I am one sorry son of a bitch, Quint McCoy thought. A complete, total fuckup. He didn’t have a clue how to rectify the wrong he’d done. It had taken thirty days fishing in the wilds of Alaska, starting in Ketchikan, then deeper inland to the Unuk River, to bring him to his senses. To make him realize he couldn’t run from the pain of losing his dad, or from the grief, or the guilt. He couldn’t shove it all away. Or cut it out. It would always be inside him, wherever he was—as much a part of him as his black hair and his blue eyes.
Now that he was back in Montana, in the empty house he’d shared with Callee for two short years, he faced another raw truth. He’d bulldozed his life. Leveled every good thing about it. Nothing left for him but to move on and recoup. Somehow.
He grazed the electric razor over the last of the month-old beard, leaving his preferred rough skiff of whiskers on his chin, and slapped on cologne. After four weeks in a small cabin with three other guys, he appreciated the scent of a civilized male. He took note of new lines carved at his mouth and the corners of his eyes, lines that bespoke his misery. Losing your dad, and then your wife, will do that to you.
He wasn’t proud of the man in the mirror. He didn’t know if he ever would be again. He’d trashed his marriage to the only woman he’d ever loved, or probably ever would love. Treated her like the enemy. And worse. Her mother died when she was seven, leaving her to be raised by a taciturn grandmother. She’d grown up feeling unwanted and unloved. He’d made her feel that way all over again. He hated himself for that. If Callee never spoke to him again, he wouldn’t blame her.
But then, he wasn’t likely to have a chance to speak to her. She’d left his sorry ass, let their lawyers hash out the equitable property settlement, and moved to Seattle right after he told her to divorce him. It took twenty-one days for the paperwork to go through the legal system. By now, he was a free man. And he didn’t like it one damned bit.
Quint glanced at the mirror once more, expecting to see Dumb Shit stamped on his forehead, but only noticed that he needed a haircut. He pulled on dark-wash jeans, a crisp blue dress shirt and tie, and his favorite Dan Post boots. His dirty clothes went into the duffle on the floor. A scan of the bathroom showed nothing was left behind. He swiped his towel over the sink and counter and stuffed it on top of his laundry, then a second quick perusal, and a nod of satisfaction. Nothing forgotten.
He plunked the tan Stetson onto his still-damp hair and grabbed the duffle. His boot heels thudded on the hardwood floors, echoing through the empty split-level as he strode the hallway, and then down the stairs to the front door.
As he reached the door, his cell phone rang. He snapped it up and looked at the readout. A fellow real estate agent, Dave Vernon. “Hey, Dave.”
“Quint. Well, hang me for a hog. ’Bout time you answered your phone. You still in the land of igloos and Eskimos?”
“I wasn’t that far north, Dave. But, no, I’m in town.”
“Well, now, that is good news. Glad to hear it. How was the fishing?”
“Okay.” If the trip had been about the fish, then the fishing was actually great, but it hadn’t been about salmon twice as long as his arm. It had been about his inability to deal with the loss of his dad. His inability to stop setting fire to every aspect of his life.
“You still want me to sell your house?”
“That I do.”
“Well, as you know, I had it sold…until you decided to skip town. The buyers got tired of waiting for you to return and bought something else.”
“I’m sorry, Dave.” Although Dave didn’t convey it, Quint imagined he was pissed. Quint had cost him a sale. He’d been as irresponsible as a drunken teenager—without the excuse of adolescence. “I’m leaving the house now.”
“All the furniture was moved out while you were gone.”
“Yeah, I found the note about the storage unit and the key on the kitchen counter.” He’d had to crash on the floor in his sleeping bag. “I just picked up the last of my personal items.”
“Well, okay, that’s good, actually.” Relief ran through Dave’s words. “I can put this back into the system immediately if you’ll swing by and renew the listing agreement.”
“Sure. I have to stop at the office first.” Quint stepped outside into the overcast day. The end-of-May gloom suited his mood. “Give me an hour or so, and I’ll head your way.”
“I’m counting on it.”
“See you around eleven.” Quint stuffed the duffle into the back of his Cadillac SUV and gave the house one last glance before climbing behind the wheel and backing out of the driveway. The development was small, full of similar homes stuffed between Siberian larch and Scotch pine, the kind of place where newlyweds started their futures. Started their families. Like he and Callee had hoped to do when they’d moved here.
