Sixteen miles north of Santa Barbara was a turnoff marked by a leaning sign that read FILO’S SANDY HOOK. The winding off-ramp led to another deserted beach. This seaside cove was more hard earth and weeds than sand and shell. Above the ocean was suspended a half-moon that shone brightly in a nearly cloudless sky. Close to the water stood a three-story ruin that had once been a stone and mortar lighthouse. Other than that, there was nothing and no one else around.
I parked behind some coastal shrubbery and made my way to the onetime tower of light that was ever so slowly turning to dust. There was a doorway with no door that led inside to a cracked stone floor and a rusted-out iron corkscrew-shaped stairway that wound upward.
When I entered, a large rodent or maybe a feral cat hustled out through a hole in the wall.
There was no roof and so the inside was illuminated under a steady stream of lunar light relieved here and there by soft shadows.
I lit a cigarette and perched against a ledge that jutted out from the seaward side. Smoking in the tapered stone building, feeling the night chill of the coast, I allowed my mind to go wandering as I waited.
First I thought about the hippie girl who had fallen in love with the backwoods witch. She had come reluctantly to help me but then threw her full energy into the task at hand. She believed in peace and love and helping all people everywhere, but Coco also knew how to seduce a man with sidelong glances and subtle movements.
And then there was our victim, the guy named Petrie possibly looking for a night of passion, or maybe he planned to rob the girl who he thought was a flush dope dealer. Hippies had their crooks too.
It felt as if I were in the middle of a play that I didn’t want to be in. The story was the search for a woman and a man who were not what they seemed. And even though I would have rather been home with my daughter, I was frustrated that I couldn’t manage to make definite progress in locating my quarry.
I smiled and lit another cigarette. Careful what you wish for, people said every day for probably as long as there had existed Homo sapiens. Soon, maybe in an hour, I’d find what I was looking for and wish that I had never made it that far.
My hands were cold. The susurration of the waves filled the air. I didn’t have a work a day job. I was paid for my labors but not really answerable to anyone. The path I was on might lead to my death, but I was consoled by the fact that this was true for every human being that had ever drawn a breath, felt a chill, or looked up at the moon.
“Coco?”
It was a hushed call, male and hopeful, coming from just outside the doorless doorway.
I stayed still.
A footfall on the gravel brought a soft-edged shadow into range.
I snubbed out my cigarette against the wall.
Another step and I could see the form of a man entering the husk of a lighthouse. He was somewhere around five-nine, skinny, beardless with long hair that was probably blond, dressed in jeans and a festive, floral-patterned shirt. It was the shirt that told me that he had come there for romance and not robbery.
“Petrie?” I said with an upbeat tone to my voice.
He could have run but instead he came into a pool of moonlight.
“Who’s there?” he asked the shadows.
Coming out of the shade, I said, “Coco’s friend—Warren Lull,” picking a name out of the chilly air.
“Who? Where’s Coco?”
I chose that moment to show him my pistol.
He jerked backward, bumping into a wall.
“I could just as well shoot you in the back as in the front,” I said, cutting to the quick of our conversation.
“Wha, wha, wha, wha, what you want?”
“Uhuru-Bob Nolicé,” I said.
“I don’t know who you talkin’ about, man,” Petrie said, his eyes as big as the moon above our heads.
I leveled the barrel of the pistol so that it was pointing at him. How could he know that the safety was engaged?
“Hey, man!”
“Uhuru Nolicé,” I insisted.
“We’re pledged, brother. We not s’posed to tell.”
“That will be your last pledge.”
“I don’t know nuthin’.”
I raised my gun hand, now pointing at his crown.
He started to weep.
Then I took a calculated risk. I flipped off the safety with my thumb and fired a shot over his head out a window behind him.
It was stupid of me but I was tired of the runaround. I wanted to get somewhere.
“He’s in a cabin, he’s in a cabin, he’s in a cabin we use sometimes for parties.” Petrie fell to his knees, crying out loud as he begged.
I felt bad about breaking him down like that. I didn’t see myself as a bully or a ruffian but there I was treating my fellowman like he was a dog.
“Get up!” I barked, even while feeling I wanted to console him. “Get the fuck on your feet!”
He was so scared that it took him a moment to find his feet, but then he did as he was told, sobbing.
“You gonna take me to that cabin or I will bury you under this floor.”
He nodded and I took out a pair of handcuffs, handing them to him.
“Lock one’a these around one wrist.”
He did as I said and asked, “What about the other one?”
“Let’s go,” I said.
We walked over to where my new-old car was hidden and I had him get into the passenger’s side. I worked the free cuff around the chrome handle on the glove compartment, binding him to my Dodge.
“Okay,” I said once I was behind the wheel, “which way?”
It was an extraordinarily beautiful drive. We turned up into the coastal mountains on a series of graded dirt roads, through a vibrant pine forest made even more exquisite by the light of the moon. On the way I saw an owl in flight and a group of six magnificent tule elk crossing our path.
For the whole ride Petrie rambled and farted.
“It’s not my fault we put him up here,” he said between directions. “I don’t even like the motherfucker. He took my girl and danced around like some kinda faggot in that African dress talkin’ all kinds’a shit. It was Theodore and Moondog wanted to help him. They said that he was fightin’ the Man but I think it must’a just been some jealous boyfriend shootin’ him when he jumped out a window.
“You know I’m from Chicago and we just do what we have to do to survive but I never meant to hurt nobody. And I was just comin’ up to meet with that Coco. But I didn’t know what she was up to or nuthin’.… You know I came out here three years ago because I didn’t like the winter. I’m just here for the sun, that’s all.…”
His blathering had no through-line but, for that matter, neither did his life. I had to open my window because of the flatulence. His cowering made me want to lash out and hit him with the pistol in my hand—I held back, however. I knew that it wasn’t his fault. He was in fear for his life and wouldn’t have been able to stop himself.
We had driven for forty minutes or so when he finally said, “It’s down in that valley. You could pull off the road up ahead.”
I drove into a natural recess between the trees and got out. Maybe two hundred feet away and down across a sloping lea sat a lopsided shack with a steady white plume coming out from a smokestack up top. There was light coming through a window. Another car was parked in the recess: a white Ford Falcon.
“He’s down there?” I asked.
“Yes, sir.”
“Is this his car?”
“No. It looks like Meredith Taylor’s.”
“Who’s she?”
“She lives at the commune.”
“What commune?”
“The house where I met Coco at.”
I took another pair of handcuffs and attached Petrie’s other wrist to a steel bar under his seat.
“If I hear one peep out of you I will come back and put a bullet in your head, do you understand me?”
Nodding, he let out a long, plaintive fart and I walked away, down toward the smoking shack.