EQUINOX

Time split like a fruit between dark and light

and a usual fog drags

over this landfall

I’ve walked September end to end

barefoot room to room

carrying in hand a knife well honed for cutting stem or root

  or wick eyes open

to abalone shells memorial candle flames

split lemons roses laid

  along charring logs Gorgeous things

: : dull acres of developed land as we had named it: Nowhere

wetland burnt garbage looming at its heart

gunmetal thicket midnightblue blood and

  tricking masks I thought I knew

history was not a novel

So can I say it was not I listed as Innocence

betrayed you serving (and protesting always)

the motives of my government

thinking we’d scratch out a place

where poetry old subversive shape

grew out of Nowhere here?

where skin could lie on skin

a place “outside the limits”

  Can say I was mistaken?

To be so bruised: in the soft organs skeins of consciousness

Over and over have let it be

damage to others crushing of the animate core

that tone-deaf cutloose ego swarming the world

so bruised: heart spleen long inflamed ribbons of the guts

the spine’s vertical necklace swaying

Have let it swarm

through us let it happen

as it must, inmost

but before this: long before this those other eyes

frontally exposed themselves and spoke

2001