I didn’t get home until dawn. A police patrol had arrived within seconds of my phone call to Veronica, not dispatched by her but answering calls from nearby residents who’d heard gunfire. I ended up going to the police station to give a statement, and while I was there I was given a long lecture on how I should have called the police before I set out with my camera. They were right, of course. I shouldn’t have left it to Justin. I didn’t argue. They also wanted to see the film, and I let them copy it. I couldn’t see why not. There was no secret.
Carol woke up when she heard me come in and she told me that William had slept soundly. Still I didn’t go to bed. My head was spinning, but my synapses were still buzzing, random thoughts splintering and racing off at tangents.
I rang Maeve. I got her at home, in bed, about to get up. I told her what had happened. I told her I had film of Mike Darling paying a ransom to a kidnapper and of Christopher being returned. I told her that as far as I knew, the child was at least alive, but more than that I could not say. I told her that Darling had shot at the kidnapper, and that as far as I knew the kidnapper had escaped unharmed.
“What do I do with the film?” I asked.
“I don’t understand why you’re even asking. Hand it over to News. Why didn’t you ring them there and then?”
“The whole thing stinks, in my opinion.”
“It’s a straightforward news story. Darling paid up, Darling got the baby back.”
“I know, I know.”
“Robin, we could have been first with the story, and you’ve been sitting on it like a bloody egg. The story is out there now. The film might as well be, too. Hand it over.”
She was right, but I knew that showing the film would make a difference to the way people perceived what had happened; it would give the words substance. I couldn’t explain why I was uncomfortable about releasing it. I did not know what I had witnessed, I did not know what it meant, and I wasn’t sure what the value was of releasing a piece of film if we could not adequately describe it. But Maeve was determined. If I wasn’t going in to the office, she said, she would send a courier around for the tape.
I said good-bye and hung up, still unhappy. I saw that Carol had appeared in her dressing gown and was making tea.
“I heard,” she said.
I shook my head and sat, exhausted, at the table, laying my head on my arms. She put a cup of tea in front of me.
“The baby’s alive, that’s the main thing, isn’t it?”she reminded me.
And of course it was.
William carried on sleeping, worn out by his sickness the night before. Hannah woke up and behaved like an angel, delighted to have me to herself. I played for a while, but I felt almost sick with tiredness and couldn’t keep it up. I lay on the sofa, and Hannah came and stroked my forehead, her lovely face just above mine. Her eyes, so like her dead father’s, looked down at me with exaggerated concern. Carol urged me to go to bed, but I was too wound up to sleep. In the end I sat at the dining table, getting in Carol’s way, listening to radio accounts of what had happened the night before, and waiting for the courier to pick up the tape. The minutes ticked by.
I thumbed through the newspaper and saw again the article reporting that Fred Sevi had been questioned for a second time by police. I wished I had some direct line to DCI Coburn, but all my information from the investigation into Melanie’s disappearance had come through Veronica or Finney, and I knew that it wasn’t the right time to call either of them.
I took the phone to the sofa and rang Beatrice. I had assumed that DCI Coburn would have kept her informed about developments in the investigation into her daughter’s disappearance. In fact, Beatrice had seen the same article I had and had contacted the police herself, demanding details.
“It’s something to do with mobile phone records,” she told me. “That’s all he would tell me, and he told me not to tell any journalists, so please, if you would—”
“We know Fred called Melanie on the night of January ninth from the gate of HazPrep,” I said. “He admits it, there can’t be any question about that.”
“I’m at a loss,” Beatrice said.
Something was tugging at my memory. Sevi shifting uncomfortably in his chair, saying that he had tried calling Melanie the next day from central London after attending the public lecture at the Wolfson Theatre. I asked Beatrice whether Fred had said anything to her about trying to call Melanie on January 10, the day she disappeared.
“I don’t think so.” Beatrice sounded mystified, and I told her what Fred had told me, that he had called Melanie but the connection had been so bad that the call had lasted only a matter of seconds.
“I wonder if he told the police that,” she said, “although of course it doesn’t really get us anywhere.” Beatrice had started out calm enough, but now I could hear the frustration in her voice. She had few illusions about Melanie’s fate, but she wanted to know what had happened, and why, and at every turn there was a dead end. We said good-bye.
I got slowly to my feet. “I’m going out,” I told Carol.
“You’ll make yourself ill,” she told me disapprovingly. She nodded at the MiniDV tape lying on the table. “Do you want me to give that to the courier man?”