A heaviness as dense as the cloud cover settled on his heart. He kept his eyes on the road ahead and didn’t look back. He didn’t need to see the regrets in his rearview mirror; they were etched in his brain. As he drove north toward town on I-93, the vista vast in all directions, he wondered how it could all look so familiar, so unchanged, when he felt so altered.
But something about the crisp Montana air and the wide-open spaces gave him heart. In contrast, the wilds of Alaska—with giant trees pressing toward the river’s edge and just a patch of sky overhead—had made him look inward, at acceptance. Here, he could look outward, at possibilities.
Like what, if anything, he might do to salvage his business, McCoy Realty. He knew he’d be lucky if he ever got another listing in this town, but by God, he meant to try. It had taken him three years to build his reputation and clientele list into one of the best in Flathead County, and three months to destroy it. He’d gone from Realtor of the Year two years running to a pariah. The only reason the office was still open was because he owned the building.
And his office manager, Andrea Lovette, hadn’t given up on him. Although he’d given her enough reason. Was she at the office yet this morning? He dialed the number, but the female voice that came on the line was electronic. “I’m sorry, the number you are trying to reach is no longer in service.”
Huh? Had he misdialed? Or had the phones been disconnected? He sighed. One step at a time. Instead of hitting redial, he pulled to the side of the road beneath a billboard and punched in the office number again. Slower this time. The response was the same. He disconnected. One more grizzly to kill.
He tried Andrea’s cell phone. The call went straight to voice mail. As he waited to leave a message, his gaze roamed to the billboard. A gigantic image of his own face smiled down at him. An image taken a month before his dad died. Happy times, he’d thought then, not realizing he was already on the track to losing it all. Overworking, ignoring his wife, his mama. His dad. He shook his head. At least this was proof his business on Center Street still existed, sorry as it was. Right across from the Kalispell Center Mall. Location, location, location. If nothing else, he had that in spades. He supposed it was one positive to hang on to today.
He pulled back into traffic. He needed to confer with Andrea and figure out what steps to take to get the business back on its feet. Starting with getting the phone service reconnected. He called her cell phone again and left another message. Nothing would be easy. He didn’t deserve easy.
“Quint, my boy, there isn’t a problem so big a man can’t solve it with a piece of your mama’s sweet cherry pie in one hand and a fishing rod in the other.”
Fishing wouldn’t solve what ailed him, but a piece of his mama’s sweet cherry pie might take the edge off this morning. The thought made his mouth water, but pie for breakfast? Aw, hell, why not? His spirits could use a lift.
His phone rang. He didn’t recognize the number. Business as usual for a Realtor. “Quint McCoy.”
“Quint,” his mother said, warming his heart and his mood. She’d had that effect on him for as far back as he could remember.
“Mama, I was just thinking about you.” He’d missed hearing her voice. “How’s my best girl? I’m hoping she’ll take pity on her poor, homeless son. Maybe do my laundry? I just left the house for the last time, and I’m feeling lower than a rattler’s belly. I have some business that can’t wait, but—”
“Uh, that’s why I’m calling.”
“How about I pick you up for lunch and you can tell me how the pie shop is coming?” She was remodeling the half of his building that he wasn’t using into a take-out pie shop. It was set to open later that month. The plans he’d seen before leaving for Alaska included a kitchen in back and a display case and counter in front. Small and compact—like his mama. He smiled. “Yeah, that’s what I’ll do. I’ll see you around one, then after lunch, you can give me a tour of your little shop—”
Call-waiting beeped. “Quint, will…please…I—”
He glanced at the phone’s screen. A client. Thank God for small blessings. “Mama, I have to run. Say, you haven’t seen Andrea, have you? She’s not answering her cell phone, and I’m hoping to get together with her today. See what we can do to salvage my realty business.”
“Well…as—” Call-waiting beeped.
“Look, I gotta take this call, Mama.”
“Quint, about Andr—” Call-waiting cut off his mother’s words again.
“See you at one,” he said, and switched to the incoming call, realizing as he did that some small part of him kept wishing every incoming call would be one from Callee.
