contents

  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. Part One
    ksenia adderley
  5. How Could I Leave Josh Behind?
  6. We’d Never Seen Them Before
  7. What Was I Supposed to Do?
  8. We Need to Be Happy While We Can
  9. I’m a Stranger Here Myself
  10. They Might Not Find Their Way Home Again
  11. You Could Put It Like That
  12. What a Little Savage You Once Were!
  13. Because We Weren’t Really Home Before
  14. Tiny, Sparkly Hands
  15. It Was What We Had to Give
  16. Do Tell
  17. Part Two
    lexi holden
  18. Every Skein of Light
  19. An Orchestra of Breaths and Bells
  20. A Velvety, Minuscule Death
  21. Not a Single One of Them Reaches My Voice
  22. Just Enough of the Truth
  23. My Voice Becomes Vapor
  24. Once You’ve Been to Nowhere
  25. Now We’re All Living Under a Spell
  26. Part Three
    joshua korensky
  27. The Only Way to Break Them Open
  28. The Land of Not Too Late
  29. So What’s to Trust?
  30. Why Did You Send Me to Die?
  31. What Is a Grave, If Not a Doorway?
  32. Please Don’t Think This Is Me
  33. As Any Artist Does
  34. Part Four
    lexi holden
  35. The Particular Shapes of Her Silence
  36. Nothing Essential Is Safe
  37. Minds Slap Shut Like Books
  38. Even Dreams Consume
  39. There Are Lies That Have Some Truth in Them
  40. Nothing of Great Matter to Her
  41. A Vast and Hollow Darkness
  42. Part Five
    unselle
  43. But Still Enduring
  44. Part Six
    ksenia adderley
  45. That Makes Two of Us
  46. They Stole Me from Myself
  47. They Didn’t Make Everything
  48. This Ground I’m Lying On
  49. My Version of Love
  50. I’ll Set My Own Criteria
  51. I’m Not Going to Let You Take It Back
  52. How Can Everything Become Nothing?
  53. I Paid Our Rent
  54. What Else Would I Do?
  55. The Whole Bright and Whirling World
  56. Whatever Heart You Can Make for Yourself
  57. Acknowledgments
  58. Also by Sarah Porter
  59. About the Author
  60. Copyright