I looked at it lying there. I picked it up, put it in my bag. “No. Tell him the order’s been canceled.”
She shrugged and watched as I picked up my keys and checked the battery of my mobile phone.
“It’s all very well,” she said quietly, “but if you get ill, you know who picks up the pieces.”
I gazed at her. “I’m sorry,” I said. “I promise I won’t get ill.”
“Right.”
It took a lot of asking, but eventually I found Justin and Jacqui in the hospital cafeteria, crutches propped next to the table, toppled paper cups rolling around on the table in front of them. At the next table sat a weary-looking man and a pale woman with tubes protruding from bandages at her neck.
The two young lovers were separated by the tabletop, but scarcely. Their hands were clasped together in front of them, and as I approached I saw that Jacqui had kicked off her pumps and that her two bare feet rested on Justin’s one good remaining foot. Her head was bowed, and Justin was leaning forward so that his lips pressed against her forehead.
“Hello.” I sat down, unasked, at their table. “How’s Christopher?”
“Sergeant Mann took Mum over to Lewisham Hospital to get him checked over,” Jacqui said. “He looks thinner, and he keeps crying, but I think he’s just confused, poor thing.”
I had no idea what kind of psychological scar an abduction would leave. It was hard to believe that the child would ever completely recover from being removed from his family and from his home. But Jacqui seemed upbeat about Christopher’s return, and I didn’t want to pour cold water on that.
“I’m really glad you’ve got him back,” I said. “Your mother must be over the moon.”
Jacqui didn’t respond directly. “Mum seems better,” she said.
“But, Justin,” I said, “I have a bone to pick with you. We had a deal and you reneged.”
They looked at each other.
“You told me you’d call the police, and you didn’t.” I spelled it out for him.
He shot a glance at Jacqui. “Well, it was okay in the end,” he said.
“You weren’t to know that.”
“I told him not to call the police,” Jacqui intervened. “Dad knows how to handle himself. There was never going to be a problem. If the police arrived, they’d have got involved, they’d never just have let it happen.”
Justin sat there with such a pained expression on his face that I couldn’t berate him further.
“I want to know how the kidnappers made contact,” I said.
“There was another note,” Jacqui said, “but this time Dad didn’t show it to anyone except Kes and me and Sheryl. I mean, not the police or Anita. It asked for a hundred thousand pounds.”
“How was it delivered?”
“I don’t know. I was out. When I got back, Dad told me there’d been this huge row with Kes and that Sheryl was giving him the money against Kes’s wishes.”
“I’m sure Sheryl had something to do with it,” Jacqui muttered.
“Sheryl paid the ransom. Why would she pay money to herself?” I was exasperated. “Why on earth this fixation on Sheryl? What harm has she ever done anyone?”
Jacqui looked at Justin, and he shrugged.
“Everyone knows. We all know, and the police know,” he said, and gestured to Jacqui that she might as well go ahead and tell me.
“She snatched a baby.”
“Years ago,” Justin added with a warning look at Jacqui. “It was years ago. I was just a kid. She was one of Mum’s friends. She was always around before Mum died, helping out, cooking, cleaning, ironing. I must have been ten or eleven, because that’s when Mum died. Sheryl was pregnant, only she lost the baby, she had a breakdown, and she took a baby. She was at her friend’s house, having coffee, and her friend asked her to look after the baby while she ran to the shops. When she got back, Sheryl was gone and so was the baby. She went crazy looking all over for them, and she called the police. They found them in the park later that day, Sheryl pushing the pram around like it was her baby. Sheryl acted all offended, like she didn’t know what all the fuss was about. She said she was going to take the baby back, and her friend should have known she wouldn’t hurt it. The police wanted to charge her, but once the friend had got her baby back, she was so relieved. She felt bad about getting Sheryl into trouble, so she told the police maybe she’d misled Sheryl, maybe she’d talked about going to the park and Sheryl had misunderstood her.”
“But nobody believed that,” I said.
“Nah. Nobody believed that. Everyone knew about the miscarriage. Nobody wanted to talk to her after that.”
“Except your dad,” I said. “He must have ignored what everyone was saying.”
For a moment Justin said nothing, but his face contorted with the effort of putting complex things into words.
“Dad says she needed him,” Justin said eventually, “although I don’t know why that means he had to marry her.”
