I’m sure anyone who’s still watching this has already seen the interview. Maybe most of you just want to know what I was thinking.
The problem was, of course, that I wasn’t. I was white-hot with fury, rage burning all the common sense—and definitely all of Tatia’s training—right out of my head.
I don’t see why I should have to go over it again when you can play the ’cast any time you like, but as I’ve been told more than once, people need things to be personalized.
They like the inside story.
Carl Hurfest started with the easy questions. How do you feel? Are you physically okay? Do you like school? The answers tripped off my tongue. Tatia definitely knew her stuff, and after the first ten minutes, I began to relax into it. Hurfest was sticking, word-perfect, to the questions he’d had vetted.
So when he moved on to the harder ones, looking very grave as he gazed at me, I stayed relaxed and answered well.
No, I couldn’t remember what it was like to die. Yes, I’d been confused and disoriented when I ran from my excellent caregivers and into that first press conference. Of course, I was very grateful to the people who had helped me adjust to life in the twenty-second century.
“And what do you think of the world now, as opposed to the one you left?”
“Some things are different, of course,” I said.
“The climate?”
“Yes. It was much cooler in my time. The oceans were lower. You could grow different crops in different places.”
“Do you eat meat, Teeg?” Hurfest asked, and I felt the faint stirrings of alarm. It was the first question that hadn’t been explicitly included on the list. But Tatia had anticipated this one, and I was prepared for it.
“Not anymore. I agree that it’s wasteful and destructive.”
“You’re not worried about it from the point of view of ethical animal treatment?”
I blinked. “I would have given it up at home, if that was true.”
“You said home. Do you still think of the past as your home?”
I forced myself to relax and pulled out the bashful smile Tatia had made me practice until my cheeks went numb. “I lived there for sixteen years,” I said. “It would be hard not to and, I think, disrespectful to the memory of my family and past-timer friends if I didn’t. Melbourne today is my home, too.” Behind him, I could see Tatia’s nod.
Hurfest smiled in apparent approval. I wasn’t fooled; I knew an enemy when I saw one.
“I understand that you have a religious affiliation,” he said.
Another of the vetted questions. “Yes,” I began. “I’m Roman Catholic, though not at present a member of any particular congre—”
“Roman Catholics believe in the resurrection of the body, don’t they?”
“Uh, sure,” I said, caught off guard by the interruption, then, “Yes, that’s what I was taught.”
“And that the body will be immortal and made perfect by God, and the souls of those already dead will be reunited with these perfect bodies?”
I fell back on an all-purpose answer. “My faith is a source of great personal comfort.”
He pounced. “Then would you agree with the Inheritors of the Earth that your soul is currently in the keeping of your God, while your current imperfect body is a mockery of his power to resurrect the dead and you should therefore commit suicide to return to his keeping?”
I felt my face freeze into place. “Obviously, I would not.”
“Would you agree that this belief doesn’t actually contradict Roman Catholic teachings?”
“You’d have to ask a priest,” I said tightly. From Tatia’s rictuslike grin and emphatic nodding, I wasn’t smiling enough. I tried to force the corners of my mouth up.
“I more or less did. The Inheritors of the Earth derive much of their doctrine from Roman Catholic—”
“But they’re not,” I said.
“I think we can agree that—”
“You can agree if you like, Carl,” I said, almost purring the words. “But I identify as Roman Catholic, not as a member of a sect that broke away from the church sixty years ago. I believe in religious tolerance on every level. The Inheritors are entitled to their theology, but I am not spiritually obliged to live—or die—in accordance with their doctrine.”
And thank god that Tatia had included that impro tree in my training. My untutored response would probably have been something similar to, “Those bastards can shut the hell up about me killing myself for the love of God anytime they like.”
“What do you feel about the army spending so much money on Operation New Beginning when they’ve only managed to resurrect one teenage girl?”
“I’m very happy I get a second chance, and I hope our soldiers will, too.”
“But it’s been billions of dollars, Tegan. You’ve cost this country an enormous amount.”
“I’m very grateful,” I said, forcing the words out through my stiff smile.
It made sense that Hurfest was playing this note over and over—it was what had made me lose it in that first “interview.” I had been warned about this. But I hated him, and I was furious, and having gotten me to that emotional straining point, this was when he chose to break me entirely.