* * *
Callee McCoy pulled the small U-Haul truck into the parking spot at the Kalispell Center Mall, cut the engine, and listened to the motor tick-tick as it cooled. One more thing to do. Her hands gripped the steering wheel as though the vehicle careened downhill at uncontrollable speed and an ensuing crash could only be prevented if she hung on tight enough. But the crash had already occurred, rendering her marriage a pile of bent metal and smoking ash, rendering her shell-shocked at the velocity with which the devastation struck.
She felt as someone might who’d been hit by lightning twice—surprised, certain she was immune to any second such occurrence, given the first had been so devastating. Callee thought nothing could ever hurt as much as when her mother died. She’d been wrong. Losing Jimmy McCoy, the only real father she’d ever known, had knocked the pins out from under her again. This time, however, everything should have been different. After all, she had Quint.
A bitter laugh spilled from her, and she gave herself a mental shake. It was all water under the bridge. She was moving on, sadder, but wiser, the Kalispell to-do list almost complete. After landing at Glacier Park International yesterday and renting this U-haul truck, she’d visited the storage unit she’d leased before leaving for Seattle and retrieved the belongings she’d negotiated in the equitable settlement part of the divorce. This morning, she’d met with her attorney, finally given him the go-ahead to file for the final decree, and signed the required paperwork. One loose thread left to tie, and then she was out of here. Montana would be a distant memory that she could look back on whenever she felt maudlin or needed a reminder of how good her new life was.
Live and learn, her mother used to say. Of course, she always said this after bundling Callee out into the night to somewhere her latest disaster of a romance couldn’t find them. According to her grandmother, her mother was a tramp. She’d pounded this into Callee’s head from the day she came to live with her, hoping, Callee supposed, to make sure that Callee didn’t turn out the same. But the mother Callee remembered was a free spirit, always laughing and hugging and promising adventures.
When she was old enough to understand such things, she realized her mother had been acting out, rebelling against a too-strict upbringing by running wild, by living fast and hard as though she knew somehow it would all end too soon. Callee was the end product of both upbringings, as emotionally unequipped for a long-term relationship as a mother who had no idea who’d fathered Callee, and a bitter, taciturn grandmother. As proof, the first punch life threw landed squarely on Callee’s chin and knocked her clean out of the ring.
The ring. She glanced at the third finger of her left hand, at the diamond and emerald ring that had belonged to Quint’s grandmother. The family heirloom had a fragile, antique beauty, the platinum band filigreed. As much as she adored it, she couldn’t keep it. She tugged it off, surprised at the sudden sense of disconnection it brought—as though she’d pulled something of herself loose. Silly. She should have removed it the moment Quint walked out on her.
But she hadn’t had the courage to let him go then. Not then. Had she the courage now? Or was shaking Quint McCoy loose from her heart going to be as painful as shaking Montana from her red Dingo boots?
Callee tucked the ring into her coin purse next to a business card, trying to ignore the naked-finger sensation, but knowing it was responsible for her thoughts rolling back to the first time she met Quint. She was in Seattle, about to start cooking school, when she’d received a call that her grandmother had had a severe stroke. Callee flew back to Kalispell immediately, and it soon became apparent that she’d have to sell the house to cover the cost of a nursing home.
Quint represented the buyers. He’d come to present the offer, and one exchanged glance tilted Callee’s world. Some might call it love at first sight.
A dinner date led to a kiss; a kiss led to an endless night of lovemaking. She lost her head, her heart, and everything she’d ever meant to be in that conflagration of sensuality. They were like a Johnny Cash/June Carter song—hotter than a pepper sprout, hotter than the flame on Cherries Jubilee, the sizzle and burn an irresistible blue blaze.
Just the memory of those erotic months could melt steel, but then the fire of excitement and sexual discovery calmed to a slow burn. She still craved Quint physically, sexually, but he was so intent on building his real estate business that he no longer had time for her. Somehow, she never got around to telling him that the classes she was about to start just before they met were at a cooking school. Callee feared he might laugh, given she could do little more in a kitchen than boil water. She’d never worked up the nerve to share her secret desire to become a chef or the secret fear that she was incapable of learning to cook.
