CHAPTER I

Commander James Driscoll, attached to the Intelligence branch of the United States Navy, has asked me to write this, in order that my version may be placed in the files with his own account of certain peculiar transactions which took place in Japan and China some months ago. My immediate reaction, when Driscoll made the request, is the same as it is now. I had a vision of certain executives in the service reading this sort of thing. I told Driscoll that no one would believe it, and his answer, if not a compliment to me, was partially reassuring.

“Maybe,” he said, “but I have a hunch they will. You’ll probably write it so badly that they’ll know it is the truth.”

“But it’s preposterous,” I said. “It’s melodrama. Honest to goodness—no one in his right mind, Driscoll, if he isn’t in the scenario department of some movie outfit, writes this sort of stuff.”

Driscoll thought a moment. The idea appeared to interest him so much that I believe he has really thought of writing fiction in his softer moods.

“Don’t let that worry you,” he said finally. “It wouldn’t go. Any sort of narrative has to have a hero in it to get over with the public, and, believe me, you weren’t any hero. Oh, no, you don’t need to be self-conscious for once in your life. Just snap into it. It won’t take you long. Besides, there’s another angle to this sort of thing. Probably no one will ever read it, anyway.”

“Then why do I write it?” I inquired. Curiously enough, this question seemed ridiculous to Driscoll. He reminded me that I had been in the service myself at the time of the World War and that I should understand about army and navy paper work.

“You can just go right ahead,” he said comfortably, “with the almost complete assurance that the whole thing will be stored away somewhere in a room in Washington. Why, if I can possibly avoid it, I won’t read it myself.”

“Thanks,” I said, “but how do I begin?”

His answer, though practical, has proved of no great help.

“You sit down with a pen and ink and paper, and you write it. You can still form your letters, can’t you? You tell what happened, Lee.”

So that’s what I am doing. I’m using Driscoll’s time-worn phrase of snapping into it. I am trying to cast back into this series of incidents which occurred on the other side of the Pacific Ocean, but although the pieces have all been fitted quite completely together, when I try to start, the elements of this artificial beginning are as mysterious as the beginning was in fact. My mind lingers on certain incidents. I think of a suave scion of the Japanese nobility named Mr. Moto, if that is his real name. I think of a dead man in the cabin of a ship; the roaring of a plane’s motor comes drumming across my memory, and I hear voices speaking in Oriental tongues. The past of an ancient race mixes peculiarly with the present. And in back of it all I see a girl,—one of those amazing wanderers in our modern world, disinherited and alone. International espionage moves in a world of its own, and its characters must always be lonely.

“Under-cover work is always like that,” Driscoll said to me once. “The people one encounters are much the same. They may be shady and raffish, but don’t forget they’re all of them brave. They do their work like pieces on a chess-board and nothing stops them from moving along their diagonals. You mustn’t feel animosity toward them, Dee, for they feel none toward you. They’re working for their respective countries and that’s more than a lot of people do.”

Perhaps what is still the most interesting part of this adventure is its complete impersonality, its lack of rancor. I believe honestly that if Mr. Moto, a most accomplished gentleman, and I were to meet today that we might enjoy each other’s company; and I should be glad to drink with him in one of his minute wine cups to the future of Japan. I have an idea that he would agree with me heartily in wishing for perpetual amity between Japan and the United States, as long as that amity did not interfere with what he and his own political faction conceive to be his nation’s divine mission to establish a hegemony in the East. Distance sometimes makes it difficult to remember that Japan is a very great country and that the Japanese are capable people, sensitive and intelligent. Still, although it sometimes seems incredible that our two nations should ever go to war, there is always the thought of war behind the scenes in every nation. Given a shift in the balance of power, men like Moto must start working, I suppose.

But I am getting away from by beginning.

Probably I had better start in the Imperial Hotel at Tokyo one afternoon in spring about a year ago. Out of some confused notes which I made at the time I have been able to rescue the essential dates and scenes. With their help and my memory, I’ll do the best I can.