“What do you think of the No Migrant policy, Tegan?”
Tatia was making a gesture that meant All-Purpose Reply #3.
All-Purpose Reply #3 was, “I think policy should be left to policymakers.”
“I think No Migrant is disgusting,” I said. Tatia began waving her hands at me so fast, I thought they might detach from her wrists.
Hurfest had perked right up. “Because your resurrection contravenes the stated aims of the policy, which are to preserve Australian resources for Australians? What do you think of the allegations of—”
“I am Australian, you dick,” I said. “I think it’s disgusting because Australia’s resources could provide for thousands of starving people, and we’re just letting them starve.”
Hurfest looked, for the first time, sincerely taken aback. Then he leaned forward, eyes gleaming. “The policy argument seems to be that Australians can’t be held responsible for—”
“You wanna bet?” I said. “Australia’s been exploiting the developing world for generations, supporting conditions of war and famine and disease, and now we get to feel smug about it and call them dirty thirdies? I don’t think so.”
“Quite a change of heart, Tegan! Did it come about because of your association with Abdi Taalib?”
I ignored him and twisted to look directly into the bumblecam. “Do you people even know what’s happening?” I demanded.
It’s kind of a big blur to me now. Part of me was calmly watching as everything I’d discovered, every horrible fact and stupefying human-rights abuse, spilled right from my lips. But most of me was in a white-hot rage. The thing was that all these disasters were so obvious; no conspiracies involved. Anyone could have found them in the same search that I’d done. So what was it? Did they not know, or did they not care? Hurfest didn’t even try to interrupt, recoiling as the words kept coming.
By the end I was shouting. “I am ashamed of you!” I yelled. “You are not the future I wanted. I can’t believe the same stupid shit is still happening. I wanted you to be better! Be better!”
“Stop, Tegan, stop!” someone was saying, shaking my shoulders until my head snapped back and forth.
It was Dawson. Hurfest was being hustled out of the room, his camera with him. He seemed to be caught between yelling more questions at me and protesting his right to free speech, but Zaneisha did not appear to be inclined to listen to objections.
“Escort Mr. Hurfest home, Sergeant Washington,” Dawson snapped at her. “And make sure he stays there. Tatia, you can leave.”
“Save me from the ones with convictions,” Tatia said, sweeping out. “Good-bye, Teeg. I knew you’d come to a bad end.”
“You stupid, vicious little girl,” Dawson said, and shook me again.
Marie was tugging on his arms. “Stop it, Trevor!”
His hands sprang away from my shoulders as if I were something unclean. “Why would you do that? Why would you destroy all your credibility?”
“Truth! We didn’t put you on camera to speak the truth! We needed a pretty face!”
“Well, tough,” I snapped. “You got me instead. I guess your little clockwork doll broke down.”
“You’re going back to the base. Tonight. No more school, no more sleepovers. You will do what you are told, when you are told, and—”
“Colonel Dawson! I won’t permit it!”
“Dr. Carmen, don’t push me. This little bitch may have just scuttled the operation, do you realize? We haven’t gotten the results we promised, and she’s obviously unstable.” He whirled and leaned over me. “You’re going to spend a long, long time underground, Tegan Oglietti.” His pupils were huge, dilated with fury.
“Screw you,” I said, and shoved him with all my strength.
He staggered back a few steps, and I jumped to my feet, meaning to make a run for it.
But I stopped dead.
I was looking down the business end of a very shiny, very deadly looking weapon. Not a sonic pistol. The same kind of weapon that had killed the Inheritor in the foyer of a church.
“Trevor,” Marie breathed.
“Shut up, Marie. I won’t shoot if I don’t have to.”
“What are you doing?” I said. My hands were at my sides; I moved them carefully up to shoulder height. Watch the eyes, Zaneisha had told me, but I discovered it was hard to stop looking at the barrel of a gun. With an effort, I shifted my gaze to Dawson’s face instead. It was just as hard, just as inflexible as the weapon. The anger was gone, replaced by a calm certainty, and that was even scarier.
“Kneel down and lace your fingers on top of your head. Dr. Carmen, there are restraints in my briefcase. Get them.”
“But—”
“Get them.”
Marie gasped and scrambled back. I saw her pick up the briefcase from behind the kitchen bench, then carefully put it down. Her eyes met mine over his shoulder.
