Doc did not have the fucking flu, it would have been so much simpler if she had, but nooo, not her, she wasn’t so lucky. Her friends were currently staring at her sitting on the toilet staring at the small white stick in her hand. Doc grimaced. The Sisters were like this, when something happened to one it happened to them all, there were no secrets between them, although right now she seriously wished there were.
“OMFG,” Gypsy yelled from someone’s cellphone. “Seriously, what the fuck did it say, I am sitting here on the phone, I can’t see, bitches!”
“Shhhh,” Tae Tae whispered. “She hasn’t read it yet.”
She felt the tears well up in her eyes, shit, how in the fuck? She didn’t need to read it; the damn thing turned bright blue right when she peed on it. Doc wanted to laugh, seriously, she never thought she would be a mother, ever. Mostly because there wasn’t a man alive she didn’t want to kill. They annoyed the shit out of her, which was why being attracted to Fish was bothering her. She didn’t want to kill him; she just wanted him, which was abnormal for her.
She looked up and saw her family looking at her expectantly. Doc tried to smile, she seriously did, but she knew she looked like a serial killer. Especially when Maverick said, “Oh shit, she has the serial killer smile, but I don’t know what it means?”
Doc rolled her eyes and held it up. “Yay me, apparently the rabbit has died.”
“Oh shit,” Tae Tae whispered loudly. “She is thinking about boiling bunnies.”
“Huh?” Marbles snapped as she turned.
“Dude, that smile and talking about rabbits, she is gonna go Fatal Attraction on someone,” Tae said, and Marbles rolled her eyes.
“You totally have the wrong name!”
Just then Tiny walked in, “What is going on? And who has the wrong name?”
Marble pointed. “Tiny Dork, switch names with Tae Tae.”
“Um no, and it is not Tiny Dork, it is Tiny only you guys keep adding the dork, and it is not appreciated!” the small woman said.
“Can we focus here!” Maverick snapped.
“A BABY!” Mace screamed and then danced around the bedroom as she clapped her hands! “I’m gonna be in the delivery room! I call dibs!”
Doc sighed and shook her head. Of course, Mace would be happy, she was happy about everything. It was a little disconcerting, especially when someone was wounded and bleeding, she tried to sing to them. She looked on the bright side of everything, just weird, but lovable.
She stared at her family; they had been through a lot together, all of them. Hell, even the betrayal of one of their own. Doc refused to think about her right now; she wasn’t worth the energy she needed to use anyway. Pushing up, she moved to the doorway, everyone backed up but stayed close as she tried to figure out what to say.
“Wait!” Puddin’ snapped, and Doc froze. Puddin’ was a wild card. You never knew for sure what would trigger her, she was volatile, but then, of course, she was also a fucking master at hand-to-hand combat. “When did you have sex?”
Doc felt the heat on her cheeks, and then Marbles laughed loudly and said, “No fucking way!”
“What did we miss?” Jacks asked suspiciously.
“It was him, wasn’t it?” Marbles grinned.
“Who?” Mav asked with her eyes narrowed.
Doc groaned and put her hands up to her face. “What the hell am I going to do?”
“WHO?” Mav yelled, and then Puddin’ pulled out her knife and smiled.
“Right, who are we gonna kill?”
Marbles rolled her eyes. “Puddin’, put the knife away. And I am talking about the sexy as sin biker I told you about. Fish.”
“Why would someone have a road name like Fish?” Jacks wrinkled her nose.
Gypsy yelled on the phone, “SHIT, it’s that crazy bitch’s father, isn’t it, Harmony? She is batshit crazy, man; her and the other Lady Riders. Fish comes in every day to check on me or bring me meals. I swear those psychos have this room tapped. Every time he sits down to talk, suddenly there they are, asking him to do something or another. Then when he leaves they glare at me. The one called Shady, she went as far as to tell me to stop sniffing around Fish, he was too good for the likes of me.”
Doc groaned louder, “What am I going to do?”
All of them knew she was talking about the father, not whether she would keep the baby or not. That wasn’t a question, they all knew that Doc wanted a family for a long time. This was just a surprise, and they were going to need to help her through this.
“Back to the name, why Fish? I mean, does he go fishing?” Jacks asked again.
Mav put a hand on her nose and pinched it. “Seriously, people, FOCUS!”
“Hey, names are important!” Jacks said.
Marbles looked at her twin and said, “Would you let it go?”
Jack shrugged and said, “Whatever, now, Doc, what is the problem?”
She turned and fell on her bed, bouncing a little and sniffing. “What is wrong? Well let’s see...we are moving to a new town, we are starting our business from the ground up, the place we are moving is attached to a biker club that doesn’t necessarily walk on the right side of the law. Their women are vicious; Shadow said one of their own crossed them, and she disappeared, I mean there is vengeance, and then there is fucking crazy. How do you think they are gonna take me having a baby with one of their fathers? I mean, I think this could be bad, like really, really bad.”
“Are you crying?” Mav asked incredulously. Mostly because Doc never cried, like ever. She was a hard ass bitch, and they all respected her for it. Doc was brought up in the system, which was why she took care of this family. It was her first and only one; no one doubted her leadership, she would never do a damn thing to hurt them, ever.
“No,” Doc sniffed, and everyone crawled on the bed around her, making noises, trying to calm her down. Thank God, she had a king-size, but even at that, they were still piled up around her.
“It will be okay,” Tae said softly.
“How? In what fucking world is this going to be okay?” Doc cried.
