She smelled like baby puke. Wynter leaned her head against the door to the nursery, breathing a sigh of relief that Charlotte had finally drifted off. She just wanted to jump in the shower, get into her pajamas and talk Sam into a cuddle on the couch. Maybe with a little kissing. Or a lot of kissing.
Good grief. She was bone tired and embarrassingly smelly. Sex should have been the last thing on her mind. But just thinking about Sam had her willing to trade that most valuable of commodities, sleep, for a little alone time with her man. Her man.
She’d never craved Holt’s touch the way she did Sam’s. Sex with Holt had been pleasant. Wynter cringed. What kind of description was that? The guy knew his way around a woman’s body. But her reaction had been purely physical.
She understood why now. She had loved Holt. But she’d never been in love with him. Sharing her body with him had been a duty, a wife’s responsibility. Sam wasn’t even her husband, but a connection was there that had never existed between her and Holt. As was the case of late, thoughts of Sam had her tingling, squirming.
“Hey, Wyn, can you come in here?”
See? Just his voice could curl her toes. Wynter smiled, turning toward the bedroom at the end of the hall. She’d just peek in, tell him she was in desperate need of a shower. A strange glow lit Sam’s room from within. Shuffling forward, her heart raced with equal parts fear and excitement. What was he up to?
Candles. The room was filled with them. And the bathroom too, by the looks of it. Wynter sniffed the air. Cinnamon? And some kind of pine? Every surface was covered with tiny tea lights, votives in holders and regular water glasses, and jars from her favorite candle company of all time.
“They’re Christmas scents, I know. It’s all I had. Paulie sent me a buttload so I’d be prepared in the event of a blizzard.” Sam dug a toe into the carpet and looked up sheepishly. “It’s too much. I can put them out.”
“No! Please leave them. I love them. I love Christmas scents, flavors, everything about Christmas.” She stepped into the room, turning in a slow circle. If it was possible for a smile to spread from her face to the rest of her body, then it did. She felt the smile in her heart and it warmed her and filled her with a sense of belonging, of purpose.
“I ran a bubble bath for you. Take your time.” Sam held up the baby monitor he’d swiped from her bedroom.
“Sam, are you . . . Is this . . . ” Afraid to look him in the eye, she twisted her fingers together into knots. Her eyes darted from one flickering flame to the next.
He tossed the monitor on the mattress and strode toward her, taking her hand in one of his. Reluctantly, she met his gaze. His grin was fortifying. Reaching up with his thumb, he worked her bottom lip out from between her teeth, rubbing it slowly. Wynter held her breath.
“Take your bath, Wyn. I’ll be waiting.” The kiss he dropped on her lips was full of promise.
The sudden rush of heat between her legs made her knees wobbly. She nodded, concentrating on putting one foot in front of the other as she made her way into the steamy bathroom. Was she supposed to shut the door? Would that be rude?
She glanced back to find Sam standing in the center of the bedroom, his hooded eyes watching her every move. Emboldened by his gaze, she left the door open and peeled off her clothes, one item at a time. Automatically, her hand reached out to cover her tummy pooch. Sam’s tongue darted out to wet his lips. Had he gotten closer to the doorway? Wynter’s stomach lurched and nerve endings all along her skin stood at attention. And this was how he affected her with just a look?
Careful not to slip, Wynter slid a foot into the foamy water. This time, in addition to the pine and cinnamon wafting through the thick air, she picked out vanilla and . . . was that bayberry? It should have been a chaotic, overwhelming mix of scents, but somehow it actually fit. Her body sank into the bubbles. She let her head fall back, the hot water tickling her chin. Her eyelids drifted shut.
Her ears were beneath the water, but she knew the moment Sam entered the bathroom. Suddenly shy, she wasn’t sure if he intended to join her in the massive soaking tub or just sit and watch her bathe. Her eyes remained closed as she waited for him to make the first move.
“You’re so beautiful.”
Good first move.
Wynter cracked an eye open and peered up at Sam, who was on his knees, his elbows resting on the edge of the tub. She glanced down to see if any of her lady parts were sticking out of the bubbles, thinking that was what he was referring to. Nope. Actually, his eyes had never left her face.
“I was wondering . . . ” His voice trailed off. Spots of color bloomed on his cheeks. “I wanted to try something.”
She sucked in her breath, rising out of the water a bit, panic awakening a flight or fight response within her. Was this a kinky something? Just as quickly she shook that thought from her head. All of this was new to Sam. Of course he was nervous.
“Would you let me wash your hair?”