I needed to distract and delay him. I needed something that would make sure his attention was on me. “What’s the Ark Project, Trevor?” I asked softly.
His eyes narrowed. “Who told you about that?”
“What is it?”
“Humanity’s last chance.”
My confusion must have been clear, because he let out a harsh laugh. “Do you know what happens when the Antarctic ice sheet goes, Tegan? And it is going. The Gulf Stream will enter thermohaline circulation shutdown. In a century, maybe less, we’re looking at the beginning of an oceanic anoxic event. Do you know what that is?” He sighed, sounding genuinely weary. “Of course you don’t. You’re an ignorant little girl, and your politics have always been a pose. Get on your knees, Tegan. I won’t ask again.”
And then Marie smashed the fruit bowl into the back of his head.
It was clumsy, violent, and effective. Dawson jerked, and the gun went wide.
Even then, we might have been in real trouble, if not for what Zaneisha had taught me. Lunging forward, I twisted the gun out of his grip and delivered an elbow strike to his face. I hit him in the nose and felt something crunch.
He stumbled. Marie hit him again, and he dropped like a stone.
“I’m sorry!” Marie said, and dropped the remains of the bowl. They shattered on the floor, and in the ringing silence we stared at each other.
“I can’t believe that worked,” I said. “I can’t believe I remembered how to do it.”
“Zaneisha is a very effective teacher,” Marie said brightly, and then stared at Dawson. “What’s the Ark Project?”
“You don’t know?”
“Tegan, I have no idea.”
“Oh, thank god,” I said, and stumbled forward to hug her. “It’s a big secret military thing, I think. I’ll explain as much as I can, but we have to go.” My elbow hurt from hitting him. Zaneisha hadn’t mentioned that would happen.
“Just a minute.” She felt for Dawson’s pulse. “He’s alive. Oh, good. We’ll have to tie him up.”
“We should take him downstairs,” I suggested.
In the end, we did both. The restraints in Dawson’s briefcase went around his own wrists and ankles, and we pushed him under Marie’s bed before heading back upstairs to clean up.
I couldn’t make myself pick up the gun, but I shoved it under the couch with my foot. I avoided the sonic pistol, too, but I took Dawson’s computer, his EarRing, and everything else I could find that might be useful. His wallet had four thousand in cash, which wouldn’t get us very far, but was better than nothing. I tucked the plastic tokens into my tunic pockets.
“Is that everything?” Marie asked. “All right, so… I suppose we should leave.” She picked up a fallen banana and stuffed it down the neckline of her gown. “Supplies,” she explained.
We didn’t run, not quite. We just moved very quickly to Marie’s car, and she pulled out into the street before anyone from the house across the road could stop us to make inquiries about why we were leaving without bodyguards.
Marie drove for a few minutes before she started talking, her voice curiously matter-of-fact. “Oceanic anoxia is when there isn’t enough oxygen in the water to keep sea life alive. Anoxic events tend to lead to mass extinctions. Trevor must have access to resources I don’t; I had no idea the Antarctic ice sheet was in imminent danger.”
I was finding it hard to breathe myself. “The planet’s dying?”
“Oh no. It’s happened many times before, geologically speaking. The planet will keep going quite happily. Humanity might not, though. At the very least, things are going to get a lot worse for a lot of people. My research is beginning to seem quite frivolous.”
“What’s going to happen to you?” I asked.
Marie took a deep breath. “I’ve probably lost my job. Now. Tell me what you know about this Ark Project.”
We discussed it as she drove. It was a huge relief that Marie wasn’t involved with whatever Dawson was keeping hidden, but she also didn’t have any clue what it could be.
“You didn’t hear a whisper of anything?”
She shook her head. “I didn’t know that facility even existed. And the containers you describe could have held almost anything. Sensitive scientific equipment, weapons, even enriched uranium, though I’d have to hope they aren’t playing with that so close to residential areas.”
“What about the name? It could be a reference to Noah’s Ark,” I suggested. “Or the Ark of the Testimony that held the Ten Commandments.”
“That’s not much of a clue, either. Army project and operation names can be very obscure, sometimes purposely so.”
“So you don’t know anything,” I said, and slumped in my seat.
“Well, perhaps. You say that the Inheritor man Gregor shot first alerted you to the project?”
“Yes.”
