Still Joy

for Amy

It was June again, towards the end,

all blue and green, full June, leaves shining

like droplets from a garden hose you waterfalled

through the morning sun into a backyard pool,

the kind you blow up ring by ring—remember now

the spatter sound of the first drops on plastic,

the beach ball smell of it, the endlessness

of summer?

It was my year to turn fifty and I wanted

to see things near as well as things far

so my younger daughter and I went walking

the three blocks to Walgreens, just down on the corner,

for reading glasses for me. I saw it

when we were five or six houses down—

a small, lady-sized chair, painted grass green

waiting at the edge of the sidewalk in a row

of mismatched end tables and empty baskets.

I want that, I said.

It was a rocker, I saw when we got closer.

What I love about a rocking chair

is how it lets you go

backward and forward, over and over

without ever leaving where you are. I want that,

I told my neighbor, and I gave my seven dollars

to her son who was watching over things and he set

the chair back from the sidewalk for us to pick up

on our way back.

It was a lucky morning, so I got blue

cats-eye glasses with sparkles in the corners.

And we got ice cream to walk back home with

because it was already about as hot as you could

stand, the sun that hot and bright. Drops of sweet

running from wrist to elbow and us trying

to eat fast and pick up the rocker at the same time—

she took one arm and I took the other and between us

we carried it through the morning

like a bride.