But the adventurous part of her, which she’d inherited from her mother, was making her try. She’d re-enrolled in that same Seattle culinary college, and her first classes started next week. Here’s hoping the second time is the charm.
She reached for the truck’s door handle and hesitated. She had come to say the toughest good-bye of all…to Molly McCoy. Quint’s mother had treated her like the daughter she’d never had and been the closest thing to a real mother since Callie lost her own. Staving off tears, Callee jumped down from the cab into the gloomy day and felt a sudden shiver, like a portent of something dreadful. Probably just her mood. She zipped her jacket and locked the U-Haul.
Her phone vibrated in her pocket, a text from her best friend, Roxanne Nash. Roxy owned a Seattle waterfront bistro, and she’d opened her heart and her home when Callee arrived on her doorstep after leaving Quint. Roxy was always egging Callee on, making her try new things and face her phobia of learning how to cook.
Roxy wanted to know if everything was okay, if Callee was okay, and if she’d started the eleven-hour drive back to western Washington yet. She answered the text, then stepped to the curb at Center Street, her gaze skipping across the road to be caught by a new sign: Big Sky Pie. She knew Molly was renovating the largest part of Quint’s office building into a pie shop, but her brows rose at exactly how much of a renovation had occurred.
She smiled, thinking of the treat that awaited Flathead County residents. No one made pies better than Molly McCoy. But it was the example Quint’s mother was setting that filled Callee with pride and happiness. Molly had grieved the loss of Jimmy McCoy worse than anyone, yet she’d turned her sorrow into something positive and productive. Callee wanted that end result for herself.
She patted her purse to make sure the ring was still there and hastened across the street, admiring the exterior of the pie shop. Bay windows wore white awnings, and the exterior was painted a rich ruby red with white-and-tan trim and lettering, reminiscent of Molly’s specialty, sweet cherry pie made with fresh Bing cherries from the orchards around Flathead Lake. The color scheme was one Callee had suggested when Molly first mentioned she might open a pie shop one day. Callee felt honored that her mother-in-law had remembered and taken the suggestion to heart.
She pasted a smile on her face and tapped on the door, prepared to give Molly an “I love what you’ve done with the place” greeting. But she startled and then grinned at the woman in the doorway, Andrea Lovette, Quint’s longtime office manager and Callee’s friend.
Andrea lit up like a delighted child at the sight of a favorite toy. “Oh my God, Callee. I didn’t know you were in town. Does Molly know?”
“Not yet, and I’m not staying.” They exchanged a quick hug, and then Callee stepped back and looked at her friend. “I’d ask how you’re doing, but you look fabulous.”
“I look ragged. Two little boys will do that to you.” Andrea laughed, her brown eyes sparkling as she shoved at her long, thick blond hair. She was taller than Callee, a fact made more pronounced by the skinny jeans and platform pumps she wore. “Since you’re not staying, what brings you back to Kalispell?”
“Tying up some loose ends.”
Andrea nodded, her lips pressed together. “Well, whatever the reason, I’m delighted to see you. And Molly will be, too. Besides, I hate being the only guinea pig.”
Guinea pig? Callee found herself being pulled farther into the shop. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Where’s Molly?”
“In the kitchen with Rafe, her new assistant pastry chef. She’s teaching him something, I think.”
Muffled voices issued from the kitchen, one female speaking English and one male speaking Spanish. Callee smiled. “Do they even understand each other?”
“No clue, but Molly will be out in a minute. I’m sitting over there.” Andrea pointed to a booth. “Go ahead. Sit. I’ll bring you some coffee.”
“Okay, but I can’t stay long.” Only long enough to give Molly the ring and a hug good-bye. Callee settled into the booth and began to take in the décor. The interior reflected the colors used outside, but in reverse. The walls were tan, the crown molding and trim white, and the tablecloths and napkins a ripe red. This was all café, display cases, cash register, and an espresso/coffee and tea counter. Seating consisted of a row of four high-backed booths on one wall and round tables scattered throughout the space.
“Isn’t it great?” Andrea handed her a cup of steaming coffee. “The kitchen consumes the largest portion of this building, an L-shaped chunk that isn’t visible from this room.”
“It’s wonderful. Right down to the framed, poster-sized photos of juicy pies with sugar-coated crusts.”