“He obviously doesn’t love her,” Jacqui said, then looked away, unwilling to venture down the path that would lead to what she and I had both witnessed. “So you see? She’s a baby snatcher,” she insisted, changing the subject.
“And someone told the police, and that’s why they raided Ronald Evans’s house.”
“They had to know,” she said.
“Yes”—I pushed my chair back and got up to go—“I suppose they did.”
“I’ve got to go, too,” Jacqui said, checking her watch.
“You have?” Justin looked surprised. “Where are you going?”
“It’s nothing, I’ve just got to go and do something,” Jacqui told him, looking embarrassed. “I thought I told you. Anyway, I’ve got a few minutes.”
I left them there.
Once I was in my car, I had an urge to sit and wait for Jacqui to emerge. What was it she had to do that didn’t involve Justin? When she appeared, she walked toward me, pulling a mobile phone from her pocket, dialing, speaking. Then she put the phone away and pulled keys from her pocket, and approached a parked car that I recognized as Anita’s green Mini.
She pulled out of her parking space and headed into town. She was driving impatiently but not particularly fast, and I easily followed on behind.
My heart sank as she pulled into a multistory car park. Surely, I thought, she was not going to celebrate the reappearance of her little brother with a clothes-shopping trip. I could see myself trailing behind her to the Gap and Hennes and kicking myself for the wasted time.
I followed her on a pedestrian walkway out of the car park and into the mall, down an escalator to the basement. She seemed to know exactly where she was going. If this was shopping, it was at least focused shopping. Again my heart plummeted as she headed for Burger King. There was a coffee concession opposite, and I sat down with a lukewarm espresso. I could see her quite clearly inside Burger King through the glass frontage. She approached the counter, handed over some money, and picked up a tray bearing what looked like a paper cup and a bag of chips. She stood and turned her head, looking for someone. Then she made for a table in the corner, where a woman was already sitting, her head bowed over a magazine, a paper cup in front of her.
Jacqui put her tray on the table, and when the woman looked up, I recognized her. Jacqui squeezed into the chair next to Sheryl, and the older woman shifted away from her. These two were sworn enemies. What’s more, they lived in the same house. What was it they were discussing that they could not say in front of the others? Sheryl spoke, and Jacqui replied at length, jerking her head angrily. Sheryl shrugged. She seemed to be arguing, and Jacqui looked increasingly annoyed. Sheryl stood up. She swept the paper cup onto the floor, tea spilling across the tabletop, and walked out.
I went into the office. I told Sal that if anyone came by looking for me, he should say he hadn’t seen me. I took refuge in the editing suite. I got the tape of the ransom payment out of my bag, put it in the machine, and watched it through a few times. I gazed at the figure in black. My gut instinct was that the figure was male and tall. But the loose clothing blurred the outlines of the body. And without reference points it was difficult to judge size. I rewound it time and time again. I still had the sense that the whole event had been staged, but any handover of that sort must by its nature be staged. I was being ridiculous. Maeve could have her pictures. I looked at my watch. She’d missed the midday news, but she could pass it to the newsroom for the six. She was the head of documentaries, not news, but she would get brownie points for being the one to pass the film on, and it might keep her off my back for a while. I ejected the tape from the machine and took it into the office to put it in an envelope for the internal mail. Sal was talking to a young man. He was short, dressed casually in a Garfield T-shirt, jeans, and running shoes.
“Robin,” Sal introduced us, “this is Edwin Rochester. I just convinced him that you weren’t here. Robin”—he turned to Edwin—“is an illusion. But you may shake her hand.”
“I’m sorry, I was trying to avoid my boss,” I explained. “I’m so glad you dropped in.”
“Yeah, well, I know you’ve been digging around, and I’d really like to help if I can,” he said. He had an attractive, easy smile. He pulled up a chair.
“You spent a lot of time with her,” I said.
He shrugged. “We got on pretty well, so we traveled together when we could. We kept bashing into each other around the place. We pushed things a bit further than some people would. Melanie could talk her way into anything. Her bosses would have been horrified at some of the things she did. Not that they complained about her pictures. They supplied her with all this stuff, helmets, body armor, as though she’s going to wear twenty-pound ceramic plates all the time. If she’d been doing things by the book, she’d have been traveling with a bodyguard—they call them security consultants—but she preferred not to.”
Again I was hearing that past tense. But I didn’t pull him up on it. Who of us by now really believed that Melanie was alive?
“I keep hearing that Melanie was suffering from post-traumatic stress,” I said.