“I believe one of the founders of the Inheritors of the Earth was a military man,” she said.
I sat up straight again. “The Father?”
“Oh, no. The church was established some decades ago. He’d be very old by now, if he’s still alive at all. Still, there might be a connection there.”
She pulled the car over outside an apartment block.
The massive concrete structure could have been one of the state housing buildings from my time, but this one had yellow wind turbines on top and a sign out front declaring it to be Mellufius Apartments. There was a crowded bike rack and a tiny garden of wilting grass, lit up with pink lights. Probably housing for corporate cogs who were working too hard to care much about where they slept.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“I’ve been thinking about that,” she said. “They’ll probably find Trevor fairly soon, which means they’ll start tracking this vehicle. So I’m going to drive as far as I can before they catch me. And you’re going to go somewhere else.”
“No!”
“Yes, Tegan. I can try to confuse them for a little while. Enough to give you a decent head start.”
I could see the sense in that, but I didn’t have to like it. “And what will I do?”
She held up her computer. “I can probably steal you a car from this parking lot.”
“Um, I can’t drive.”
“You can jump off buildings, blackmail the Department of Defence, spy on a secret project, and bring down a professional holding a gun on you, but you can’t drive?”
“I was always too busy to learn,” I said indignantly, and she laughed breathlessly for a moment.
“I’ll miss you,” she said, and I felt tears spring to my eyes. What would they do to her when they worked out what she’d done?
“No.” She pushed the car door open, and I got out, too. “Can you ride a bike?”
“Sure.”
Marie headed toward the rack, kneeling down by one of the bikes. “Do you have somewhere to hide?”
No, I thought, and opened my mouth to say so, but Marie shook her head. “Don’t tell me where. It’s better I don’t know.”
Well, all right. I’d come up with something.
“Keep moving if you can. Don’t log into any networks under your own name, and get a clean computer if you possibly can. Try to get across the state lines. Change your appearance. Oh, and give me your EarRing. They can track you with it.”
“You sound like a spy.”
“I’ve just watched a lot of detective movies,” she confessed, and then hugged me again, so tight it hurt. A good hurting. “Don’t let them find you.” She pressed something cold and hard into my hand: Dawson’s sonic pistol. She must have picked it up before we left. My hands shook taking it—it wasn’t really a gun, but it was gun-shaped—and I made sure the safety was on before tucking it into my belt.
“I love you, Marie,” I said.
I hadn’t meant to. It just fell out of my mouth. But her eyes went wide, and she touched her throat. “I love you, too, Tegan. Now. Go.”
I went.
For the record, riding a bike isn’t just like riding a bike when it’s a fancy-pants future bike with “helpful” GPS corrections and traffic advice. The first time the bike computer spoke, I nearly pitched over the handlebars in shock, and only a wild swerve and some frantic leg pumping got me my balance back.
The bike also kept calling me Markus.
I felt a little bad about that, but mostly I hoped Markus wouldn’t notice his bike was stolen and activate the trackers until well into the morning. I needed somewhere to go, and while I was thinking of where that might be, I needed to get some distance from where Marie had seen me last.
Bethari and Joph had been watching the interview at Joph’s place.
I couldn’t stay there, but Bethari might have useful contacts from her investigative journalism. It was vaguely possible that she’d know people who would know people who could keep me hidden.
Those people would want to be paid, no doubt, and Dawson’s stolen cash wouldn’t get me very far, but it was a start.
Joph lived in the Flying Towers, which was a famously fancy building. I told the bike computer to direct me there and whipped around the next left as instructed.
I bumped over the poorly kept roads and felt very nearly happy. Sure, I was cycling through the dark city on a stolen bike, fleeing the Australian army, but it was the first time since my reawakening that I’d been out on my own. It was nearly midnight, and the streets were relatively quiet. The hot air smothered all sounds but my own panting breaths and the metallic slither of my leggings against the chain ring.
As I got closer to the central city, I saw more people. They were walking home after a late shift, or clustered in cafés, or getting legally high in a breathe bar. If I ignored the omnipresent advertising blaring from every bar door, and the clean-smelling air, much nicer than in my carbon-polluted time, I could make believe that I was home.
I was humming, the chorus to “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds” buzzing over and over again to the steady rhythm of my legs.
