The Kind of Life I Want

Annabelle

My mom’s had to work hard

because she’s a single mom.

That term always makes me imagine

that other people have double moms

or triple moms—a string of moms

stuck together like those paper cut-outs

we used to make in kindergarten.

My mom says she’s a woman surviving in a man’s world,

which means she has to be careful about how she dresses

and acts at work, where mostly men get promoted.

She wears two-piece suits and pointy-toed shoes,

and carries a leather briefcase full of stats

on house sales, interest rates, and mortgages.

She smiles at meetings while the men crack dirty jokes

and loosen their ties because they can let their hair down,

while hers has to be impeccably cut and streaked.

My mom says it’s a disgrace that I don’t take care of my face.

She buys me creams and lotions to clear my skin

even though she knows I don’t play that game.

I hate the way girls fool themselves

by using eye liner and mascara, as if

popularity comes in a tube.

She says one day I’ll have to learn to play the game

like she does every day, preparing for battle,

putting on her armour, layer by layer.

But I know I won’t because that’s

not the kind of life I want:

corporate.