“Mouth-watering, huh?” Andrea took a sip of coffee.
“That’s the idea, right?” Callee couldn’t get over the size of the room. “I didn’t know she was going to do a café. Last I heard, the pie shop would be take-out only.”
“Yeah, well, the café was kind of last minute,” Andrea said, quickly downing more coffee. “Molly told me the design was yours.”
Callee shook her head. “Nope. Only the colors.”
“All the same, I think you missed your calling, lady.”
Callee smiled. “I missed a lot of things.”
“So, how are you doing?” Andrea touched her hand.
The gesture made Callee feel less alone. Andrea had once been where she was now, figuring out how to be single again. The difference was that Andrea had had the burden of two little boys relying on her to get it right. Callee had only herself. Thank God. “I’m looking forward, not backward.”
“I’m glad. I’ve been worried about you.” Andrea offered a commiserating smile.
“I promise, I’ll be okay, eventually.” She smiled weakly.
“This whole thing is such a tragedy.” Andrea shook her head, but never one to hold back how she was feeling, she added, “When Quint comes to his senses, he’s going to be real damned sorry. I wish you’d stick around, Callee. I know he said and did some awful things, but that man loves you. Even if he can’t see past his grief right now.”
“If that’s what he thinks love is, I want no part of it.” It didn’t matter if he did love her, or even if she still harbored tender feelings for him. He was, after all, her first true love, but she had never been a priority with him, and watching the love his parents had shared, she realized she deserved better than what Quint was giving. One day, maybe she’d find her Mr. Right. But Quint McCoy was not that man. “My U-Haul is parked right across the street. As soon as I have a minute with Molly, I’m on my way to Seattle. I’ve enrolled in college,” she said, keeping the type of college to herself. If she ended up with her degree then she would share details with trusted friends, but for now, it was her secret. “Classes start next week.”
“That’s awesome. I’m so excited for you.” Andrea’s smile flashed, then quickly faded. “Uh, by the way, Molly just spoke to Quint. He’s on his way here.”
“What? I thought he was still in Alaska.” The news tweaked Callee’s nerves, and she gulped down a swallow of coffee, the hot liquid burning its way to her stomach.
Andrea was studying her. “He got back last night.”
Callee set her mug aside, snatched hold of her purse, and scooted toward the end of the banquette. “It’s been wonderful visiting with you, but right now, I need to see Molly and get out of here.”
“Okay, Andrea, I hope you’re hungry,” Molly called, emerging from the kitchen. Quint’s mother, a bubbly, middle-aged redhead with short spiky hair, was followed by a tall, handsome Latino in his early twenties, who carried a serving tray with fragrant goodies on dessert plates.
“Callee!” Molly squealed, foiling Callee’s attempted escape. Molly wiped her hands on an apron spotted with flour, chocolate, and fruit juice and hugged Callee. “Oh my God, you’re like a gift from Heaven.”
Callee returned the hug, wishing she never had to let go, but she did, and since the memory of this moment would have to last her a long time, she held on a beat or two longer than she might have. Even though Molly would always welcome Callee into her home and her heart, Callee understood their relationship would never be the same once she left here today. Tears stung her eyes.
Molly stepped back, and Callee did a quick assessment. There was a smidge of flour in her choppy red hair and on her pert nose. The bedroom eyes she’d passed on to her son seemed weary, and the wide smile that lit up any room she entered seemed less brilliant. She was like a clock someone forgot to wind; not quite up to speed. Still missing her husband, Callee figured, still worrying about her son. At least the shop would joyfully fill a lot of lonely hours.
Callee glanced at the wall clock, wondering how soon before Quint arrived. She had to leave. Now. But Molly urged her back into the booth.
“I know why you’re here.”
How could she know that? Callee lowered her voice. “In that case, could I see you in private—?”
“You’re going to stay and come work for me.” Molly cut her off, hope erasing the worry lines near her mouth.
“What?” Callee’s eyebrows rose. “Work for you doing what?”
“A pie shop can always use more than one pastry chef.” She handed Andrea and Callee forks and napkins.
“A pastry chef?” Callee blushed, recalling the time Molly tried to teach her to bake a pie. Callee kept hearing her grandmother’s voice, taunting, telling her that she was only fit for washing dishes and taking out garbage. Not for cooking or baking anything. The end result had been a crust that resembled lumpy clay, and although Molly had been kind, Callee couldn’t stop cringing at the memory.