The mood didn’t last. By the time I got to Joph’s building, I’d stopped making music and started ducking my head when people looked at me. The heavy interview costume had collected every drop of sweat, and the contact lenses in my eyes were itching unbearably. I dumped Marcus’s bike two blocks from the Flying Towers and walked the rest of the way, forcing myself to a steady, unremarkable pace. The Flying Towers didn’t actually fly, just stretched up high enough to imply that they could. The apartment building was a dinosaur, an energy-inefficient glass-and-steel monstrosity that flaunted the wealth of the inhabitants like Tatia flaunted her sense of style.
No human eyes watched me enter the lobby, but my skin was crawling under the surveillance I knew was there. A building like this recorded the presence of everyone in it. But it also kept the information to itself, protected behind strict privacy laws and enough money and influence to make even the army hesitate before demanding the records—I hoped.
“I want to see Joph Montgomery,” I said to the air. I’d seen enough contemporary movies to know that places like this would have a building computer screening the guests.
There was a pause just long enough to set my every last nerve on edge, and then the lobby computer spoke. “Please enter the elevator to your left.”
A section of paneling slid away to reveal the elevator. There were no buttons inside the door. The elevator would deliver me to the right floor, and no other.
I leaned against the shiny wall, second-guessing every choice that had brought me there and regretting everything I’d left behind—Abbey on my bed, Koko on my nightstand, Marie driving into the night, where absolutely anything could happen to her.
Then I took a deep breath and braced myself for what had to come next.
Bethari and Joph were waiting by the door, ordering it open before I even signaled the house computer.
“Are your parents home?” I asked Joph.
“Geya, Tegan. They’re out; come in.”
“We saw the interview,” Bethari said. “First, you were amazing, and second, what are you doing here?”
“I need help,” I told them. “I should probably tell you both that I’m in a lot of trouble, and I could get you in trouble, too, but I really, really need help.”
“Of course,” Bethari said immediately.
Joph tilted her head, the ever-present vagueness in her eyes abruptly clearing as she looked me over. I felt exposed and vulnerable, and absolutely not above begging. If I had to go to my knees on the plush, expensive carpet, I would.
But I didn’t need to. “Come into the lab, Teeg,” Joph said, and led me through her home.
Joph’s lab was behind a triple-locked door. I’d been expecting dust and disorder, broken equipment, and the mess of failed experiments—something more like an alchemist’s hideaway.
But Joph was a scientist. The lab was spotless and impeccably organized, racks of drawers were labeled, and equipment I couldn’t even guess at hummed in the welcome chill of the temperature-controlled atmosphere.
“This room is on a closed system,” she said, sitting cross-legged on the floor and gesturing for me to join her. “No one comes in here, not even my parents, and no one can get through my security.”
“Whose security?” Bethari asked archly.
“Bethi helped,” Joph said.
“That’s right, and then you locked me out. I haven’t been in here for a year.”
Joph looked at me. “What happened after the ’cast, Tegan? And what do you want us to do?”
I took a deep breath, feeling the butt of Dawson’s sonic pistol against my ribs. I wasn’t any more certain than I’d been on the way up, but I didn’t have any choice. I told them everything.
Bethari gasped when I got to the bit where Dawson pulled a gun on me and again at the part where Marie clocked him with the fruit bowl.
Joph watched me with her big eyes, occasionally scribbling a note on her computer, but she was largely silent and still.
“So I was hoping one of you would know someone,” I said, and faltered to a stop.
Bethari was frowning. “I don’t know. I might—”
“Sure thing,” Joph said.
I blinked at her. “Seriously?”
“Seriously?” Bethari said.
“Well, it might be a little complicated, but you don’t have to worry about that part. I’ll get you some clothes, Teeg, and make some calls. Don’t touch anything!”
Bemused by her sudden exit, I unclasped the thick belt, carefully laying the pistol on the floor. I could feel myself withdrawing into a cold, tight knot.
“I can’t believe this! She’s been keeping secrets! From me!” Bethari jumped to her feet and started looking at the lab equipment, obviously dying to disregard Joph’s instruction to keep her hands to herself. When she spoke again, her voice was quite different. “Are you all right?”
“I’m okay.”
“You don’t look okay.”
