Surrender

Stacey

All the lights are off

but they don’t fool me

because I can feel their

baited breath.

I know they’re awake,

lying still in bed,

thinking to catch me

drunk or stoned

Even though they won’t

call me or come out

because they’d rather

keep silent

And pretend, like with

my sister, never

facing her head-on

like parents

In movies do:

yelling and screaming,

demanding answers

from their kids

Instead of hiding

their heads in the sheets

like they’re afraid of

what they’ll see.

What would happen if

I banged and crashed and

stamped my way upstairs

like thunder,

Noises they couldn’t

ignore or pretend

away, forcing them

to emerge

And smell my beer-breath,

see my blood-shot eyes

and deal with me once

and for all?

They might be surprised

by how willing I am

to put myself

in their hands.