Seven

Breakfast next morning was unusually silent.

Dad spotted it immediately. He came to the table, glowing after his run and his shower. Amy wrinkled her nose. The heavy scent of pine wafted around the kitchen.

“What’s the matter with you two?”

Julian poured himself a cup of coffee.

“Well?” Dad glanced at Amy. “End of term today, your party on Saturday, your club expedition to Paris coming up. You should be dancing on air, not sitting there with a face like a wet weekend.” He picked up his bag. “Wish I had six weeks off!”

“Got a headache,” Amy said sullenly, but Dad had vanished through the door.

Julian said, “No, you haven’t.”

“It’s my head, not yours.”

“Come on, sis. You’ve got the grumps.” Pause. “What have you decided to do?”

“About the card?”

He scowled. “What else?”

Amy didn’t miss a beat. “Took your advice.” Once the lie had flown out, it was easy to embellish. “I tore it into shreds and chucked it away.”

Julian beamed. “What a relief! I worried half the night.”

“Not much else I can do.” She stood up to clear the table. The card, wedged into her pocket, seemed to burn its way into her thigh, as if indignant at the threat of destruction. She remembered Hannah’s thighs, gleaming in the sun.

Julian stood up too. “Forget about it.” Gently, he punched her shoulder. “It’s easy to get trapped in the past. That won’t happen to you, will it, sis? You will move on.”

“You mean like Dad?” Amy said bitterly.

Julian chuckled. “That’s exactly what I mean.” He ruffled her hair. I wish Jules wouldn’t do that. He still treats me like a child.

“By the way, I forgot to tell you.” Julian watched her approvingly. “Christopher rang.”

Amy’s heart missed a beat. “How is he?”

“Fine. We’re going to Perugia together.”

Amy concentrated on rinsing the dishes. “Oh?”

“I met a guy there last year, while I was on their summer university course. Said he’d give me a couple of weeks’ intensive tuition, so I can brush up my Italian.”

“Does it need brushing?”

“I can read it well, for my art history, but I never get a chance to speak it . . . Chris said he’d come with me. We’ll probably go on to Rome or Naples.”

Amy’s mouth tasted sour with jealousy. “Lucky you.” A week in Paris tramping round the Louvre, with Mrs Baxter organising every moment, is hardly competition.

“Chris is coming here to stay for a few days. I told him about your party.”

Amy’s heart made up for lost time. “You did?”

“He says he’d love to come. If that’s OK with you.”

Amy blazed a smile at her adorable brother. “It’ll be great to see him again.”

“He’ll be here on Friday. He’s always had a soft spot for you. Often asks me how my lovely little sister’s getting on.”

Amy turned away to hide her scarlet cheeks.

Move on . . . That’s so easy to say.

Amy cycled over to collect Ruth for the last morning of term.

Ignore problems, shove them under the carpet, don’t confront anything that looks remotely difficult. Typical of Jules. He can’t bear to look at a real body, only an imitation that’s been painted and clamped into a frame. That can’t talk back, tell you things you’d rather not hear.

There must’ve been something serious going on between Mum and Marcello to make Jules refuse to talk about it.

Mum had never finished her book with its section on Marcello’s garden. But supposing somebody else had written about it? If she caught the bus to Guildford this afternoon, she could go to the bookshop. Begin to track something down.

Anyway, she had nothing even half decent to wear for the party. And if Chris was coming, a new outfit was essential. In fact, Chris’s imminent arrival put Amy’s sixteenth birthday in a whole new light.

She bumped over Ruth’s driveway, trilling her bell to announce her arrival.

The three days to Friday began to shimmer with anticipation.

Amy stared out of the bus window on her way to Guildford as the small towns bumbled past – Haslemere, Godalming, Farncoombe – green and sleepy in the hazy afternoon light.

Christopher.

She’d met him twice before. Each meeting seared indelibly into her mind. The first time she’d been thirteen. Dad had taken her to Oxford, to an open day at Julian’s boarding school during the summer term.

In the afternoon there’d been a cricket match. Amy stood on the sidelines, mesmerised by one of the batsmen. He made sixty powerful, energetic runs, swinging the ball to the boundary, before he was deftly caught.

A shower of hands clapped as he left the field.

Julian called out, “Well played!”, grabbed his arm as he came striding from the pitch. “Chris, this is my dad – and my sister, Amy.”

She caught her breath as Chris took off his helmet, looked down at her and gripped her hand. He seemed filled with sunlight, his narrow face tanned, his shirt damp with sweat, open at the neck, his dark-blond hair glistening.

He smiled at her. “Hi, Amy.” His voice was deep and husky. “I’ve heard such a lot about you from Jules.”

Dad said, “Shall we have some tea?”

“Good idea.” The world became two blue eyes. “I’ll jump in the shower.”

The second time had been a year ago, at Cambridge, where Chris had played the title role in Hamlet at an Arts Theatre student production. He was reading English at Peterhouse, desperate to become an actor, but his parents insisted he got a degree first.

She and Dad had met Julian and Chris by the river. They’d gone punting, Chris standing tall and slim at the helm – “Let me do all the hard work, why don’t you!” – the pole, smooth and shiny with water, dripping through his hands, his eyes flirting with her when the others weren’t looking.

That evening Amy sat through Hamlet, her heart thumping like a drum, trying not to let Dad and Julian see how smitten she was. Neither of them ever suspected her feelings, how she’d replayed that weekend, that special evening, in her head, over and again. She’d never even told Ruth.

Dad’s not the only one who’s madly in love! What if he knew? That’d give him something to think about besides his darling Hannah!

And now on Friday she and Chris would meet again. She wondered what he’d make of Grayshott and Terra Firma. She wondered what he’d make of her. Because she didn’t feel like “Julian’s little sister” any more.

