The morning Jacob called us to the field
and said he would take us back
to the land of his father, Isaac—
the one led up the mountain by his father
to be bound and knifed and burnt for love
of the god of his fathers, I thought,
I will not.
I would stay, I would put away the knife
I’d kept after that first night.
Small at first, twisted flick of the tip
around the white crescent scars
Rachel’s fingernails left on my forearms
when we were girls. Then deeper
lines inside my thighs, the parts
he used against me.
We would go, he said, then he knelt
and started on the green poplar rods. He scored
and ringed and nicked them till the white
shone through, freckled and blotched,
then he laid them in the gutters of the troughs
—he believes with this he makes the cattle
bear young of the same mottled stripe.
This wage I have settled with your father, Leah,
he said to me aside. Those born solid
stay with him. The speckled and spotted
and ringstraked are mine.