In the first place, I suppose I must tell who I am and what I was doing in Tokyo one spring afternoon. Though time moves fast and characters appear and disappear in a hasty procession before the public eye, the readers of the newspapers for the past decade may be vaguely familiar with my name. I am the “Casey” Lee whom various publicity directors have touted as a war ace. My first name incidentally is not “Casey” but Kenneth C. Lee—K.C.—not that it makes much difference. I am the Casey Lee who flew the Atlantic at a time when previous flyers had rather taken the first bloom off that feat. My reputation and my personality used to be as carefully built up in those days as a pugilist’s or a motion-picture star’s, for my personality meant money. In short, I was one of that rather unfortunate group of almost professional heroes who sprang up in the boom days after the war and whose exploits diverted a jaded and somewhat disillusioned nation. I was a stunt flyer, having been a Chasse pilot in the war, a transcontinental flyer and a transatlantic flyer with a row of American and Italian war medals besides. My picture looked well in the rotogravure sections. My testimonial looked well in the advertisements of clothing and lubricants and nourishing foods, but when the cloud of depression grew blacker, people quite reasonably seemed to grow tired of heroes. I was pushed more and more into the background with others of my kind. Thus, it was not strange that when money was running very short and a large tobacco company offered me the chance of making a flight from Japan to the United States, I should have welcomed the opportunity. I welcomed it even though I had no great conviction that I was any longer in a suitable condition to go through with such a business. I was only glad to attempt it because I was rather tired of life. That was why I was in Tokyo, in a country which was entirely strange to me, waiting for a plane to be shipped from the States and for the usual publicity to start.

I can still see the yellow stonework and the curious floor levels and galleries in the Imperial Hotel and their strange sculptured decorations, half modernistic and half Oriental. I can see the intelligent, concentrated faces of the waiter boys and the outlandish mixture of guests,—Europeans from the embassies, tourists from a cruise ship, Japanese in European clothes, Japanese girls in flowered kimonas, Japanese men in their native hakimas. That background of costume is startling when one stops to think of it. It is like the East and West meeting in two waves of unrelated cultures which swirl about Tokyo’s streets.

It was a fine sunny day outside, I can remember. It occurred to me that I had been drinking heavily since early in the morning, but this state was not unusual with me. At the time of the war we pilots had drunk in the evening to forget the imminence of death, and after that most of us had continued, to forget the imminence of boredom. I think we had a reasonable semblance of an excuse. When one starts air fighting at the age of eighteen the values of life are apt to become distorted. One craves for the thrill of excitement as the nerves of an addict clamor for his favorite drug. I cannot feel so badly about the drinking of those days.

It was the drinking that I had done to drown the depression that inevitably follows a man unlucky enough to become a publicized hero of which I cannot boast. Liquor had become a problem to me, when, after weeks and months of every sort of adulation for having made a transatlantic flight, I was dropped as suddenly as if a wing had come off my plane. The depression which follows the excitement is the worst of it. In those moments of let-down I could sometimes see myself as I must have appeared to others,—not Casey Lee, one-time war ace, who had fought in Poland and Spain against the Riffs, nor Lee the ocean pilot, but only a shell of that Casey Lee.

I remember that I was talking. There was a crowd around me as usual, of people who had nothing better to do than listen to me talk, and who enjoyed the association with a celebrity even if he might have been a trifle seedy.

“The plane’s being shipped next week, a new type Willis Jones AB-3,” I was telling them. “Give me another week to tune her up and I’m ready for is. I’ll take her across alone, straight on the shipping lane, with one stop at Honolulu. The Pacific isn’t any worse than the Atlantic, if you fly high, I guess.”

“Will you have another drink, Mr. Lee?” someone said.

“Yes,” I answered, “I will have another drink. I’m perfectly glad to have several more. Does anybody here think I can’t fly the Pacific?”

“Oh, no, Mr. Lee,” came a voice from the crowd; “of course not.”

“There’s only one thing that can stop me,” I said, “and that’s money, and I’ve got the financial backing this time. Give me a crate to fly and refueling planes and I’ll fly a non-stop around the world.”

“Why not make it twice around the world, Mr. Lee?” another voice said.

With a little difficulty I focused my attention on the speaker. He was a pale pimply youth whom I had never seen before, obviously an American. “Listen, baby,” I said to him. “You’re the only product that America’s turned out since 1918. When I see you, I know the United States is going to hell. I don’t have to listen to your lip. Everybody knows who I am.”

“Of course they do, Mr. Lee,” said someone. “Won’t you have another drink?”

“Yes,” I said, “I don’t mind if I do. Always glad to have another drink, always glad to try anything once or twice—that’s me.”

“Tell us,” said someone respectfully, “who is backing you this time?”

