She Gets Worse

Outside on the porch

Malia is folded over, quietly crying

in her mother’s lap.

I wonder if the earthquake scared her again?

Mrs. Agbayani looks at me, tears in her own eyes.

She puts her arm out to me.

I walk toward her until her hand

on my shoulder pulls me tightly in.

 

 

Blankie is spread evenly over Malia’s body,

but I can see her legs, red, swollen,

hives like scales.

 

 

Without moving even an inch

I hear her voice like it’s right in my ear.

It got worse.

Her voice is stuffed into her nose

and it sounds funny,

so I can’t help but laugh just a little.

And that’s when she looks up,

her face more red than I’ve ever seen,

her one eye swollen, but with the other

she glares at me.

I shrink

inside the orb of her eye.

She gives me an angry smile

her head in her heads.

 

 

Mrs. Agbayani exhales.

It’s a new outbreak, Etan, worse than we’ve seen before.

The eczema is spreading.

I hold up the tea. I have this from Mrs. Li.

Malia’s body constricts.

Ahhhh, I can smell it from here!

Mrs. Agbayani takes the bag,

holds it arm’s-length away.

 

 

I’ll take it inside.

Malia leans forward, her head resting sideways.

 

 

It’s on my back, and it hurts to sit up.

 

 

I don’t know what to say, and this time

it has nothing to do with finding my words.

 

 

Whatever you do DON’T say anything.

Can we just go down to the forest?

She slowly stands,

her shoulders hunched.