Nor, she realised with a jolt, did she any longer feel like “Daddy’s little girl”.

So what exactly was she?

Standing on the second floor of Guildford’s Waterstones, Amy gazed through the window at the High Street. She’d spent an hour thumbing through books on gardening and landscape design, full of marvellous photographs, elegant, beautiful – and useless.

None of them even mentioned Italy.

I don’t know what I expected to find. All I have is a first name and the link with Florence. It’s not much to go on. If I were serious about all this, I’d fly to Italy and find Marcello himself!

She gave a sudden laugh at the idea. A book-browser looked up at her curiously. Amy headed for the stairs. Sure, she needed to know who Marcello was. But she’d never been abroad on her own. Dad would never let her go. And she could hardly tell him the reason for the trip.

Anyway, she wasn’t that interested.

Or was she?

Thoughtfully, she sat over a cappuccino in Starbucks, spooning up the frothy chocolate topping. Mum had left her some money in her will, in a trust fund until Amy was sixteen. She knew that Dad’s chief birthday present would be her own bank account and cashcard.

Suppose she took out enough money to pay for a trip to Florence? Could she get there and back without Dad knowing? Instead of going to Paris with Mrs Boring Baxter, suppose she used that week to go to Italy?

Would she have the courage to do it on her own?

Maybe. It needed careful planning. She’d start thinking on the bus. Meanwhile, the party. Amy drained her cup. She wanted a dress, or a long skirt and frilly top: something floaty and romantic. To make Christopher sit up and say, “Hey! Just look at Jules’s little sister now!”

I’m gonna take midsummer night and make it special just for you . . .

The latest pop lyric blared through the shopping arcade. Amy began to hum along.

“I’ve got a surprise for you,” Dad said that evening.

“Oh?” Amy sliced some tomatoes. She did not bother to look up.

“For your party. Actually, it was Hannah’s idea.”

I might have guessed.

“She and I had lunch together. In the garden. She was saying how beautiful it looked. Then she said, ‘Why don’t we get an electrician to put some fairy lights in the trees?’ It’s a brilliant idea. They’ll look fantastic.”

Amy’s heart lurched. She imagined standing in Christopher’s arms in the rose garden, the moon shining, the lights sparkling from the silver birch, music from the house drifting over the lawn.

“What d’you think, Amy? Good idea?”

“Yeah, I suppose so.”

“Great. I’ll ask Dora to organise it tomorrow.”

Amy looked up at him. “I suppose you and Hannah will be at the party?”

“We wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

He’d poured a glass of cold juice and was halfway out of the door with it. Amy said quickly, “Dad?”

“Yes, sweetheart?”

“What you said at breakfast. About wishing you had six weeks off.”

“So I did.”

“Have you planned a holiday?”

“D’you know, it’s amazing you should mention it . . .”

“Oh?” Amy kept her head down. She drizzled olive oil on the salad, watched the raw spinach leaves gleam.

“It’s exactly what we discussed over lunch. We thought while you’re in Paris we could go to Wales. Just for a week. I wouldn’t want you to be alone in the house . . .”

“I could always stay at Ruth’s.”

“No, a week will be fine. Hannah wants me to meet her parents in Cardiff. Then she and I can spend a few days walking in the mountains. Fresh air, exercise . . .”

“Just what the doctor ordered.”

So now he’s meeting her parents!

Dad laughed. “Really? You wouldn’t mind? You know, if Hannah and I . . .”

It wouldn’t matter much if I did.

“What’ll we do with Tyler?”

“I’ll ask Dora to have him. She’ll spoil him rotten and he’ll adore it. It’ll give her a holiday too.”

Better and better.

“That’s settled, then.” Amy picked up the salad bowl. “Could you tell Julian supper’s ready?”

Amy watched Dad leave the kitchen. This afternoon, her plan had seemed far-fetched and ridiculous. Not any more . . .

Amy opens her wardrobe and takes out the new dress. It swishes against her.

“What d’you think?”

Ruth gasps. “It’s gorgeous. It must’ve cost a fortune.”

“Less than half price.”

“Put it on.”

Amy kicks off her trainers, strips off her T-shirt and jeans. Gently, she pulls the dress over her head. The silk rustles seductively.

“You don’t think it’s a bit over the top?”

“Nonsense. You look fantastic. I’ve never seen you in red before. Give us a twirl.”

Amy twirls. The flared knee-length skirt lifts around her thighs.

“You’ll need shoes to match . . . and to put your hair up.”

Amy scoops it into a high ponytail. “Like that?”

“With a red ribbon, something to set it off. You’ll look fabulous. ’Specially with that new sparkle in your eye.”

“What new sparkle?” Amy pretends to adjust the scoop of the dress’s neckline.

“You tell me.”

Amy giggles. “If you must know, Christopher’s coming to the party.”

Ruth sits up on the bed. “Julian’s friend? The one you met in Cambridge last year?”

“Yes,” Amy says. “And I met him before, at Julian’s school. When I was thirteen.”

Ruth stares at her. “You never told me! Amy Grant, you’re blushing! You’re as red as your dress. You fancy him like mad. Come on, Miss I-Can’t-Be-Bothered-with-Boys! Own up to Auntie Ruth.”

Amy slides the dress off, sorry to part with it. She runs her fingers down its skirt, turns to look at Ruth.

“He’s not a boy,” she says. “He’s twenty years old.”

“Don’t you think –” Ruth hesitates – “he might be a bit old for you?”

Amy starts to dance around the room in her underwear, leaping and bounding, clapping her hands above her head, clicking her fingers to the beat of her body.

“Old? My Christopher? He’s perfect . . . Just you wait and see!”