“It’s a cigarette company,” I said. “They’re using a part of their advertising appropriation for a transpacific flight. Believe me, it’s the first break I’ve had in a long time. The mayor of Tokyo gives me a couple of packages of their cigarettes, or somebody in Tokyo, I don’t remember who. And I deliver one pack to the Governor of Hawaii and another to the Mayor of New York City. I’m going to be a good-will ambassador between Japan and the United States. But I don’t care so long as I have a crate to fly. The good old American game of nonsense doesn’t bother me.”

“You needn’t yell about it so,” a voice objected. “You’re an American, aren’t you?”

“That is where I was born,” I answered, “but I’m broad-minded enough to have my own ideas. I’ve fought for the Spaniards and the Poles. There are other nations besides the United States—in case you don’t know—several others.”

“All right, Lee,” said someone, “but here you are in a public place. Keep your voice down. A lot of these Japanese are looking at you.”

“Let ’em look,” I said. “Why should I care if they look? And I’ll say anything I damn well please any time at all.”

As I spoke, I became aware that my voice must have been louder than I had intended. I saw individuals staring at me curiously and I set down my glass. I was reaching a stage, which I had known before, when I became sorry for myself. And I had a sufficiently good reason to be sorry for myself half a minute later. One of the hotel boys, bowing and drawing in his breath noisily between his teeth, presented me with a cable. The words were slightly blurred and I had to concentrate to make them clear, before I could understand their meaning. The cable was signed by the codeword of the cigarette company. “Plans for flight off,” it said. “Bank will pay your passage home.”

My first thought was one of sickening hopelessness, for I had not realized until I saw that cablegram how much I had counted on this opportunity. It had raised me in my own estimation above other flying men I knew, and it offered me a prospect of redeeming myself in the eyes of others. I knew well enough why I had been selected,—on account of my name and my past reputation, not because of any present ability or future promise. I even had a sufficiently uncomplimentary idea of myself to suspect why the plan had been vetoed. I could hear them in New York saying that Casey was through. It seemed to me that everything was over then; I could see myself returning to the role I had played for several years, living on an outworn reputation. I suppose whoever we are, we try to rationalize all our failures. We push away our own faults and try to blame them on someone else. That is exactly what I did then. In some irrational way, I attributed my own failure directly to my country and to my country’s eccentricities. The group around my table was looking at me curiously as I stared up from that cable. I tried to return casually to the subject where we had left off, a difficult matter when the words of that cable were ringing, with the drinks I had taken, through my thoughts.

“Since when was it a sin to criticize one’s country?” I inquired. “I’m tired of having everyone wince and look scared, if a word is said in public against the present Administration. If it represents the will of America, it is not the country that I used to know. The United States are in the hands of a lot of communized visionaries, if you want my idea. I’m not afraid to say I’m ashamed of certain aspects of my country. I could tell you a thing or two about what’s happened to commercial aviation. Can you sit here and admit that my country has not repudiated its just obligations to its citizens by juggling with its currency? The word of the United States isn’t what it used to be, and the sooner we all know it the better. The national character isn’t what it used to be, and I can prove it by this cable in my hand. Now that our government can repudiate its obligations, any citizen seems to feel free to break an agreement any time—as long as the man he breaks it with can’t get at him.”

“What’s the trouble, Lee?” someone asked. Even in my stimulated state, I felt that I had become involved beyond my depth, and that I had made a statement which I could not back by intelligent argument. I was no expert on the problems of currency and I realized that the economic woes of the world were as insoluble as my own.

“Those double-crossers back home,” I said. “They’ve turned me down.”

“Maybe they heard something,” a voice suggested. “You’ve been raising a good deal of hell, Lee.”

There was no doubt that the remark was true, but its implication was enough to make me lose my temper in a way I never had done before. I could see myself going straight down the ladder without friends and without respect. I whirled upon the man who spoke and I shouted at him. In my total lack of self-control I did not care for consequences. I did not care where I was or who heard me.

“Some damn sneak like you has been telling stories on me!” I shouted. “By God, do Americans have to have Boy Scout masters and Sunday-school teachers to fly for them? To hell with you! To hell with the whole bunch of you! And particularly my fellow citizens.”

I could see that my last remark shocked them, and now I can understand why. National solidarity becomes important in direct ratio to the distance we are away from home.

“Be quiet, Lee!” one of the group said.

“Who for? You?” I answered.