Wait, what? Okay, she hadn’t been expecting that. She blinked him back into focus, as a broad smile slowly spread across her face. Why, yes, yes he could wash her hair. What a delicious idea. Her heart tripping in her chest, she nodded.
Wynter slid lower in the water until her hair was floating around her. For the first time in forever she wished it were longer again, able to swirl through the water, the strands long, silky, and incredibly sexy. Her spiky cut now felt boyish, butch. She sat up, drawing her knees to her chin and hugging them against her body.
“I remember your hair when we were in high school. You always kept it down with that big, fat headband to keep it all in place.”
He liked it better longer too. A frown pulled at the edges of her mouth.
“Heck, you could have just tumbled out of bed and never brushed it. It was always the color that got to me.”
She chanced a look through her lashes. Sam’s eyes were bright but his smile had that faraway look that told her he was more in the past than in the moment. He reached for the shampoo in the corner and drizzled a little directly on top of her head. Wynter couldn’t help the giggle that burst out. It tickled. Who knew she had such a sensitive scalp? Shivering, she concentrated on getting her head back in the moment.
“Fire and . . . life. That’s what I always thought of when I thought about the color of your hair. You always looked so full of life.”
“Did you think of my hair often, Sam?” She’d meant it as a joke but the way his fingers hesitated, Wynter knew she’d struck a chord.
“Well, when you have hair the color of molten lava, it tends to be a focal point.” He quirked one side of his mouth up, a funny half-smile.
And then his fingers began to tunnel through, massaging her scalp and she could no longer focus on anything but pure sensation. She purred—she was sure of it. And she didn’t care. Sam was working magic and she hoped he’d never stop. His blunt fingernails raised goose bumps over every surface of her skin as he scratched them over the top of her head, multiple circles swirling in tandem. It was luxurious. The purr turned into a deep-throated moan. Wynter’s tongue slipped out to wet her suddenly parched lips.
Sam’s fingers pressed harder. Another quick glance told her this one-sided foreplay must have been torture on him. His eyes were nearly black with need. His nostrils flared and the delicious way he nibbled at his lip had her wondering what it would feel like were he to nibble at her the same way. Yes, it was time to wrap up this bath.
“I think I should wait for you . . . in the other room.” His voice had come out strangled. He seemed to be struggling for every breath he took.
“I’ll be quick.”
Sam gave a hard nod, fixed his gaze on her mouth, and then, as if he were fighting a losing battle, cupped her soapy head and drew her in for a soul-searing kiss. Just as quickly he let her go, both of them shaking. With a last searching look he turned and hurried from the room. Wynter could see him just beyond the doorway. He was pacing.
She ducked under the water, rinsing the shampoo from her hair, every touch a torturous reminder of how it felt to be under Sam’s talented ministrations. She thrashed her head from side to side, in a terrible hurry to finish, to get back to him.
Screw conditioner. She couldn’t take the time. She slapped a handful of soap on her skin and slicked it across her body, using the slippery solution to get the job done as fast as possible. Her every thought, every need, was focused on that man in the next room and how badly she wanted to be with him. She’d stepped into the bathtub with every intention of worrying through what was about to happen. But Sam had made her forget all of that.
Slipping her arms into the old flannel robe that smelled just like him, she belted the sash, hugged her belly and willed the butterflies to settle down. She felt like she’d been waiting for this one moment all her life. Emerging from a cloud of steam, spying Sam waiting for her by the edge of the bed, Wynter realized that, yes, she had been waiting just for this exact moment. She had to fight the urge to run across the carpet to him.
• • •
She exited the bathroom on a cloud of steam, the sweet smell of vanilla announcing her arrival. Turning to face her, Sam had to stifle a groan. Wynter was wearing his bathrobe. He’d never be able to wear it again without thinking of this moment, and how hot she looked in it. At this rate he was going to drool. He was going to embarrass himself and slurp all over her like a dog.
Get it together, man! It’s Wynter. Which was exactly why his hormones were in overdrive and his nerves were frayed. Here was the woman he had dreamt of his whole life, the woman he had thought out of reach, an impossibility. Now she was in his bedroom, in his robe, wearing nothing beneath but a sultry smile.
Suddenly the holiday candles couldn’t have been more appropriate. It was Christmas. It was his birthday. It was every holiday and special anniversary wrapped into one incredible evening. Sam took it all in, memorizing the pools of light, the mix of scents, the feel of the carpet beneath his feet, the rosy hue of Wynter’s glowing skin. He wanted to remember this night forever.
