Chapter Twenty-Six
Alex and I sat in silence as he worked the dried blood and dirt from my face. We both stiffened when we heard the clunk of the storeroom door opening, the slap of feet racing down the hall. I was relieved when I saw Nina zip by the break-room door, Vlad and Will right behind her.
“Oh my God!” Nina howled.
Alex helped me to my feet, and when we emerged in the UDA waiting room, Nina—her lips a fresh, healthy blood red, the cuts and bruises already growing faint—was sitting on her knees among the rubble, desperately crying, clutching an Alhambra water jug to her chest and rocking it gently.
“Sophie, Sophie, Sophie,” she was murmuring. “We failed you, dear Sophie. Poor, sweet Sophie.”
Alex put one hand respectfully on Nina’s shoulder and crouched down. “Are you sure that’s Sophie?” he asked.
The offense washed over Nina in waves. She looked incredulously at the water bottle and then at Alex. “Of course this is Sophie. I would recognize her anywhere, in any form. Alex, she was my best friend. Our friendship transcends any physical manifestation.” She held out the empty jug. “Look at her. Look at her!” She cuddled the bottle again. “Sophie ...”
“Um, Nina?”
I stepped through the rubble and Nina stiffened. “See?” she said. “If you listen carefully, you can hear her talking. Hello, my Sophie,” she called into the jug. “You may now be an empty Vessel, but you will forever be our Sophie.”
I stomped my foot—then wished I hadn’t, as the pain seared through me. “Hey! It’s me. I’m here.” I picked my way to Nina, Alex, and the jug. “I’m not a jug.”
Nina’s eyes were wide as saucers; Vlad and Will stepped aside.
“We tried to tell her,” Will said.
“Sophie!”
Nina came toward me, flinging the not-me plastic jug aside and throwing her arms around my waist.
“Ow,” I whimpered.
“I’m so glad you aren’t an Alhambra bottle,” she said softly.
“I’m so sorry I let her hurt you,” I said back.
Nina shrugged. “No biggie.”
I patted Alex on the shoulder when he turned toward Ophelia. “I’m sorry about that,” I told him.
I watched Alex’s Adam’s apple bob as he swallowed slowly. Finally he turned to me, cobalt eyes clouded, and said, “I’m not. She wouldn’t have stopped hunting you, ever. Fallen angels are inflexibly determined in their mission. Obstinate in their evil.”
I pushed a lock of Alex’s dark hair across his forehead. “Not all of them.”
Alex caught my hand and kissed my fingertips. “Right. Not all of us.”
“Hey—how did you find me here?”
Vlad stepped forward. “We pored through all the books.”
“We were on our way to your grandmother’s old place when Alex realized that Ophelia was probably just baiting him—again,” Will said. “It wasn’t my choice of locales, but you heard the man—fallen angels, their mission, blah, blah, blah.”
Will came closer and Alex dropped my hand, the muscle in his jaw flicking as I stood between them. He picked a clod of dirt off my shoulder, flicked it in Will’s general direction. “You really can’t fault someone for taking their life’s mission too seriously.”
Vlad piped up, “I don’t know about you guys, but all of this drama has made me incredibly hungry.” He patted his gut. “I think my blood sugar is low.”
Nina nodded. “I need grease. And fat. I so want to eat a fat guy right now.”
Will blanched and Alex clapped him on the shoulder proudly. “You’ll get used to it.”
The cool night air was heavy with fog, and the city seemed oddly quiet. Alex led me out to the parking lot with Nina, Vlad, and Will in tow, but I felt completely alone. I looked back over my shoulder at the closed door of the San Francisco Police Department and expected to hear Ophelia’s hollow giggle. All I heard was the lonesome whoosh of wind as it pushed the fog toward the bay.
“You’re going to be okay, Lawson,” Alex said, resting his coat on my shoulders. I felt heavy and alien in my own body. When we pulled up in front of my apartment building, we sat in silence for several minutes, watching the traffic pass.
“You ready?”
I twisted my hands in my lap. “I appreciate everything you’ve done tonight, Alex, but I think I would like to be alone, if you don’t mind.”
Alex put his hand on my thigh and squeezed gently. It was probably the one part of my body that wasn’t sporting a flower of purple bruises.
He nodded. “Of course. But you promise to call me if you need anything, okay? Anything at all.”
“Sure.”
I turned as Alex rested his hand on my shoulder. “Hey, about what I said the other day, about me not being around?”
I sat back. “Yeah?”
“It’s not that I—I don’t want to be around. It’s not that I don’t want to be with you—”
I forced a smile; the pain seared all the way through me. “You don’t need to explain.”
“If I could ...”
I took his hand off my shoulder and patted it gently. “I know, Alex. If you could—if there were any way to make this work—you would, right?”
Alex swallowed hard but nodded, avoiding my gaze. “So, are we good?”
“Good friends? Yeah.”