“No, for yourself. You shouldn’t slam your country in a foreign place.”

“And who’s going to stop me?” I shouted back.

That was when I saw an American naval officer had joined us, a former friend of mine. He must have heard me talking. I had not seen Jim Driscoll for years, but we had served together in the war as naval aviators on the Italian front. I knew him right away when he walked up to my table,—a trim stocky man in a white uniform, with commander’s stripes and a heavy determined face. “So you’re drunk again, are you, Casey Lee?” Jim Driscoll said.

As I say, I remembered, Driscoll well enough. To see him appear just then out of nowhere was like a final blow by destiny to my own self-esteem. We had started even once. I had been a better man than Driscoll back in the war, and now we stood there, both changed by the pitiless marks of time,—Driscoll a commander in the navy, and myself an arrant failure.

“Not too drunk to know you, Jim,” I answered.

Jim Driscoll had put on weight since I had seen him last, and was too heavy for flying now. He had assumed an expression that I had seen others of my own friends wear of late. In it there was a hint of pity, and it annoyed me that Driscoll should pity me or should be in a position to administer reproof.

“Casey,” Jim Driscoll said, “I used to think you were the bravest man in the world. You’d better sleep it off. You wore the uniform once.”

“The luckiest thing I ever did was to get out of it,” I told him. “It gives me a chance to say what I think. It’s more than you can do, Driscoll, and you can remember that I’m not one of your enlisted men. You heard me; what are you going to do about it? I don’t like my country.”

“I can tell you what I think of you,” Driscoll answered. “You’re making yourself into a public disgrace as well as nuisance. If I weren’t leaving for Shanghai tonight, I’d see if your passport couldn’t be revoked.”

I took my passport out of my pocket, tore it straight across and tossed it on the floor.

“And that’s what I care for my passport,” I said. “There are plenty of other countries. Take Japan—Japan’s a nice country.”

But Jim Driscoll paid no more attention to me. He had turned a stiff back and was walking steadily away. Then I saw that I was alone at the table where I had been sitting, deserted by everyone I knew.

It dawned on me that I had gone much further than I had intended, beyond the bounds of reason or decorum, in my criticism. I had spoken in a maudlin way, when I would much better have kept my ill-regulated thoughts to myself. Now that the damage had been done, I was too proud to retract a single word, if my life had depended on it. If they wanted to judge me by what I said in my cups, I would let them judge me.

Two Japanese army officers were staring at me fixedly. Also a short dark man with his hair cut after the Prussian fashion—a habit which so many Japanese have adopted—was seated at a table near me, regarding me with curiosity. He was dressed in a cutaway coat and wore tiny patent-leather shoes. There was a signet ring on his left hand. I saw him look down at this ring and back at me again. I remember thinking that he seemed like a Japanese trying to masquerade as a continental European and not succeeding very well. He raised his hand as I watched and beckoned to one of the clerks behind the desk. The clerk hurried to him and bowed. Then the clerk turned to me.

“Perhaps you are tired, Mr. Lee?” the clerk said. “Will you have someone conduct you to your room?”

Then I found myself being helped to my room, whether I liked it or not, by the clerk and the small man in the frock coat, one on each side of me.

“It is too bad,” the small man said. “I am very, very sorry.”

I did not know until later that it was Mr. Moto who was speaking to me. I still do not know his exact rank, but he was a gentleman, no matter what his race might be.

“I am sorry,” said Mr. Moto again, “very, very sorry. You will be better after a little sleep, perhaps.”

He spoke sharply to the hotel clerk and the man bowed in a way that made me realize even in my condition that Mr. Moto was a man of importance.

“You may go now,” he said to the clerk, “and understand, this gentleman is to have anything he may want.”

The door closed softly behind him and I found myself sitting on the edge of the bed, with little Mr. Moto standing attentively before me. I have never felt so much an alien, for the conviction was growing upon me that I was cut off from everything I had ever known before. I, a man without a country, was closed into one of the curiously furnished rooms of the Imperial Hotel with that Japanese who exactly fitted into the surroundings.

I looked up to find him still gazing at me thoughtfully. I wondered what he wanted. I wished, with a sudden intensity, that he would go away.