Then Mav said, “We kill him and say you were artificially inseminated. Easy peasy!”
“Would you shut up!” Jugs snapped. “Can’t you see you are not helping!”
“I gave a viable solution, if she doesn’t like it, well, we can think of something else. But just saying, think about it hard ‘cause it would be the easiest really,” Mav said, and then Doc groaned.
“Are you going to puke?” Tiny whispered. “‘Cause I have a weak stomach, and if you do, I will.”
“Dork!” Tae Tae snapped.
“Knock it off!” Mav snapped. “Come on, Doc, let’s go out to the living room and sit down and think this out.”
Fish and Fork roared down the open highway, and for the first time in the last few weeks, he felt at peace. Now he could think clearly about what he was going to do. He knew by the time he got back that Doc and the rest of the Sisters were going to be there. Which was one of the reasons why he left when he did. He didn’t want to be there when they got there, mostly because it was obvious she wanted nothing to do with him.
He wasn’t desperate, he thought with a frown, there was just something there, but it had been one-sided, and he wasn’t going to make a fool out of himself anymore. He did that once for Harmony’s mom, and he wasn’t doing it again for any woman. He was going to keep his dignity this time. Shit, he should have never thought it would be any different.
He saw Fork turn on his blinker and he followed, pulling into the gas station behind his friend and got off his bike. “Hungry?”
Fish looked around, there was a diner next to the gas station, so he nodded. “Yeah, sounds good.”
They filled their tanks and then went to the diner to grab some food. After they had ordered and the waitress dropped off their sodas, Fork leaned back.
“So, what is this really about?”
Fish had wondered when Fork was going to ask questions, it wasn’t like he hid the fact that there was something bothering him, but it was the first time he hadn’t gone to one of his brothers and talked to them about it. He sighed and sat back.
“I don’t really know,” Fish admitted, and Fork frowned.
“You mean it’s not about Doc, that Satan’s Sisters you fucked that night Fling gave her and her club their sponsorship?”
Fish raised an eyebrow. “Shit, does Harmony know?”
“Oh, fuck no,” the younger man laughed loudly. “Do you really think Doc would still be alive? More importantly, do you really think Harmony would not have chewed your ass out?”
Fish sighed. “Yeah, you are right.”
“So, this whole mopey shit isn’t about her? Creed and I figured it was, hell, everyone figured it was,” Fork said.
“Everyone?” Fish asked, and Fork grinned.
“Brother, you fucked her on the grass between the two clubs, did you really think no one was going to see you? Shit, I think four of the guys told us the next morning.”
Fish groaned and leaned back. “I am too old for this shit.”
“Oh please, you are forty-nine, that is not too old, heck, if we didn’t know Harmony was your daughter we would have never guessed you even had a grown kid. Come on, there is nothing you can’t tell me. I am not saying shit to Harmony, you are our brother, and besides, I like my nuts right where they are.”
Fish chuckled. “My girl is scrappy.”
Fork shook his head. “No, I love her, but Harmony is not what I would call scrappy. I think I would call her a stone-cold killer.”
“Yeah,” Fish agreed and then took a drink of his soda and looked out the window. “I don’t think you ever met her mother. Her name was Shileen, Shi for short. Thought everything was good with us you know, thought it would last. But then she got pregnant, and her true colors came out. Hell, I practically had to pay her to keep Harmony, and as the months went on, I figured that she would change her mind. You know what I mean, after carrying a child for nine months and then going through all the pain of delivery, I seriously thought once she laid eyes on Harmony she would love her. Instead, the bitch handed her to me and asked for her money. That’s right, I paid her to give me Harmony. She doesn’t know; only I do, so don’t be spreading that around.”
Fork nodded. “I would never.”
“I know,” Fish said and then looked back out the window, it was really the only way he was going to get this out. “Anyway, I paid her a hundred thousand dollars for her signature and to never look back. Of course, the bitch didn’t think that meant for a lifetime. She came three times over the years before Harmony turned eighteen, three times I had to pay her not to interrupt my little girl’s life. The last time was her graduation, her mother threatened to go and make a scene. She knew it was the last time I would pay, and I did. Put me off women I tell you. Only had one-nighters for years, and only when Harmony was out of town or spending the night somewhere. I didn’t do that because there was no fucking way I was going to do that to Harmony, no way. Never fooled myself into thinking that I would want a woman more than as a bedmate. But there is something about her, Doc; there is something about her that just makes me think. Finally, there is a woman who isn’t full of shit.”
Fork nodded. “I feel ya, Creed and I felt the same about Harmony.”
Fish laughed. “Yeah, but once again I was wrong.”
“How’s that?” Fork asked.
“Gave her what she wanted and that was it,” Fish admitted and then shook his head. “Just needed to get the fuck out of there and get my head on straight. Sorry, just felt like shit was closing in. I was made a fool of twice now, thinking that for now, it is all just what was meant to be.”
Fork cleared his throat. “You know, I suck at women advice, don’t you?”
Fish grinned and said, “Yeah, Harmony says you suck at relationship shit, too.”
“She is right,” Fork laughed and then said, “but even at that, I can tell you that if a woman doesn’t want someone who would hang the moon for her, then she isn’t worth the energy.”
“Maybe, or maybe I’m just not meant to have a woman. Either way, I just needed to come to terms with it and move on. The only way I know how to do that is to ride. So here we are.”
Fork grunted and then said, “Well, brother, we will ride as long as you need to.”