Callee gave Molly an indulgent smile. “You know perfectly well that my kitchen skills are limited to coffee and scrambled eggs. Period. Not pies.”
“Oh, all right.” Molly sighed. “But since you don’t have anything against eating pies, you can help us figure out which of these three items belongs on the menu.”
“I really need to go.”
“I’m opening next week, and I need to tick this off my to-do list.”
“I can’t st—”
“Nonsense. It’ll only take a few minutes.” Molly slipped into her side of the booth, blocking her in. As stuck as gum in cat fur, her grandmother was fond of saying. Resigned, Callee turned her attention to the tray, which held three colorful pie slices. Her mouth watered. Her early morning breakfast had consisted of a grande latte. Eating something now meant one less stop along the road later on.
Andrea said, “If presentation means anything…wow.”
Molly beamed. She handed Andrea a small green tart. “It’s key lime.”
Molly gave Callee a slice of chocolate pie and gestured for Callee to try it. “This is tar heel pie.”
Callee tried a bite. “I’ve never heard of it.”
“It’s chocolate chips, coconut, and pecans. A word of caution. It’s very rich and should probably only be eaten in tiny increments.”
“Ooh, I like this,” Andrea said. “A definite ten.”
“This is to die for,” Callee exclaimed, her sweet meter tilting off the charts. She shoved the slice toward Andrea. “Try it.”
Molly pointed to the next item. “This last one is Daiquiri pie. Cream cheese, condensed milk, concentrated lemonade, and my own twist, ninety-proof rum.”
Andrea and Callee dug in while Molly watched, waiting for their verdicts.
But Callee and Andrea could only moan in pleasure.
Molly glanced at Rafe. “So much for narrowing the menu.”
He muttered something in Spanish that sounded like “a bucket of Tequila” and headed back to the kitchen.
Outside, tires crunched on the gravel parking lot. Inside, forks stopped halfway to mouths. The three women exchanged knowing looks. Molly scooted out of the booth, then stood frozen beside the table. “Quick, Callee, go see if it’s Quint.”
“Me? Why me? I don’t want to see Quint.” She would just mail the ring to Molly. Feeling none too composed, Callee slipped from the booth. “Do you have a back door?”
“Please, Callee.” Molly’s face had gone a worrisome gray.
“What’s going on?” Callee looked from Molly to Andrea.
Andrea winced. “A sort of intervention.”
“Shock therapy,” Molly said.
“What?” Callee had no clue what they were talking about, and she didn’t want to know. She stole to the window and peered out through the blinds. The second she saw Quint, her heart began to thrum with a rhythm akin to a love song. He was sitting in his SUV, phone to ear. “It’s him.”
“It’s for his own good,” Molly muttered, as though to herself, as though her actions needed defending. “It’s true what they say about tough love. It is harder on the giver than on the receiver. If I hadn’t spoiled that boy to the edge of redemption…”
“What’s he doing?” Andrea asked, still seated in the booth, sucking up Daiquiri pie like she was downing shots in a bar and ignoring her cell phone, which kept announcing a new voice mail.
Callee had a bad feeling. “He’s putting his phone away.”
“What’s he doing now?” Molly asked, her face drained of color.
“Getting out of the car.”
“Does he look angry?” Molly asked.
He looks heart-stopping delectable—like always. Damn. Callee hated that her pulse still skipped whenever she laid eyes on Quint, hated that every nerve in her body seemed to quiver as he shoved back the Stetson revealing his incredible face. God, how she adored that face. His smile, his touch, the things he did to her body, the responses he elicited…just recalling left her breathless. No. Stop it. You’re over. He never put you first. Never. “He’s glancing up and down the street as though he can’t understand why he isn’t seeing what he expects to see.”
“Like he’s wondering if he’s on the right street?” Andrea said, sounding…anxious?
And then Callee realized. Shock therapy. “You didn’t tell him you were turning his office into the café portion of your pie shop?”
Molly gulped. All the answer Callee needed. Before she could ask what the hell Molly was thinking, a fist hit the door. All three women jumped. But no one moved to let him in.