Her footsteps faltered as she drew closer. Sam opened his arms, sighing as her body melted into his. His fingertips grazed over the slightly nubby fabric of his older-than-dirt robe. He had to fight the urge to tear the rag right off her. The only sound in the room was his own labored breathing. He slowed his movements, resting his chin on top of Wynter’s head as he took a moment to refocus. Dial it back, man. You’re going to scare the crap out of her.
“Are you . . . Is this okay?” Her voice was barely audible, her hands sweeping across his shoulders and down his back in what he realized was meant to be a soothing gesture.
She thought he was scared. He’d never been more ready in his life. Sam would have laughed if he didn’t think it would completely kill the mood.
“This is so very much okay.” And he could tell the moment she saw the absolute sincerity in his eyes.
Enough talking. Sam bit back a growl as he swept Wynter up against him, her toes scrabbling for purchase against the tops of his feet. He cut off her squeal with a searing kiss, his temperature rising when she hooked one leg behind him as though she were going to crawl up his body.
Walking forward, he reached the bed, tumbling them both to the mattress. Wynter’s fingers crawled beneath his sweatshirt, tickling and teasing at the same time. He released her long enough to yank the fleece over his head. She pounced on his bare skin, as though she couldn’t get enough of the feel of it. Sam knew the grin on his face was ridiculously cheesy.
He should be nervous. He should be worried about whether he was doing anything wrong. He’d waited his whole life for this moment. Surely there were ten million ways he could screw it up. But one look at Wynter, her eyes shining with excitement, her hands unable to keep still, Sam knew he had nothing to fear.
Kissing a trail down her neck, he parted the robe, pushing the fabric off one creamy shoulder. She shivered. Uncovering more skin, Sam traveled lower, kissing here, darting his tongue out there. He was about to draw one rosy nipple into his mouth when he felt Wynter tense, her small hands suddenly pushing against his shoulders. What was the matter?
She looked down at him, her head twitching in a slight back and forth motion, embarrassment etched into her features. It took Sam’s passion-filled brain a moment to process this response. And then he too was embarrassed. He tried to look away but Wynter cupped his head in her hands and pulled him back up, until they were face to face again. She laid a kiss on him that brought him right back to that spot where he couldn’t remember his own name.
Within moments they were entwined, skin on skin. The contrast, his rough and coarse, to her silken and soft, was mind blowing. Sam could go on touching this gorgeous woman forever. But when her bold hand reached down to stroke him, he knew there were more intimate treasures to explore. She rolled to her back, invitation clearly written into the gesture, as her questing fingers never let go of their prize.
This was it. Just seconds before, Sam’s lungs were working like bellows, his breath coming hard and fast. Now, as he looked down at the woman he knew he never wanted to live without, stars danced in front of his eyes from lack of oxygen.
“Breathe, baby,” she coaxed.
And he did. His brief moment of overwhelming fear dissipated as quickly as it had come on. Bracing on his arms, Sam rose above Wynter. Their eyes locked. He poured his feelings into that one look, his love, his trust, his vulnerability. He gave her everything.
“I love you, Sam.”
On those words he joined with her, experiencing the headiest rush he’d ever felt in his life. This was what he’d been waiting for. And it was more than worth the wait. This was where he belonged, where he was meant to be. Cushioned in warmth, surrounded by the intoxicating aroma of vanilla and Wynter, encouraged by the symphony of her cooing, moans, and soft sighs, Sam felt himself racing toward a pinnacle he wasn’t ready to reach. If he could freeze any moment in time, this would be the one.
This first time together came to a peak, and they were both replete, chests rising and falling in tandem as they fought to catch their breath. Wynter’s head rested on his shoulder, her spiky hair tickling him under the chin. She’d thrown a leg over his and curled an arm across his body. She hummed softly in his ear, a sound of pure contentment.
Drowsy, Sam fought to stay awake. He knew men got a bad rap for not holding up their end of things, be it post-coital conversation or cuddling, and he didn’t want to start out being like ‘those men.’ Then he realized that humming he’d recently found so adorable had turned into an even more charming snore. She’d fallen asleep before him!
So much for the requisite, ‘Was it good for you?’ conversation. Darned if he didn’t feel just a bit disappointed. Grinning at the direction of his thoughts, Sam chuckled to himself, resolving to use the opportunity to tease Wyn just a little bit, come morning.
He knew they only had an hour or so to nap before Charlotte woke for her next feeding. Shaking off the drowsiness in order to keep his girls safe, Sam got up and blew out all the candles before climbing back into bed. He hauled Wynter across his chest and wrapped his arms around her, holding tight. As he drifted off to sleep, he thanked God for giving him a second chance with the woman of his dreams.