Kill or Cure

One can still fill whole books with descriptions

of enemies, prosperity has its dangers

In the virgin forest the sweet-toothed bear

stripped many a colony of honey stores

The digger wasp penetrated, then man followed suit

testing & smelling, taking what wasn’t his

Standing beside his brother, a strong memory for place

and a larger & more demanding ear, eager for the music

 

Kill in the midst of the forests of night

expounding orthodox or singular (secular) aspects

of an imagination, any human, any common reader

rushing again for the daily newspaper which

facilitates, you think—perhaps mistakenly—

a discussion of relevant problems, a study of

the grand design, a stand on all the issues

acknowledging the dagger, the gun, the stick

 

A kind of metaphysical rebelliousness, wagering

positives, I know I do it too, loving more

wisely than ever before with an awestruck voice

a clever voice, a downside voice, on to the next topic

Rhetoric can’t be easily explained in politics

The thing inside the thing, the object of this discourse

is precept rather than object, I take these vows

in meditation, that the truth never be a problem

 

Is the forest in error? Is the sun too?

Do we have our eyes in hell with the tyger?

Ambitious pride is ruling there with the Lords

of Materialism, the genius needs to aspire

beyond herself on wings of convoluted irony

The trouble is history, the trouble is primates,

faulty logic, late-night temper, polemical half-truths,

radiance of fame. Is power good or bad, simply?

 

I am a questioned-developing-thought

A gap in me, a gap in eternity, casual glances

caused by radiation, sketchy enthusiasm

by this thought struck dumb in the presence

of how do you say “emptiness”? which is filled

with light & energy, food for all of you

I want a thorough attention span, outrageous logic,

a sinew of wrath to kill, to cure

 

One may fill whole books the way she exits

the plane, the way the artificial light

is blinding the way the same Lords of Materialism

pierce her eye, & anything you want you can

get anywhere you are on this protracted

protected soil, in fact you needn’t exert yourself

too far in any direction, others have been

hired to walk for you, to talk for you

 

To do your thinking on the Op Ed page

which is infuriating today in its

dumb one-man-upmanship point of view &

as I perceive it, lies, what to do about

it in a relative space for outside the sky darkens

the wind is intense but doesn’t blow your cares

away, including that passion that rises up in you

towards all of them, the students, the protégés

 

Distract me from killing again the fool

in the castle, the youth’s necessary

voyage I want to speed up towards some

kind of transmission, aw cut it out

Awe is the number as the plane wobbles

in my head now, and she or he or you too,

as the case may be, disembarks again,

& again faces the shopping malls of Florida

 

And again rushes to telephone home

like the stranded alien. The wires cross

in the complexity of the gulf stream too,

getting across the message, make contact

not simply to destroy but simply say “I exist”

But if I don’t I do too in awareness

Take this body away on the next flight,

shake it down or just let it breathe

 

Hiding behind a cocktail and a polite quip

about economic viabilites in terms of

energy proposals for underdeveloped nations

This is a serious business, this is a serious

retaliation from the money world

& finger pointing & fist shaking

You’ll come running when the time comes

I wish it would come soon like any good apocalypse

 

Turn the version upside down, roast it

over the coals then see what it looks like

It looks strange, it looks daunting, outmoded

& she (the image) resembles a dream of myself,

brittle charcoal dakini, so passionate she burned up

in fiery charnel ground doing more battle in the world

Yet light shines in spite of all you manufacture

It shines harder as it occurs to itself to go out

 

And this is the 5th sun according to the Maya

give it another chance, or round of applause

We kill each other as we speak to keep dominion

and kill as we love, shy by the fountain, angry

on the Spanish Steps, outraged in Bhopal

You name the place I’ll be there, killing with my

thoughts, loving too—it’s out on the street again—

stepping off the plane from Managua to Miami.