“Fine. I’m totally crap—is that what you want me to say? I screwed up in the interview; I asked Dawson about the Ark Project; I’ve lost Marie her job and got her in a lot of trouble, and you guys, too; and I still don’t know what the army’s been hiding or what it has to do with me and Operation New Beginning.” Her concerned face was blurring behind a veil of my tears. I dashed them away with the back of my hand. “I’m just kooshy, Bethari.”
Joph came back in. “He’s on his way. Teeg, are you okay?”
I couldn’t even laugh. “No,” I said.
“I can give you something to help,” she suggested, putting the clothes carefully beside me.
I shook my head and steeled myself. “My brother died,” I said. “I mean, everyone died. But he died early, because of drugs.”
Joph crouched by me. “Oh, Teeg, I’m so sorry. But these are safe, I swear. Nonaddictive, no bad side effects.”
“She’s telling the truth,” Bethari added. “I mean, I don’t take them, but… you really don’t look good, and you can’t overdose on Joph’s stuff.”
“No, not like that. Not overdosing. After I got shot, Owen became a crystal addict. He robbed a gas station to buy more, and he got caught. So he went to jail, and there was a prison riot, and he died.” I took a ragged breath. “We didn’t have anything in common, except music and Mum and Dad and Dalmar. But I loved him and he loved me. He never did crystal before I died. And he died, and Mum lost us all.”
Joph made a soft noise and pressed something into my hands. It looked like an asthma inhaler, only it was bright pink with a little blue button on the side. The little cartridge she slid into the top was plain, medicinal white. “You don’t have to feel this way. You can feel better,” she said. “Push here and inhale.”
I hesitated for only a moment. Then I put the inhaler to my mouth and sucked in.
It wasn’t a big change. I didn’t start seeing things or cooing about how great Joph’s hair was. I just gradually felt much, much better. The knot of horror in my gut loosened a little bit, and my shoulders came down from their protective hunch.
Joph beamed at me. “There’s a muscle relaxant as well. It’s really great, isn’t it?”
I nodded. “But I can still move.”
“Yep! This one’s popular with athletes wanting to increase their endurance before big events. They take a breather, then they can push themselves without stressing.”
“Taking a breather,” I said. “Cute.” I tugged my clothes off, relaxing even more as I dropped the heavy tunic and tight leggings onto the floor. Joph had brought me a flowing bat-wing shift and loose drawstring pants. The hem that hit her halfway down the calf was nearly ankle-length on me. I hitched the pants up under a scarf belt until I was sure I wasn’t going to trip, and I stuck the sonic pistol in my belt.
Bethari had given up all pretense of trying to mask her curiosity and was openly rummaging through Joph’s cabinets.
Joph watched her for a moment, frowning slightly. When her computer beeped, she took a container from her pocket, extracted a pill, and popped it into her mouth. “My antiandrogens,” she said in response to my look.
That wasn’t some future slang; I knew what antiandrogens were. In her general Educate and Involve Tegan for Great Justice program, Alex had included a very brief rundown on the mechanics of gender transition.
Joph misinterpreted my expression. “I was born male-bodied,” she explained. “These help fix that.”
“I know,” I said. “It’s just… I didn’t know you were in transition.”
“Huh?”
“Old word,” I said hastily. “And that’s cool! I was just surprised; I didn’t know.”
“Now you do,” she said.
“I know lots of things,” I said. “Lots and lots of things, but none of the right ones.” I flopped onto my back, blinking at the soft ceiling lights. “I need to know more things.”
“Maybe I should have adjusted the dosage,” Joph said. She leaned over and put her fingers to my throat, featherlight. “No, your pulse is fine.”
“Serbolax!” Bethari said. She had a handful of bright pink pills, and she was staring at her ex-girlfriend. “Joph, this is Serbolax, isn’t it? The cure for Travis Fuller Syndrome?”
Joph looked shifty. “It might be?”
“It’s what the label says. There are thousands of these pills! It’s you. The hidden supplier I’ve been chasing all over Melbourne is you.”
“That’s a big conclusion to leap to,” Joph protested.
“Don’t you even. How did you—what? You’re involved with smugglers now? Is that who you’ve invited to take care of Tegan? Some criminal with a heart of gold smuggling medicine to thirdies?”
“You might say that,” a new voice said.
Bethari swung to face him, her jaw dropping wide.
In the lab doorway stood Abdi Taalib, looking completely unimpressed with me, Joph, Bethari, and the entire world.