The furniture was of some light-colored unvarnished hard wood. There was a built-in dresser, showing an odd unsymmetrical arrangement of cubbyholes for clothing. There were several chairs with legs short enough to accommodate a low-statured race. A writing table was covered with hotel notices in both English and Japanese. Beside the bed was a pair of hotel slippers, reminding me that the Japanese spent a large portion of their life in changing from one set of footwear to another. I looked at the man again. I still wished he would go away.

“May I help you to bed, perhaps?” he asked.

“No,” I answered. “What’s your name?”

He smiled deprecatingly. “Moto,” he replied. “That is my name, please, and I should be glad to assist you. I was once a valet to several American gentlemen in New York.” He knelt down and began to unlace my shoes. “Please,” he said, “thank you. America is a magnificent country.”

“Maybe,” I said. “But it’s thrown me over flat, Mr. What’s-your-name.”

“Moto,” he repeated patiently.

“Well,” I said, “you’re not a valet here in Japan.”

“No,” said Mr. Moto, “but Americans always interest me. I saw that you were not well and that your friends had left you.”

“Listen, Mr. Moto,” I said, “when they can’t get anything more out of you, Americans always go away.”

“It was not kind of them,” Mr. Moto said. “I am sorry.”

“Mr. Moto,” I told him, “suppose you stop saying you’re sorry. What do you want with me?”

“Only to assist you,” he explained. “You are a foreigner, a guest, in my country, who has met with misfortune. Everyone knows who you are, of course. We have a great respect for American aviators.” He drew in his breath with a peculiar little hiss. Even though he was dressed as a European and acted like one, he could not avoid some of the involuntary courtesies of his race. “I have seen you before. I think last night, in fact. I saw you dancing with a girl—a very beautiful girl with yellow hair. Was she not a Russian?”

I cast back into my mind with difficulty, trying to remember the hazy events of the night before. For a longer while than I cared to remember days and nights were hazy. They were made up of afternoons of drinking at some bar, cocktails before dinner somewhere, and more drinks, and then oblivion. Then I remembered that there had been a girl, a nice girl. My embarrassment, as I recalled what had happened, made me speak of her casually, as though she belonged to a lower class, but I knew better, nevertheless.

“Yellow hair?” I said. “Oh, yes, I met her somewhere. Yes, her name was Sonya. I don’t know her last name—one of those Russian names. We got on very well until—well, I wasn’t myself last night. She tossed me over when I made a pass at her. All right—what do I care? She might have known I didn’t mean anything by it. Everybody’s tossed me over!”

“Please,” Mr. Moto said, inhaling through his teeth, “here are your pajamas.… You made a pass at her—I do not understand the phrase. Will you explain it, please?”

“Haven’t you ever made a pass at anyone?” I inquired. “You might have, Mr. Moto. Since you’re so curious, I don’t mind telling you that I tried to kiss her in a taxicab. That’s making a pass. She made the driver stop and got out and left me flat. I’m sorry about it, if you care to know.”

“How do you mean?” said Mr. Moto. “She left you flat?”

“The way you see me now, Moto,” I said. “I’m much obliged to you, but I wish you’d go. I want to go to sleep. I want to forget I was ever born.”

I must have been half asleep then, but it seemed to me I could remember Mr. Moto moving carefully about my room. I was in a stupor, I suppose, somewhere between sleep and waking, with the fumes of Japanese-made whisky curling like mist through my consciousness. I seemed to be in an airdrome, in the cockpit of a fighting plane, ready to take off over the Austrian lines. Then, for no good reason, I seemed to be sitting on the lowered top of an automobile, riding along Broadway with the air full of ticker tape and torn-up telephone directories. I could hear the crowd shouting and a man in a cutaway coat like Mr. Moto’s was making a speech. “America is very proud of you, Casey Lee,” he was saying. Plenty of people were proud of me in those days. They were proud to have me at Newport and Southampton. They were proud to have me examine new tri-motor planes. They were proud to have me autograph books. It only came to me later that they were proud to take my money. I wondered what had happened to those days. They had moved away from me into a series of speak-easies and club barrooms, leaving me finally—there was no use mincing matters—a broken-down adventurer. For no reason, I suppose, except because Mr. Moto’s question had made me remember her, I thought of that girl of the other night. She had been the best-looking girl in the room, and the best-looking girl had never been any too good for me. And who was this girl? A Russian émigrée, a spy perhaps; Japan was full of spies. At some time while these thoughts raced, I must have gone to sleep. Sleep was the closest thing to being dead, and I wished that I were dead.