Edwin gave me a look that suggested he didn’t like what he was hearing. He leaned forward to rest his elbows on my desk and picked at the edge of a newspaper while he thought about his answer.
“I suppose it’s a possibility,” he said carefully, “but she was always solid as a rock when we worked together. Not that I saw much of her in the last year or so before she disappeared. I saw her maybe twice after Afghanistan.”
“Tell me more about Afghanistan.”
“It’s like stepping back in time.” He leaned back in his chair, swinging it gently to and fro as he spoke. “Scarcely any roads, and what there are are mined, bridges gone, mud houses, cloth on the windows, no glass. Anything modern is Russian—tanks, trucks, jeeps, weaponry. And the Afghans. There they are working as drivers and fixers for foreign journalists, and they’re qualified doctors and lawyers. Intelligent, handsome, with these aquiline noses, melancholy as hell. Crazy drivers. The women are all in burkas, of course. But hey, you know, the sky is this deep azure blue, and you sit on top of one of those flat-roofed houses in the evening, and you look up and the sky is full of stars, and it’s the closest you can get to heaven.”
Edwin had raised his face toward the ceiling, and he was smiling. It was all very romantic, but it wasn’t what I had meant.
“I mean, did Melanie ever talk to you about what happened in Afghanistan after you left? Like when you showed her the photos. What did she say?”
Edwin looked at me. “She made some comment, like that something went wrong, or she didn’t want to talk about it. But that was it.”
“You took some beautiful pictures of her.”
“Yeah. Well, she was a beautiful person. Not everyone saw it, but I like that look, you know. She played up to it, too. She knew what I was looking for. She used to mess around like everyone else, but as soon as I pointed a camera at her, she’d do this aloof, watchful thing. It was so cool.”
He stopped talking, and he watched my face for a moment. “You don’t have the first clue what happened to her, do you.”
I sighed. My head was pounding, and I was exhausted after my sleepless night. Christopher and Melanie. Why had I tied them together in my head? It seemed an empty hypothesis when I examined it closely, and I feared that I was concocting links and conspiracy theories simply because since Adam’s death I was prone to seeing them everywhere.
“No,” I said, “I haven’t got a clue.”
I asked him whether Melanie had talked about Fred Sevi or her friend Stella Smith. But Melanie had lived two separate lives. One she had lived back in Britain, where she had at least attempted to have a normal life. The other life she had lived abroad, frequently in hostile environments, far from safety.
After Edwin had gone, I addressed the envelope for the internal mail and wrote a brief account of what had happened the night before, and once the envelope had started on its way I spoke to the news desk about the film I had shot. The editor was bemused and irritated that I had not handed the film over earlier, but he was glad he would have it for the prime-time news slot.
I returned home still feeling uncomfortable about the film of the ransom payment. My meeting with Edwin had also made me feel deeply sorry that I had achieved nothing for Melanie. I wanted nothing more than to speak to Finney and to take comfort in his huge good sense. I wasn’t playing hard to get. I had tried calling him, several times. But he’d been, in turn, busy, in a meeting, unavailable, out to lunch, and engaged.
I put the children to bed, enjoying William’s good spirits. Hannah, jealous of the attention that William received, was trying to convince me that she was sick, too. She kept making disgusting but unproductive retching sounds that had William in stitches. Eventually I got them into bed, switched off their light, and sat at the computer. I could hear Hannah in the bedroom, still making retching sounds, and William giggling. I ignored them.
My mother had e-mailed to wish me a happy birthday. Which came as a surprise, because I had forgotten what day it was. Actually, so had she. She was a day early.
Many Happy Returns, but I’m busy trying to persuade myself I’m 21 again, so I’d be grateful if you wouldn’t remind me how Old you are. I have been Working Out. My Butt is getting Tighter (I am assured. I can’t actually see it without putting my neck out). I have an ADMIRER. He is American, but he’s a Democrat so that’s all right. Wish me luck.
PS would you like some Birkenstocks for your birthday? I believe they’re quite the Thing.
I saw there were two attachments, and I opened them to find that my mother had e-mailed me two pictures. One was a pair of very sensible sandals that would soon belong to me. The other was of her paramour, a man with a big smile who must have been in his fifties. This attachment was titled “Randy.” There was another e-mail from her. I opened it up.
PPS I have just read on the Internet about the missing Baby being Found. What Wonderful News.
It was, of course, quite simply Wonderful News. I held on to that thought and went to sleep.