to know something about my mother and my father.”
Gus closed his eyes. “Let sleeping dogs lie, Tricia.”
“I can’t and I won’t!”
He opened his eyes and stared up at her, and it was then Tricia realized she had yelled at her grandfather. A strange expression crossed his face seconds before he placed a gnarled hand over his chest and slumped forward, his chin resting on his chest.
Tricia was galvanized into action. She caught Gus’s wrist, measuring his pulse. It was slow, weak.
Somehow she managed to get him off the chair and onto the floor and began cardiopulmonary resuscitation. Each time she compressed his chest, she prayed, Please don’t let him die.
Ryan opened the door for Jeremy. His expression registered shock seeing his brother standing on his porch—alone. “How did you get here?”
“Tricia drove me.”
Peering around Jeremy’s shoulder, Ryan asked, “Where is she?”
“She went to see her grandfather. Are you going to let me in, or are you going to wait for me to fall?”
Ryan, deciding to ignore Jeremy’s acerbic tone, took a step backward and opened the door wider. “Please enter, sir prince.”
Jeremy rolled his eyes at his older brother and made his way slowly into the living room. He sat down on a deep club chair, placed his crutches on the floor and raised his left leg onto a footstool.
Ryan sat in a facing armchair and ran a hand over his close-cropped hair. “If you’ve come to see Kelly and the baby, you’re out of luck because they’re napping. However, if you’ve come to bitch and moan, then I’m all ears.”
Jeremy frowned. “Who’s bitching and moaning?”
“Pop.”
“What’s up with him?”
Ryan hesitated, then said, “You are.”
Jeremy groaned softly. “What now?”
“He’s going to sell the farm.”
“Sell or he’s threatening to sell?”
Ryan’s expression was a mask of stone. “Sell, Jeremy!”
“Pop is being manipulative.”
“Wrong. Pop is being Pop. I told you last year that he’s tired.”
Jeremy frowned in cold fury. “I know what brought on his tirade.” He revealed to Ryan what he and Sheldon had talked about after he and Tricia returned from spending the night at the bed-and-breakfast.”
A slow smile formed on Ryan’s lips. “You and Tricia Parker?”
Jeremy smiled in spite of himself and nodded. “Yeah.”
“Damn, brother, you sure had me fooled. I thought you and Tricia were just good friends.”
“We started out as friends, but the year we turned eighteen something happened.”
“Was that little something called love?”
Before Jeremy could answer Ryan’s query, the telephone rang. Reaching for the phone on a nearby table, Ryan spoke softly into the mouthpiece. His expression changed as he stood up. “Stay with him, Tricia. I’ll be right there as soon as I call the hospital. No, don’t try to move him.” He depressed a button, then two others. The speed dial connected him to the local hospital.
Jeremy reached down for his crutches and was on his feet the moment he heard his brother mention “possible heart attack,” and Augustus Parker’s name.
“I’m coming with you,” he said.
“Try to keep up,” Ryan said over his shoulder as he raced out of the house.