Alex’s head bobbed, and then he turned to me, his blue eyes catching the light. “You know I love you, Lawson.”
I nodded my head. “I know you do, Alex.” I slammed the car door and turned away before he could see the tears welling in my eyes.
I slowly made my way to the apartment vestibule. I was met at the door by Will, who was balancing a pizza in one hand and paying the pizza man with the other. His profile was illuminated in the building’s lights and he had changed into sweatpants and an Arsenal T-shirt. He raised the pizza box when he saw me.
“Hey, love, how you feeling?”
I wagged my head and shrugged. “I don’t really know.”
“Fancy a slice?”
“No thanks. I just want to go to bed.”
Will looked like he was going to make a smart reply but thought better of it. Instead, he patted my shoulder awkwardly, then leaned down and brushed a soft kiss over my cheek, his lips soft as they tickled my ear. “Sorry you have to have such a crap guardian.”
I heard the rev of Alex’s engine as he sped away.
I opened the apartment door and Nina was stretched out on the couch, barefoot and dressed in a silky violet robe. There were a dozen empty blood bags crushed on the coffee table.
“Couldn’t find a fat guy.”
“Where’s Vlad?” I asked.
“Took off with the VERMers,” Nina said. “Apparently, a T-shirt shop on The Haight has committed some egregious crime against Count Chocula. Besides, I thought we could use a quiet night. Just you, me”—she held up the paper bag that was next to her on the couch—“and a couple dozen marshmallow Pinwheels.”
I grinned and lowered myself gingerly to the couch.
“You wouldn’t believe how hard these were to find. The corner market was totally sold out.”
“Weird. You’re starting to look better.”
“A full meal will do that to you.”
I poked the stack of blood bags with my toe. “A full meal? Looks like you had a full football team.”
Nina grinned and burped softly. “No offense, but you’re not looking so hot.”
I frowned and glanced at myself in the hall mirror. My hair was ratted and streaked with dirt and dried blood. There was a noticeable bald spot that flared red and angry when I touched it. My mascara was running and my lower lip was split and fat. Scratches and cuts crisscrossed like raised red train tracks over my legs and arms. It seemed that every part of me that wasn’t covered in blood was smeared with dirt and ballpoint-pen ink.
“I look like I got in a fight with the Office Depot guy.”
“And lost.”
I glared and Nina grinned, the tips of her fangs still sporting a deep red hue from her recent feeding.
“I think I’m going to take a shower.”
I ran the shower water as hot as I could get it and stood under the stream, scrubbing gently and whimpering each time I found a new ache. I stepped out and dried myself off, being careful not to look into any shiny surfaces. Ophelia’s gleeful laughter at my mother’s suicide still rang in my head and I wasn’t ready to face my grandmother.
I stiffened, thinking back to when I confronted Grandma about my being the Vessel. “Being a Vessel isn’t the worst thing, but dying to protect it is.”
Dying to protect the Vessel. Dying, to protect ... me.
I clamped my eyes shut and lost my breath. I saw the glare from the sun on the blond hardwood floor. I felt my mother touching me, nuzzling me, her hands seeming so big as they stroked my hair. “This way they’ll never find you, Sophie. They won’t know where to look.” A sob choked in my throat as the image became a memory, a thought. My tears mingled with the shower stream, flooding over my cheeks. I remembered that voice. I remembered that moment.
“It’s the only way.”
I started to nod my head despite the ache the movement caused. “Don’t do it,” I whispered. “I need you here.”
I stood still, letting the hot shower water wash over me.
When I finished with my shower I flopped on the couch in my bathrobe. ChaCha curled up next to me and Nina dumped two whole boxes of marshmallow Pinwheels on a plate and set it on the coffee table in front of me.
“I feel like I should be taking care of you,” I told her. “I practically got you killed.”
“But you rescued me,” Nina answered from the kitchen. “You came and found me. I’ve never had a friend who would do that for me.” She curled up on the couch next to me, folding her legs neatly underneath her.
“So, what happens now?”
“Well, I don’t have to be afraid of Ophelia anymore.”
“Does that mean it’s over?” Nina wanted to know.
I looked into her dark eyes and took a deep breath, trying to banish the image of Ophelia’s crumbling wings, her solemnly bowed head from my mind. I thought of Alex, of our night together, how I had run my fingers over the four-inch vertical scars just under each shoulder blade. He had stiffened, ashamed of the marks left from losing his wings.
“No, it’s not over. Not by a long shot.”
Nina rested her head on my shoulder, wrapping her cold arms around me. “It’s just the beginning, isn’t it?”
I may have been safe from Ophelia, but that was all. “I keep wondering how long it’s going to be until someone else comes hunting for me. And then there’s Alex... .”
“Alex isn’t going to come hunting for you, Sophie. He’s in love with you.”
“He’s a fallen angel.”
Unrepentant in her mission ... Alex’s words rang in my head. I closed my eyes and prayed for sleep to find me.